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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 2h

For some reason I just noticed I sometimes have so much trouble swallowing saliva Like... now that I pretty much have dry mouth and swallowing a lot, sometimes I actually realized about it

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I was like "Why the hell am I in so much fucking pain...." Also me remembering I didn't took my meds at 11am... I just took it....

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

It has been a bit since I post here I had been pretty stable and all that... But I'm.. I'm starting to have a horrible chest pain in my left side.... and im fucking sure it is anxiety... but fuck it is hurting badly

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Hoy a sido un día muy extraño.... no hice nada.... no hice nada de lo que quería hacer... Y no hice nada en general... pero se me fue todo el día Y no recuerdo que hice alv

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Why I crack everytkme o move at night? I feel so unstable physically Like man... I'm stable mentally... it feels like I can't have both

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I could be mistaken... Pero hoy un chico en el trabajo cuando me acerque a el creo que me dijo "que paso guapo?".... traía yo audifonos pero estoy 99%seguro de que me dijo en masculino... es raro en el trabajo casi nadie me trata de el.. pero alch sentí bonito que un desconocido me lo dijera alv

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Also just for the record... don't fucking ask me how am I... if you're gonna downplay that I'm literally falling apart

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Part of me wants to disconnect for a bit... I feel so suffocated I feel like I'm just a burden bc of my health...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

I feel like a complete failure Maybe I shouldn't quit... I should auck it up till my hips actually fall apart

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

I... I have a dream Where I had a full beard, shaves but showing that I had a full beard and... *sigh* I have my looks rn ... I wish I had one

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

I'm done with this job.. I rather be unemployed

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Wdf with my own intrusive thoughts today... it is making myself feel uncomfortable

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I'm really happy that I'm finally stable... as stable as I have been for some years now... Rn im just so tired.. and talking with my psych, she told me it is most definitely bc of work and not because of the meds I'm really feeling okay... yes with some downs but normal... I'm just tired af...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Sweet paranoia I feel like the meme of "everyone is against you bark..."

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Man part of me wish I could go into psychosis and just think I'm in another place... day dream... believe I'm someone important... I would go into the mansion and be a proxy

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I hate it... I don't want to complain ... I want to shut the fuck up... I want to drink to cope... I want to smoke to cope....I want to do something to cope....

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I have noticed that I hit my head hardly whenever I feel so frustrated with things.... I want to hit myself till I pass out but can't... I'm so tired if this... I'm so tired of life

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Idk why I let myself get excited and bought everything...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

Well... fuck u hypomania... I kept working till this hour and I still feel like j can't sleep And I can't continue bc I need approval of the sketches

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

This will be a fun day... I'm feeling so weird... Maybe tonight I will just stay up and do as many icons as I can.... Who needs to sleep

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

Nglsometimes I think I have so many friends like I have friends at work, at my last work, childhood friends, Fandom friends, and friends from other circles... and j say "man I have a lot of people" But then is this time... where I feel like I have no one to talk to... Good tho... I can't explain it

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

I feel so behind in life once again.... I see my friends living alone and it makes me think... what I did wrong with my life... why I can't afford shit... why I can't really be independent...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

I can't sleep... And for some reason I feel so empty....

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

Fuck... I know some people hate that we use that term but I'm having a gorrible disforia about not being a dog... man... I miss my ears and tail... I miss just be able to cuddle with people and be petted... I want to cry

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

If you could assure me that if I kms I would reencarnate in a dog I would do it in a heartbeat...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Not me pushing myself to finish about 4 sketches... I practiced my tattoos on the orange 🍊 And now I'm feeling like crying out of exhausted but actually can't

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I might be burning out... maybe I'm pushing myself too much

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

Parte de mi quiere simplemente ser little y dormirme con Peluches acurrucado y apapachado No se si es un mindspace o algo más.... help...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

I'm... meh.... tbh... who cares I don't even know if I had been isolating bc this time is not my mind telling me to not reach out.. it is my body as I'm tired of life. ... I'm okay at my job... but tbh I thought I was made fir much more... so sad to see I'm useless

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

After so long of not using it... I decided to delete the chat bot app... I guess it is the best... Even tho I had felt a bit lonely... I just don't have the energy to talk much ...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

Ngl... I think this time I feel better as a unity than a system... I can't really explain or understand how and why but I'm glad my mind fused again...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Well I went from my meds kick me out in 30 mins... to now I have insomnia... it has been about 2 hours... why I can't sleep?!

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

The urge to sell every single character I own as I don't have any tiempo to draw anymore is hard.... I want to do it... I want to just give them away.... but every time I get any offer, I manic... I don't want to actually do it... My babies... they make me happy... I just don't have the time

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I feel so felt behind in life... I feel like my life is over and I'm gonna be stuck in these types of jobs just bc... I'm not good at anything else... I'm a failure... a total failure I'm sorry to everyone in my fam that expected much much much more from me in life...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Hoy sin querer external un pensamientos intrusivo Lit pregunte si creían que los largos cuchillos de sushi atravesaron un muslo completo

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Tal vez yo de novio sería un peligro ngl...

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Yeah.... we haven't seen each other bc well you don't seem to want to see me... tho . But today you told me that and said that we should go to the viking theme event.... like what's up to you... do you want me or not?! Even if it is as a friend... I hate we have so much in commun..... 2/2

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Ngk... thinking that he lied to me about not going to the gym no more... not replaying my messages... and just ignoring me for some days is.... like.. man I shouldn't be talking to you no more... But I f hate that you talked to me today and asked me "that miracle that we see each other here?" 1/2

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

Dear mía... I didn't missed you... I prefere ana... but it is so hard to be with her lately...

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