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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

- closes off that side of him though it does shine through at times. She has never told anyone about the vague memory flashes but she knows that her grandmother can tell that something is bothering her. Baghra is observant like that and always has been with her.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

- clearly understand why it drove her father to be the way he is now, why he always strived to instill his values and beliefs in her as she grew up. At the same time though, she can also clearly see why he can seem distant. She thinks it is because he fears losing anyone else he cares for, so he -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

She sometimes gets vague flashes of memories from infancy, things she shouldn't remember. Like being introduced to her mother before her mother died when she was born. That one is the most common. The feeling of loss is what lingers the most from the flash of memory. It troubles her because she can-

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

*She plans to train today, possibly with @ravkasqueen.bsky.social as part of peacemaking. She needs to see @thedarklingofravka.bsky.social first. She has ideas to discuss with him. After all, they're a team when it comes to protecting the Grisha, aren't they? Even if they disagree at times?*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

*Does this mean she can't just hide in bed? She doesn't want to be awake. Her sleep was.....troubled.*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

*Yeah Aleks is skipping training today. She did not sleep well. She'll deal with any consequences later.*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

Grandmother.....*she sighs* That is being resolved......

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

//Not me finding a typo in my headcanon thread and getting driven nuts till I fixed it.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

- when he is angry. She tends to display small signs of the fear, despite her efforts to hide it. Only those closest to her are ever able to see the shift.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

- grandmother was unable to do so, perhaps she can succeed. That is why she befriends Genya and Alina. To have allies in this. Her father is attracted to Alina and Alina to him. That alone could be enough, with Aleks also offering counsel. Or so she hopes. But the fear is often stronger, especially-

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

//Just put contacts in. While my eyes adjust, typos will exist.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

*Aleks nods* Of course. Thank you....for listening.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Aleksandra fears her father, possibly more so than the other Grisha. She knows his story, his past. She learned about it from both her father himself and from her grandmother. She knows what he is capable of and while she fears it, she also wants to convince him there is another way. Where her -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

*she wonders how angry her father still is and if she should try to sort things out. Where in the hell are Genya and Alina when she needs advice?! Or even her grandmother?!*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Trust me, even Baghra has told me that. She even tried to teach me ways to prevent it. Sadly, that didn't work the way she wanted it to. She said it'll take time but....it's frustrating.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I don't try to be, David. I just....that just happens.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

It's hard not to end up with his temperament when everything he taught me revolves around it. The reacting with anger part only rears it's head when I feel threatened or someone just pushes the wrong button.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I normally don't talk about this. Most since....well....no one really asks. Only Genya and Alina have really tried to get to know me. Everyone else either fears me because of who my father is or because I'm like him. It's a bit annoying, in a way.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- I would have preferred but she made sure I learned what she could teach me. I'm glad she helped with my training. Without her, I'd probably still be that girl fighting her training out of fear.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

*Aleksandra nods* Thank you. I may have lost my mother but I can use her power. I just never really trained with it. I prefer the one i inherited from my father. It's what he was able to teach me to master. He preferred training me himself, though Baghra did help. She pushed me a bit harder than -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Worst part is, he had to watch her die. At least that's what he told me about it when I asked him about my mother when I was little. I have both their powers, his and hers. I just train with his more.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

She had lost a lot of blood from being stabbed before my father could get her to any Healers. They could only keep her alive long enough for me to be born. I can see how that changed my father. He became more prone to anger. And more determined to keep Grisha safe. My mother was Grisha as well -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

You mean who was my mother. She died. Was killed actually. She survived long enough to have me, if I remember the story correctly. My father was never the same after that. *she is careful to keep certain details to herself*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- like Zoya can do. I learned to spot the signs that it's time to back down. Something not everyone here has done.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I don't mean to. I'm just saying that I've seen it more than the rest of you. I grew up with him teaching me to master my powers and his vision for a safe haven for Grisha. He never took well to me doing anything that didn't fit his plan. And trust me, I did my share of not quite listening. Much -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- same time. Not what I had planned today but I've learned not to become too attached to my plans.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I've seen more of it than any of you have. He raised me so I've seen him angry more times than I'd like to have. I learned very quickly the best way to quell it when it's directed at me. Today it was due to fighting within his ranks. I felt I should deal with his anger and save Zoya's neck at the -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- to oversee things here. When he's angry, it's best not to push your luck. And believe me when I say his anger tends to be terrifying. I had to do something to try and appease him.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I made an attempt to save Zoya's neck. She was getting sent to lead the Second Army, which isn't where she wants to be. I told my father there may be another solution. That instead of of sending her away, give her a role in things here. That I'd be willing to forget the incident and work with her -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I'll admit I'm quick to anger but I try to be the bigger person. That's how we're trying to resolve it.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Yes. Zoya had attacked her with her powers during training once, l saw it and confronted Zoya. And there's been issues ever since. We're trying to sort it out though.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

No. That was because she has issues with me due to Alina's presence and decided to attack me while I was having a moment to myself. We're.....trying to resolve it.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I do know her. Not well but I know her. And I have to know everyone's skills, what they can do under pressure and them as people. I, like my father, seek to protect all Grisha. I just have my own ideas in that regard.

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- habit even Baghra can't cure me of. Trust me, she's tried. *she then joins Zoya in watching the shadow again*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

*When she hears Zoya speak, she watches her father's reaction and the shadow warily. Her father can be unpredictable at times, especially when angry. She looks at Zoya when she is spoken to, realizing that Zoya understood what she just did* As am I. I tend to be quick to react with anger. A bad -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Yes. I am. Aleksandra. And you are? *she chuckles* I've commanded the Second Army at times for my father, as part of the training he set me. I should know every Grisha here. What leader doesn't know all those they are responsible for?

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Who is this Grisha I've not met? *is watching @grishasqualler.bsky.social from a distance* Here I thought I knew all the Grisha seeing as I do command work for Father at times. Well when he's not furious with me for incidents with Zoya anyway..... *she's muttering all this to herself out of a habit*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- what she's just attempted to convince her father of before she looks to her father* I apologize for my part in this. *she then casts her eyes to the shadow again, hoping it will disappear. If not......they're doomed*

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- expands on her attempt to be the bigger person, though her eyes are glued to the shadow behind her father in a slight show of fear now* I am willing to forget this incident happened and work with her to oversee things here, if you'll allow it. *her gaze flickers to Zoya to see if she realizes -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- also won't hear the end of end of it if Zoya ends up sent away rather that being part of things here. Zoya may blame her for that. Zoya better appreciate the next words that come out of her mouth* Perhaps if Zoya were a part of things, she wouldn't feel a need to lash out so much. *she then -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

- father will only react even worse and to follow her lead here since she knows her father better than Zoya does. She then turn to her father, steeling herself to hide her fear at his anger* We may have taken things a bit too far. Surely there's another solution? *she doesn't like Zoya but she -

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Aleksandra Morozova @puredarklingspawn.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

*Aleksandra eyes her father warily as the shadow forms and grows the more frustrated and and angry he gets. She tries to meet Zoya's eye to silently tell her that this is why she tries to stay on her father's good side. Almost as though trying to silently tell Zoya not to push her luck because her -

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