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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

I’ve done it I’ve created life or maybe it’s not finished opening yet? I can’t tell it’s too goddamn small important thing is my cat is proud of me. after all these years I begin to respect you, she says

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

as a gesture of good faith I bought it a nice pot but I think it has insufficient drainage. too bad!! no new pots until it surrenders (produces 1 rose) you’re not going to die on my watch soldier the devil can’t have you yet the bud’s so fucking tiny, how hard can it be. theodora’s tail for scale

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

all my mental energies go toward keeping this stupid rosebush alive as long as it takes for one (1) bud to open. then it can die. but by god not before every day I stare at it like I work for the secret cia division that studies natural resistance of miniature rosebushes to psychic persuasion

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

(I know cats can’t touch poinsettias, do not worry, theodora doesn’t know how ladders or jumping work. all she knows is how to be jealous I don’t let her stand under the grow light either, I told her if she wants to be Big like a poinsettia she can hop in a pot & be watered. she will never do this

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

last year I bought the tiniest poinsettia in a 3-inch plastic container, counting on it to die when I forgot to water it for long enough. but it did not die after pretty close to a year it shamed me into buying a real pot & then doubled in size like overnight. these are a poinsettia’s tricks

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

sometimes I get a little testy at that kind of mock-chivalrous gazing upon girls who can’t hold their creator‘s attention long enough to get any attributes out of him. not a good game & who are you trying to kid. but as soon as I see the answer is “absolutely nobody” my good nature reasserts itself

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

don’t think melville sees it either. at all. but what do I know he is better on the subject of horses. a horse is a type of guy who eats oats & knows more than he’ll tell you. be polite

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

he is right, it is the same the world over. but wait a minute I am able to understand espionage as a dirty business even (or especially) if embarked upon out of patriotism & fine feeling. so I will allow “mysterious bearer of secret dispatches“ to be a slanderous speculation from a sailor. but—

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

but when I see the ideas held by all the world about literature, I can only say it is a superstition many would do well to follow me in adopting for their own anyhow I am reading redburn, a real book I didn’t imagine. it’s terrific

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

sad thing when a magazine published before I was born has a better idea of what to sell me than all today’s loathsome targeted ads combined what do women want? occult reference books, perfect bosoms, & cigarettes (back cover, not pictured) my bosom’s already perfect but they weren’t to know that

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

he barely looks at me (rude) but walks with purpose so I follow him to what is clearly the wrong shelf I bring this to his attention & you won’t believe this, he looks me in the eye & says “I don’t work here” a) YES HE DOES b) not ten minutes later I saw him in the manager’s arms

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

roy orbison as I live and breathe he can’t fool me with that cheap mustache

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

what a footnote it isn’t even true, the french pastry name guy endore’s delicacy forbids him to render in english isn’t untranslatable, “as such” or otherwise. it’s just extremely rude

“ *Untranslatable as such, but signifying apple fritters”

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

giving alison espach another try, even though she killed a kitty cat last time I tried to open my heart to contemporary light literature with no ghosts. she can do conversations & it’s amazing how many people cannot. besides, every 3 pages or so there’s a sentence I like

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

I know about childbearing & -rearing insofar as I read books, & the same goes for pottery. usually that suffices but book-learning is failing me here regarding the second two-thirds of this norwegian riddle which “has the answer ‘baby’ but applies equally well to a pot“ if you say so

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

fuck I’ve lost my cat, I need a detective won’t assume she ran off to the big city to be a waitress or a dope fiend. she wouldn’t & if she did she’d leave a note time lost is cat lost!! or is it could it be— false alarm she’s here she was just using nature‘s perfect camouflage, my birthday rosebush

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

ground loebs are deplored as an invasive species & a nuisance to amateur landscapers due to the difficulty of eradicating all volumes once the root system takes hold. in maturity, however, growth slows & ground loebs are useful, even vital, to the mid-atlantic cat, whose preferred habitat they are

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

and what a cat never heard of, a cat can’t judge you for. that’s how I see it but, I don’t know how, she very obviously has heard of it. and she thinks it’s dumb she communicated all this with a look, which she is very good at. try it sometime, she said to me

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

finally, whenever she looks like this I sing to her, “hey did you happen to see the most beautiful cat in the world” you probably already guessed this, but she’s never heard this song in its original form this is probably the worst thing because I do it every day sorry again theodora

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

and this, which follows I could try to explain why but I’m not sure I would do a good job I still feel very much at a loss trying to talk about certain things in to anyone who doesn’t have this bit saved away in a corner pocket somewhere in the oldest wing of their brain

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

setting aside the childish enthusiasms I adopted for john dee, prague, angelology, the pastoral, hermeticism & rosicrucianism, other things I first encountered as just words, not even concepts really, but beautiful & promising words— some things he wrote himself also had an effect on me mostly this

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

the second thing, I guess it’s not that amazing, is this part. I can always find a crumb of Interior design in the dullest & most disappointing book . in 1980 you could say, I’m looking to give my new corner office a certain “bitch quality,” & a designer would know just what to do. at least in paris

“There was a bitch quality in the perfumed air; these were the quarters of an aging, pacing tigress”

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

my favorite guy in heliodorus’s Ethiopian Story is kalasiris, unless that isn’t his name or unless it is two different guys a) the original of my dumb achewood “it is impossible to have a good day“ tshirt b) want to hear the saddest story you ever heard? you will want to buy me lunch first

“The old man replied that he could not have a good day, since fate refused to grant him one.

“Would you like to tell me how and when you fell victim to this atrocity?” asked Knemon. “Later,” he answered. “Now it is time to attend to the stomach.”

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

I am aware that titles & approximate plots are among those things that can’t be copyrighted & I am also aware that my great devotion to reading scary-house garbage for unknown purposes leads inevitably to half my brain & body mass replacing itself with recycled styrofoam. but jeez

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

my favorite mean remark about a film w/ a classical subject is what vincent canby says about cacoyannis’s Trojan Women, in passing, in his review of something else I never saw it so I can’t say if he is correct except insofar as it is correct to be the world’s biggest bitch when the fancy takes you

“This sort of film provides a valuable service if you can’t read”

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

the only authoritative expert on odysseus’s rotten character is still me. this is overwrought & overwritten bc whenever I get angry as a little rumplestiltzkin hopping about & tearing his beard, it shows. well I was a mere child when I wrote this & can’t be responsible for its bad style

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

but she never really got into it as it reminded her too much of herself. “we are twins” she says. it’s in the eyes she says

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

first she gave it the eye from across the carpet but it was too afraid to make the first move so she grew bolder & tried biting it, making love to it, things of that nature

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

what the look said was, This is not a fish, you forgot to take the tags off, do you take me for a fool no theodora I take you for a keeper of that poetic faith which is constituted by the willing suspension of disbelief for the moment, coleridge says oh all right she says. let’s see

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

together we drowned out the buzzes & bangs as best we could by watching The Saddest Music in the World together she was calm throughout but so, so angry every time the windows rattled she would shed another tiny cluster of hairs, released straight up like a little cloud of dandelion spores

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

I am not only a current dc resident, I was at lollapalooza 1994, & I won’t have it retroactively belittled only side stage acts I remember were the verve & the flaming lips, I couldn't tell you crowd numbers, but it wasn’t a bit like this. there were absolutely some people there. maybe even several

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

you really really must poor fred the junior physics fellow gives a lecture on “gauss’s theorem as applied to gravitational fields“ that spins out into one of the sadder ‘listen up, liberals! my wife left me‘ speeches I’ve read it’s all very good. although it mostly convinced me atoms aren’t real

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

what a brave, noble man stick to your guns, dr matthews never come to the future, they’d eat you alive I mean they would be extremely tedious at you

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

extremely good skies lately usually I keep my eyes on the ground because if you don’t say hello to a raccoon as you pass by, she tells her friends & relations & pretty soon the whole neighborhood has a poor opinion of you, even the squirrels. but there are things to see if you’re willing to risk it

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 11/06/2026

usually I don’t really approve of people who have a defined & very specific ”type,” as it speaks to a longing for the days when you could order a fully assembled spouse out of the sears-roebuck catalogue. dull. an exception is the woman who loved false dmitries so much she married two of them

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

but penelope fitzgerald’s special gift really is being so funny I forget to laugh. I wish the phrase wasn’t so attached to a time & circumstance nobody likes to remember because I would say it now if only I could be the first to coin the phrase. her other gift is knowing everything but that’s easier

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

selwyn had better suffer greatly in the coming pages. or I will have to climb bodily into this book & feed him to his own printing press

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

just completely give up caring which notes & suddenly you can play a sketchy impression of the thing you want to play without hurting yourself. still with too much tension of course but without feeling something about to snap big news! to me. think how happy my downstairs neighbors must be for me

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

little raccoon I would never put you back in the mirror when a wild animal is not afraid of me I worry. but when it broadcasts suspicion & scorn anyway, just to make the point that it is not running away, it is simply leaving because it doesn’t care for the company, I feel so proud

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

yesterday’s raccoon whenever I meet one in daylight it’s like seeing my own reflection escaped out of the mirror to scuttle around in the corners. & when it sees me back it stares for a minute to let me know it’s not afraid before it scambles up & away over the fence. no walls can hold her

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

the loathly machines think they have figured out my demographic weakness & serve me nothing but this class of advertisement morning noon & night too bad they are 20 yrs too late to convince me it is a problem I need to buy something about. or 30 more like

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

well now I don't know if it’s fair to expect better behavior from someone whose parents named them Hantavirus Brit. only natural really. when they got sick it must have felt like their destiny had finally come calling like hannibal lecter upon first looking into a rhyming dictionary

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

literature is a poison & the proof is I’d lay odds these two are in love or will be in love within the next 40 pages. I’d wager my left arm on it whereas if I overheard such a conversation in life, would I think the same? I would not

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

anyway whenever she strikes that pose she looks a little bit like washington crossing the delaware in the painting but more than anything she looks just exactly like this the worst thing is I can’t tell her so because she doesn’t know who that is, she wasn’t alive in the ‘90s

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

Caroline & I would get along so well because what I enjoy is to slightly shock people with my denunciations of whatever, at the moment, happens to be the special annoyance

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 20/04/2026

the author here is not one I think that highly of, but when he’s right he’s right. being right two footnotes in a row is a rare gift christ how “inexplicably amusing“ some people do find that whole business oh the stories I could tell naturally I won‘t. but could

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

sharp’s martha novels have faults you wouldn’t believe, and plenty of them. to start with they should be one book not three, you can skip nimbly over the entirety of wwii between chapters as easily as you can between books. but Martha herself is like unto a god to me, just about

“I’m sorry I ever had anything to do with you, and I don’t like your mother either”

and your little dog Toto, too

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

o h m y g o d can you believe “Kyle” called someone else a fuckin idiot when he is himself that very selfsame fuckin idiot I spoke of, before. behold the man. know thyself, kyle!!! but kyles never do, do they

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queenofbithynia.bsky.social @queenofbithynia.bsky.social · 22/03/2026

damn it she’s doing it again (going into the magic flowerpot & coming out the far side of the mirror) she’s not allowed and she won’t even tell me how she does it

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