iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

Sometimes I wish someone would just make the hard decisions for me. Adulting really sucks.

Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

One day I hope to be able to stop beating myself up for things that happened in the past. I did my best while my whole world was working against me.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

I’m so tired of feeling like I don’t know who I am.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

I cannot allow other people’s life circumstances to dictate how I live my life. I am not responsible for anyone’s life but my own.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 24/07/2026

There are days when I wish I could just pack up my cat, get in the car and leave everyone and everything else behind. Today happens to be one of those days…

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

Some days I think about just walking away from everything. Just finally going to live the life I want without worrying about what anyone else wants or thinks or anything…

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

I’m really tired of constantly questioning if asking for the bare minimum is too much. Sometimes it feels like it’s just easier to be alone.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

If Serena Williams can return to Wimbledon at 44, I can start my masters degree at 55.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

Tired of sabotaging myself by placing other people’s feelings and wants as of higher value than my own. Still working on me.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

I’ve come to realize that the reason I dread telling my parents that I’ve decided to move to the other coast is that I know that my father has zero respect for me and will twist this into me chasing after an imaginary man that he somehow knows exists. FML.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

These barometric pressure shifts are killing me. Definitely time for a new coast. Gotta figure out how to make that happen.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

Trying to make major changes in my life. Big. Scary. Changes. Having faith in myself and in the universe that things will work out is challenging but I think it’s time to work for my own happiness instead of other people’s expectations.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

Currently accepting applications for someone to make my life decisions

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

My daughter passed along a compliment from a nice, age-appropriate man that she works with. Said that I’m cute and I’ve ‘still got it’. He’s happily married and not interested but she was talking about my reluctance to ‘get back out there’. Not gonna lie, I’ve been flustered for the last 15 minutes

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

Is it weird that I’m disappointed that my therapist tells me I’m doing fine and doesn’t push me to do more? Like he should expect more from me? Or am I just really fucked up?

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

My car has been at the dealership all day. Appointment was at 10:15 am. No call yet—4 hours later. My anxiety is spiking because my brain is in ‘worst case scenario’ mode. Ugh.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 02/03/2026

‘It’s a long way from the crack to the break’. Let go of my soul Mumford & Sons. That fucking hurts.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 24/02/2026

What do you do when every personality assessment points you to the tries of jobs you always wanted to have but life got in the way & now it feels like it’s too late to change? Because you’ve got responsibilities to meet & can’t support everyone by doing what you want??

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 12/02/2026

Had a few realizations in therapy today. Feeling a bit better about where I am.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

Ugh. My mother is reposting positive crap about the klantime show. I don’t even know who she is anymore. I really don’t like being around her or my father, and they don’t get it. My kids can’t believe that I was raised by them.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

I’m free. I’m free. I’m free. I’m free.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

Heading to the courthouse to see if today is the day my divorce heads forward or if my ex has found yet another way to sabotage things. If today isn’t the day, I’m done. He can handle it if he wants the divorce because I’ve done everything possible to make it happen.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 28/01/2026

I wish I knew what was going to make me feel better about myself, what was going to flip that switch in my brain that would make me worthy of the time/effort/money so I knew where to best invest in myself. Therapy never helps because I can get to the root of things but I can’t get past that. Ugh.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

So, I made this account so I can just shout into the void without anyone really finding me and, so far, it’s working :). Today I’m absolutely terrified that I’ll never get out of this low grade depression that’s been holding me hostage and I’ll be stuck in this rut forever. It really sucks here.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 25/01/2026

I’m feeling so powerless right now. I want to be out there, marching and protesting and screaming but if anything happens to me, who’s taking care of my kids? Not their maga grandparents or deadbeat dad. I feel so selfish though because there are horrific things happening and I’m not doing enough.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 16/01/2026

I know this isn’t logical and that I’m a privileged person but I still worry. My kids are like very white people but their last name comes from their Spanish great grandfather. It’s not reasonable to think that either of them would be picked up off the street. But when I worked in social services

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

I think I might need to change my therapist. She’s too nice. I need to feel like someone has expectations of me—like I need to figure my sh*t out to earn their respect or something. Is this healthy??

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 05/01/2026

Weird question but how does one actually pick up your life, move somewhere new and start over? Because my neurodivergent brain can’t get past the 10,000 questions it has to male even a single decision. Do you pick where to move? Or find a job and then move? Ugh. Hate being an adult.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 21/12/2025

Should I ever decide to date again, a proper appreciation of Fairytale of New York is a definite must.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 16/12/2025

Not sure if today’s text is an attempt at emotional manipulation or a reflection of willful ignorance but my mother assumes we’re coming for Christmas dinner. We haven’t gone to their house on Christmas Day in 15 years. I don’t go anywhere on Christmas Day. WTF?

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 16/12/2025

I wish I understood why I believe I’m not allowed to feel good about myself. No—I know why I feel that way. I wish I knew how to stop feeling that way.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

I’m tired of feeling like I have to accommodate everyone else’s feelings before my own. I know I don’t have to but I’ve been taking the path of least resistance for so long that I don’t know any other way. But having to plan out every move and every conversation beforehand is exhausting.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

Found a photo of myself from about 30 yrs ago. I looked so happy. But my brain is connecting that happiness to my physical appearance at the time which is significantly different than my current self. It’s causing a lot of dissonance and I’m really struggling to moderate my behavior right now.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 06/12/2025

Have my first call with my new therapist tonight. Don’t know why I’ve thought I was okay for so long but I’m not, I’m functioning just enough to get by. Maybe I’m finally ready to address the issues that have been plaguing me for most of my life.

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Bee @rly-me.bsky.social · 01/12/2025

Some days I feel like I’ve really just f*cked everything up.

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