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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Finally settled in NY and able to get back to pup shenanigans.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Feels good yo be back out and about

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

Need with out feeling guilty on any of the many levels I usually do.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

Everyone was wonderful and respectful. But that doesnt change I had no sexual attraction to any one them. Not a single person this weekend did I have that 'damn they are hot/ I want to fuck them' (everything was consensual dont get me wrong). I was able to address the biological almost primal

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

As it is #Asexualityawarenessweek I spent the weekend with a start of actual exploration of my sexuality. As of now I still set myself on the ace spectrum, but have a better understanding of what I needed to participate in the more biological need that T produces for me.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

I have unlocked slutty pup mode, open hole this weekend at #LVFC Will be out again this evening only this time sporting my singlet. This T pup is ready for more cocks.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

Just feels like too much, and the pressure of also presenting myself as gay/queer/pup enough adds to that.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

Really regret staying in Seattle for the extra two days, for many reasons but mainly money and just wanting to be home. Everything is just a chore these days. I am also learning how to live with chronic pain that I know the VA is going to deny up to avoid getting me the benifits I earned. Life

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

I also dont want the next day to come because I dread the show that I have to put on, even for myself at this point. I have already come to a place where once I move I feel I need to be single for a logn while. Really unpack some cultural pressure I didnt address when I first transitioned. Also

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

In a way that didnt excite me like it used to. I know there is alot of stress and uncertainty in the coming days as my career is finally ripped from me. But this has been going on for a long time. Everything just feels like a transaction, something I guess I have to do to get through another day.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

The guy. He was sweet and all. But I felt no difference with him than I did with someone I know and love/care about. It just felt like a waste of time, that I could be doing anything else but that. But at the same time nothing really excites me anymore. Hockey this weekend was amazing but still

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

I am in a place with sex in general where it all feels about the same, and none of it excites me. Last night was the first time I have hooked up outside of what is left of my relationship in a long time. And, I am sure to most people it would have been great. There was nothing wrong with

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

I think I just left the cleanest bathhouse I have ever seen. Shout out to steamworks seattle. That place bordered on the side of spotless, for real.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 14/02/2026

Puppies first goal! Ourdoor hockey weekend is a blast so far!

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/02/2026

Working on Gruff 3.0, now that I have beard I am thinking of getting a frisky, does anyone know if my current muzzle would snap on to a frisky? I didnt think updating would come so soon, but my beard and the chin on my current hood are not friends. It would be cool to have two muzzle designs.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/02/2026

Forgot to post, but I got my @theicedogs.bsky.social jeresys a while back. Deciding which one to wear off the ice next week in Winthrop during the Pride tornament. Love the black but the white is also very sharp. Also, the best quality jeresy I have so far.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/02/2026

Wrestling was one of the most euphoric things I did before I was out, even to myself. It also was the most dysphoric when I saw the shape of my body in a singlet post 10th year. I loved this sport, still do. It genuinely saved my life in other aspects.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 07/02/2026

High-school me would be ecstatic seeing how a singlet now fits. My wrestling career (pre transition) was against boys. I did pretty well, but as I got older and the curves hit, I forced myself to stay at the 96lbs weight class to try to hide them...a singlet showed everything.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 06/02/2026

Hockey tornament next week! I'llbe in Winthrop for the Frozen Pride Classic and then the 16th in Seattle. Hope to have some fun there outside the rink 😉

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

Not one to post face pictures on this account, but I will make an exception for my 5 year T anniversary 🏳️‍⚧️🎉🏳️‍⚧️🎉🏳️‍⚧️

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 08/12/2025

MFF was a great time, but came home a little pent up. Bought a new FTM stroker and holy shit I have fucked and bred it 4 times already this morning. I love this toy.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

It just puts me in a feeling of i am again the black sheep of the family. And I know i am not the only one, but every time I meet someone who is cool and I want to be friends with it comes down to they want to fuck me, my partner, or already have fucked my partner. And that just doesnt vibe with me

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

Me. This is not me placing blame on him or the pup community, its just my reality. I love a communtiy that is rooted in gay culture and with that comes a display of open sexuality that doesnt fully vibe with me beyond me being fully supportive of these groups and the right to have this space.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

Is the next journey. Mainly comes down to the fact my partner wants the open relationship and the freedom to explore his sexuality his way, once he fucks someone I just cant be friends with them. I have a hard time even talking to them, which of course means less and less events and community for

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

It hurts when that happens and has made me bitter toward sex and being in an open relationship and I think the deleting of the apps and halt of the forcing myself to be something I am not is my last attempt to selvage my relationship and myself. Moving forward this does cause a new issue that

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

Me friends and connections and that very much has been my experience. Everything seems great, they seem to be a great friend until I say I am not interested in sex, then I see them pull away and wean me off, and in some cases just say fuck it and go right to my partner because he is very willing.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

And even being naked or in gear. But my brain says this is fun until there is any pressure beyond that for actual sex. It has harmed my core romantic relationship with my nesting partner. And there are still things we certainly have to hash out. But I just dont want sex to be the thing that makes

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

Being on T has brought to the front of my mind. Other than that sex feels boring and is becoming a headache and chore. This absolutely doesnt mean I am 'leaving' the pup community. I have found I really value the community once I remove the pressure of sex from it. I also do enjoy the spaces

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

Especially with random hookups. This has been a difficult thing for me to work though, since I really love and value the pup community around me. And I do appreciate the non sexual events. Its just coming down to the ol' hand and maybe a few toys are all i need for the physical release that

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 08/11/2025

Pups new singlet is here!!!! Anyone have jock friendly/compatible packer recommendations to pull the look together?

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

Stop me from engaging but I am glad I weather a hood for the most part, I got rather...bored? I guess thats the best word, and the last thing I want is my face defaulting to my resting unenthusiastic expression and make someone feel unwanted or worse

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

Out topping is the main way for me to go. This was a queer all gender group and next time I think I am going to stick with the men's only space. But it was a very good introduction. I'd rather have a ton of small just ok to good experiences than one bih bad one. But yeah the ace brain doesn't

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

Went to my first orgy last night, though very close to the house party vibe from a week or so ago. Was able to play this time, had a 3/4 with my partner and another couple. I bottomed and topped, and honestly I have no strong feelings either way. Like I will probably do it again, but I did figure

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

Puppy wants his cunt stretched good and hard today, time ride one of my favourite toys and force that knot in

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

I came so hard on this cock, I even filled the cum hole, who wants to lick it clean?

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

The great thing about being transmasc is you can fuck yourself with the same bone you pound other pups with

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

Morning stretches, that includes your holes.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

Gear set up isn't the best for that, nor is it really ascetic and one of my harnesses does make me feel super dysphoric. But I found something that I am super interested in and will be building that hopefully in time for the next party.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

That unexpected realisation and that he was actually interested now that he had time to process out of sub/bottom head space. I have been looking at some gear and I think i found a look that works well and also allows me 'display' what I am offering. I feel topping is what I want, but my current

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

I have ideas for the future, I was told I give strong top energy and thats why I got the reaction I did when someone reached for a dick and it wasnt there. One if the pups sent me a message to clear the air that, with my hood off especially, I pass as very cis and he was unsure what to do with

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

I was still pretty socially awkward and a bit shy, even with my hood (though it helped so much) so I know that contributed to a few people thinking I wasnt interested

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

Decided they were not interested. I was super worried about the reactions, but no one was rude or nasty. Just respect all around. I am a touch disappointed I didn't end up playing, but it was a very positive step in the right direction.

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

And I was told never mind in a super reasonable and respectful way. Had a few transwomen interested in T4T, and took it well when I said I was only into men. Had a few interested in me, who I was feeling also, but then they looked down and realised I was trans, again 100% respectfully, and

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

Or they were interested and I was not. Everyone was welcoming, the host amazing, the DM fantastic. Everyone who heard it was my first time and I was figuring things out were all so welcoming. Usually just came down to one of a few things; just no mutual interest, or I required a condom

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Pup Gruffydd@LVFC @pupgruffydd.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

Went to my first sex positive house party, and while I didnt end up playing with anyone in any way, I did spend most of my time in that sex positive space. I did try, but things just didnt line up this time. Was mainly a result of one sided interest, either I was interested and they were not

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