iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

i'll just come out and say it actually. as a system, i no longer feel safe here and i might just deactivate because unfortunately i cant just undiagnose myself so.. i'll give it until the end of the day then decide what i want to do

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just carrying around this stupid plate of pb corncakes wanting to eat it but i think if i do i'll throw up

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what if i just extended it to 24h

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i might leave edsky i dont really feel safe here anymore

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im dissociatibf so badlt im me im just me i am not list list list

i just worry that i'll be next

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might manage an 18h fast unintentionally lol

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i dont think i like it here anymore

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i keep having flashbacks and had such a horrible panic attack and i wanted to make my comfort food but i feel to sick to even eat it and i cant stop crying and i think people are mad at me and im scared and i dont know what to do and i want to stop crying

i just want to make sure that people know this since ive seen stuff on the tl but as a system this is my only account on this side of bsky! other alters have bsky accts but they stay on their own subskies and dont interact w edsky

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i feel so awful this morning

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im so nervous to check mt weight tomorrow aaaaa

i feel like im not bad enough for anybody to actually care about me or even remember that i exist

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i need to start sleeping earlier...

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god im such a good writer im like better than shakespeare actually shakespeare is a HACK

i have never made an impulsive decision in my life don't let them fool you

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so april has been bad for everyone huh?

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i have 12 documents open on my computer and i will now write 250 words for each of them

ive been RESTRICTED i cannot buy a mouse + keyboard </333 i guess i'll just live a non-aesthetic online life

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does anybody have any cute mouse and keyboard recommendations

lita .ᐟ @poor-lita.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

depression is OVER and i am NO LONGER RAVENOUS

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i wish editing your bio on bsky mobile wasnt so janky and difficult it drives me nuts

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lita .ᐟ @poor-lita.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

i wonder what weight i'll have a thigh gap at i might kill myself if i dont have one at 99lb

lita .ᐟ @poor-lita.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

FUCK i wish i could run at the gym i want to run so bad but i dont think my hips can do it theyve been hurting so bad lately BUT I WANT TO RUN I HAVE THE URGE TO RUN