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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

peel off our skin, we’re gonna burn what we were to the ground #postboxart #durgetash #ocsky #bg3

sketch of bodille (named durge) and enver gortash in varying states of undress. hes grabbing her hip with one hand and holding her arm behind her back with another. while pulling the lash of bhaal back as to choke her. she doesn’t seem to mind.

postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

@doraingrid.bsky.social ’s Niamh with oleanders aka Bhaal’s most perfectest daughter (i love her so so much i had to draw fanart) #ocsky #postboxart #bg3

Portrait of Sho’s Niamh, a tiefling dark urge in rosy tones, crouching and looking at the viewer. Behind her is a pattern of oleanders, to match her!

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i have mine set to swedish but google tells me these are common bent and field horsetail!!! i like how alien the horsetail looks when it starts drying, and the bent looks like something youd want to sew onto clothes as decoration 😭😭 I LOVE GRASS

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

hello hello heres also a censored version without the frame 🖤 #durgetash #ocsky #postboxart

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

bodilleeeeeeeeeeee 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #postboxbits #wip #durgetash

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

i DO love putting her in the torment nexus archiveofourown.org/works/92452921 (mind the tags babes) #postboxart #postboxfics #durgetash #bg3

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

here's a poppy to prove im not dead (referenced an ex colleague's instagram post)

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

despite it not being the caption (hihi) my favourite detail is the various places throughout this where besides regular scribbles, ive also scribbled in parts of bloodhail by have a nice life 🥰 its genuinely the exact mood i was going for and even if its pretty much invisible, i like that its there!

zoomed-in detail crop of the big illustration, showing Bodille's hand gripping the feather-end of the arrow/crossbow bolt, piercing them both. the background behind the hand is dark, but immediately surrounding it (and some more of the subject) is a fading red aura, which mostly looks like messy scribbles. In the zoomed-in screenshots you can see that some of it is text, though its pretty much illegible. I just want to say this isnt my real handwriting and i was TRYING to make it messy ok....

Screenshot of a segment of the genius.com lyrics for Bloodhail by Have a Nice Life. The text screenshotted is as follows:

[Verse]
I feel the top of the roof come off
Kill everybody there
And I'm watching all the stars burn out
Trying to pretend that I care

[Chorus]
But I didn't, no one ever does
And I would, no one ever will
Can't you see it's all flown out of my hands?
And our clothes are all too often ripped
And our teeth are all too often gnashed
And it lasts as long as it possibly can

[Post-Chorus]
But I just don't
But I just don't accept this
I just don't accept this at all

Screenshot of a segment of the genius.com lyrics for Bloodhail by Have a Nice Life. The text screenshotted is as follows:

[Bridge]
Faces sweaty, arms and legs
What a glorious set of stairs we make
Faces sweaty, arms and legs
What a glorious set of stairs we make
Faces sweaty, arms and legs
What a glorious set of stairs we make
Faces sweaty, arms and legs
We kill everyone with

[Refrain]
Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads
Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads
Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads
Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads
Thank God that's over
(Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads)
Thank God that's over
(Arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads)
Thank God that's over

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

how does it feel, the weight of the steel the weight of the steel of the flat of the blade how does it feel to kneel at the feet to kneel at the feet of the choices you’ve made #postboxart #bg3 #durgetash #ocsky

Illustration of Bodille (custom dark urge) and Enver Gortash embracing while an arrow pierces them both. Bodille is holding the end of the arrow, though it’s unclear whether to pull it out or push it further.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

a few highlights from our trip to iceland!!! there wasnt much time to draw, so i focused mostly on remembering the colour palettes for later, and being in the moment – next time @knightofwands.bsky.social and i are bringing actual paints!! #postboxart #postboxbits

moleskine pocket spread: left page is numbered pencil colour swatches, the right page has the colour names. only two colours are missing from the set of 72.

moleskine pocket spread: left page is a study of a fireweed plant, right page is a drawing of a blue building, as well as some sketches of a necklace pendant i fell in lobe with which was sadly wayyyyy too expensive to buy on a whim 🥹

left page: sticker from a tattoo studio, a bit of washi tape saved from the envelope of stickers i bought
right page: quick colour swatch collection of a mountain ridge, and a colourmixing test, as well as a stamp from the nakano store in reykjavik

left page: bónus receipt. i mostly stick things to left pages so i dont worry about colour transferring with the pencils
right page: plein air of a volcano crater with insanely red soil + plant study of wild valerian growing by my husband’s aunt’s house

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

defne got a little shelf :’) shes overlooking my brushes and paints! #postboxbits

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

which…. i mean it does beat for beat follow their relationship arc :’) but i do love this bit which (to me) is alll about submitting to the fact they can only be with someone as fucked up as the other, and kind of seeing the inevitability of being stuck together now??? not necessarily in a happy way

yellow background, black text, a screenshot of song lyrics off of spotify’s “every you ever me” by placebo:

Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse
In the shape of things to come
Too much poison come undone
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

testing a new brush for the sketch = got carried away again hehehehe but here’s a wip!!! #postboxbits

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

very old 100 word prompt fill of one enver gortash struggling to place his reaction to a certain near&dear colleague being replaced :’) #durgetash #postboxbits

Ellipsus snippet:

The urge to head to bed strikes first. Cackle cracks across the trio, and he feels his teeth expose in turn. The mildew and coagulating rot, perfuming this golden braid, bear threat of migraine.

Beneath his canopy and pillows the impulse only quickens: he needs his bed, although he is within it. Mere presence is not what it misses, mere absence is not what it takes, to twist the world from right to rancid, and he knows this when he stands to dress—he needs to go back to the bed he left this morning, with all its futile expectation.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

Artists! Show your long hair art! moody awful girl 🩸🥀🩸🥀🩸

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

i did FINALLY also find a perfect place for the @creaits.bsky.social sticker @tulipathy.bsky.social gave me for my birthday 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹❤️

photo of a pocket-sized moleskine sketchbook. over the front page is pasted a durgetash-themed sticker in red and black, square and split into nine motif frames: the symbols of bhaal and bane, crown of karsus and netherstones, stillmaker and gortash’ crossbow, “forgive me father” and “nearest and dearest”.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

the middle point of the oscillation curve is me scrolling up in my chat with @tulipathy.bsky.social and going hihihihihi all over again 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 i love this au so much it makes me look DUMB

Cropped screenshot from a Discord message, one photo and some text on a black background. First is a cropped close-up of the face of the lamb in the previous post. Underneath it is a second message reading "Sooooo desperate for Enver to just be a good boy".

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

met my (not on bsky) friend yesterday and she gifted me this thrift find 🥹🥹🥹 so Defne lives in my room now obviously!!!!

Photo of a small ceramic statue of a lounging black lamb, about 10cm long. It's placed on a freshly-cleaned glass paints palette, which is the only tidy area in my office currently. I would die for her.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

hi i'm back with some details i like 1. black hand prints all over but especially in a crown shape over envers head and 2. grabbing bodilles arm 3. bodille bloody fingers/nails 4. the binary "it must be nice to be this wanted" texture peeking through 5. other bloody hand :') tear-streaks :')

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

He will die by her hand, as is his fate, and she revels in the fact so earnestly it blurs the lines of duty, right and whim. Is that enough? What use would there be in surviving to a rotting world, as its last pair of starving maggots? #durgetash #ocsky #bg3 #postboxart 🪱

an illustration of Bodille (named dark urge, bg3) and Enver Gortash, standing embraced in an abstract expanse of fleshy patterns. He is holding the back of her head with one hand, and with the other is grabbing her wrist, as she hovers the blade of Stillmaker behind his head, preparing to stab his back. His expression is content, while hers is tormented, or concerned, or fearful. Around them is a frame built of nightshades, nightshade berries, worms and maggots. Beneath the illustration is the following excerpt, describing a fragment of a dream-conversation between Bodille and Bhaal:
"When I succeed," YES, "when it happens," AS IT WILL, "and all life dies in Your name, and so do I," YOU DO. YOU WILL. YOU HAVE. "Father, may I ask," TO NOT RETURN TO ME. "An afterlife, unholy Father." YOU ARE MY FLESH. YOUR LIFE IS MINE, AS IS THE AFTER. "Will you consume me, then? So that I should stop existing?" WHAT ELSE IS THERE, BUT TO EXIST WITHIN ME, DAUGHTER, and she does not think, for He is inside her head and He would see it, she does not think, nor want, nor want, nor want, "that I may serve you, Father, as myself. Beyond this life, as I do now. That I may survive beyond my death and serve you." AND GO ASTRAY, AND WANDER BETWEEN MY DOMAIN AND OTHERS. I KNOW THE WAYS YOU SERVE. He is not scolding but her mouth seals shut. ALL GODS WILL STARVE, CHILD, AND ALL THEIR REALMS, AND ALL THEIR CHOSEN. WHEN YOU SUCCEED I WILL BE PROUD AND SO I WILL REWARD YOU, AND STARVE THE BLACK HAND FIRST.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

artfight is Finally here so i Finally got to attack @dusktint.bsky.social's lovely Shri'iia, princess of my heart!!!!! ❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️ #artfight #teamtragedy #postboxart

halfbody illustration of Shri'iia, a beautiful drow paladin wearing her camp clothes. she has short wavy white hair, white eyelashes, no eyebrows and eye makeup that arches up into her forehead. Her eyes are closed and she's covered in silver-studded blue butterflies.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

the replies section here is a GOLDMINE aarrghhh!!! i had to join!! here to offer unhinged elf women: artfight.net/~postboxrose

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

hey postboxrose are you okay youre crying on the bus over line 615 of pale fire again

cropped photo of lines 611-615 of the poem section of Pale Fire by Vladimir Nabokov:

And, from the outside, bits of colored light Reaching his bed like dark hands from the past Offering gems; and death is coming fast.
He suffocates and conjures in two tongues
The nebulae dilating in his lungs.

cropped photo of the analysis section of Pale Fire by Vladimir Nabokov, referring to the poem snippet in the previous photo:

Line 615: two tongues

English and Zemblan, English and Russian, English and Lettish, English and Estonian, English and Lithuanian, English and Russian, English and Ukrainian, English and Polish, English and Czech, English and Russian, English and Hungarian, English and Rumanian, English and Albanian, English and Bulgarian, English and Serbo-Croatian, English and Russian, American and European.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

quote repost your ocs for artfight 🗡️ me when i show up to the unhealthy attachment style competition and these two are already there

screenshot of two artfight team tragedy OCs: Bodille (named dark urge from bg3) and Luella Lavellan (named inquisitor from dragon age)

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

first artfight lets GO 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹

Artfight asset-card for team Tragedy, holding the following information:
User: postboxrose (that's me!)
I attack: few, but with BLOODLUST (edgy)
I do: friendly fire, revenge (i hope i hope)
Featured characters: icon of Bodille, icon of Luella, three empty slots
Characters I have: human-question-mark, everything else crossed out, then "Other: Elfs" with a drawn heart

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 19/06/2026

it’s my birthday AND midsummer so I wanted to do one of these!!! ❤️‍🔥 hi i’m postboxrose and i love drawing and writing about awful women in awful situation(ship)s 🥀

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

its so STUPID celese i dont even wear perfume. perfume gives me a headache. i might withstand it for this though,,,,,,,,,

marketing photo of a body spray ”juicy cherry and pineapple”, titled in all-caps HEART BREAK AT THE GAS STATION

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

shoots the lazer beam at you archiveofourown.org/works/86822131 #postboxwrites

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

happy friday!! ❤️‍🔥 here’s some bodille in situations (please mind the tags) archiveofourown.org/works/86594061 #durgetash #postboxfics

Screenshot from AO3 with the following information:

Rating: Explicit
Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Category: F/M
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
Relationship: The Dark Urge/Enver Gortash
Characters: The Dark Urge (Baldur's Gate), Enver Gortash, Unnamed Black Gauntlet
Additional Tags: Bad BDSM Etiquette, Pre-Game: Baldur's Gate 3, Violent Thoughts, Inappropriate Use of Detect Thoughts Spell (Dungeons & Dragons), Inappropriate Use of Hold Person Spell (Dungeons & Dragons), Consensual Non-Consent, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Trust Issues, Somnophilia, Predator/Prey, (if you squint), to quote my beloved friend "the consent is on a carousel ride", Named Dark Urge (Baldur's Gate), Implied/Referenced Drug Use, (which is separate from the other tag for a reason)
Language: English
Series: Part 5 of perfect understanding (aka bodilletash)

Title: and the grape-blood of emperors Author: postboxrose
Summary:
Sometimes trust has to be taken by force.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

like in justificatum malum factum the orin duel is how it went in game: hold monster + stab/slash!! i get so ihihihi when i think about it

Screenshot-snippet from AO3: "Orin's duel is entirely as expected – her hiss and useless flourish, and her screech at Bodille's taunts – and the deafened silence of her mouth held shut, her body kept frozen in its motion by the simplest of holding spells. The simplest rule – a spawn of Bhaal should have known it all along, yet Bodille sees she must repeat it for the spawnling – always finish the job. The underline of its importance spans from ear to ear and sprays her with the hot blood of her kin; she wipes her mouth before she can taste it, spent of generosity and breathless in hatred. Father welcomes her with open arms and his embrace is her crawling into a fresh-carved carcass: warm, liquid, familiar. The blood-vessels of the world expand around her, throbbing to be cut."

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

as for her, i think her daemon settles unsettlingly early, around 6-7 (or as soon as she realises her parents are dead Permanently, and wont just wake up?) and its just a huge long white borzoi. she's about as tall as it is, when it happens.

image of a white borzoi (russian wolfhound) over a green grass field. it's watermarked by shutterstock, and just taken off of a google image search.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

this was originally a test to see how unsettling i can get her to look (AND testing out a new brush)!!! HERES A ZOOM-IN!!! FRECKLY GIRL darling of my heart!!!

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

god, give a little love, bring me back a dog in the next life #ocsky #postboxart #bg3 #durgetash

an illustration of bodille (named dark urge) with palms pressed to her cheeks, eyes wide and smiling as blood is smeared over her mouth and running down her chest. it does not appear to be hers.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

i dont think ill ever finish this one but the Thought was There (and the love for it also) so here you go!!! vaguely referencing archiveofourown.org/works/716545... which I WILL finish, so help me god #postboxart #solavellan #dragonage

partially rendered black-and-white painting of solas (dragon age) kneeling before luella lavellan (inquisitor, dragon age). both of them are wistful/morose, luella’s eyes are lowered or entirely closed. throughout the composition is a floating ribbon, which passes between the blades of a pair of scissors in her hand. solas is resting his hand on the blade of the scissors, as if to keep them from closing. his other hand is holding her cheek. behind them in the composition are two eluvians (in the final version they would have been three). in the foreground is the lyrium dagger before him, and before her is a book with fluttering pages, and two halves of what would have been an “elven stone”, stone of communication.

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postboxrose 🗡️ @postboxrose.bsky.social · 20/05/2026

i dream of you draped in wires and leaning on the breaks #postboxart #durgetash #bg3

Illustration of Bodille (named Dark Urge) and Enver Gortash from Baldur’s Gate 3. She is grabbing his face with one hand, his hair in the fist of the other, and her mouth is open – as if to bite, or to gasp after a kiss. His hands are hovering around her, one of them in a fist so tight the sharp nails of the gauntlet dig into his palm. His nose is bleeding and smeared over his face, and the blood is smeared over Bodille’s mouth.

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