polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 30/05/2025i really feel like being an adult should come with a manual bc what do you mean i am fighting the dmv over cancelling insurance in april 2025 on a car that i haven't had in my possession since september 2024 100 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/05/2025i currently have 💕$25💕 in my bank account while i wait for DES to figure out if they're giving me unemployment pay or not after my layoff earlier this month (following like 3 weeks of little to no work hours) which is so super cool 100 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 09/05/202522 year old friend apparently dating 17 year old friend was not on my bingo card. What the hell 200 2
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 06/05/2025team "yeah i'm technically a fictive but if you ask me about it i'll chop your balls off" 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 06/05/2025also if the brain could cut it out that would be fucking fantastic. -fi 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 06/05/2025why the hell does bluesky have verification now 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 13/04/2025popped in to talk to the friends in my friend’s dc server and they went like oriiiiii and hi ori! :) and it was sweet. made me feel appreciated 🌌 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 11/04/2025is been mostly Daze and Benji the past like two days I guess brain said aaaaaaahhhh too much anxiety DO A SILLY ONE INSTEAD 🔥🕺🕺🕺🕺‼️ FARR 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 11/04/2025Someone did dumb stupid digging the other day which is bad and triggered us but now a couple of us who have been dormant for like 2 years have risen from the fuckin dead lmao hiiiii ‼️ FARR 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 11/04/2025NO sad posting this time I wish I could dance really fast like that little like green stick man dancing really fast emote we use all the time on discord also I don’t know what emote to use to sign off I would just use ‼️ but we use it as punctuation too much‼️‼️ I can just do name that’s fine‼️ FARR 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 10/04/2025Been so anxious and nauseous the past couple days 😖 heart palpitations and restless energy all day. I think it’s probably related to trying to get a car. Hopefully it’ll even out soon 🦴 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 02/04/2025I would really prefer to stop fronting when we’re trying to work… everything is too much and I just want to go somewhere dark and quiet, but I can’t. 🌙 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/03/2025Well. We’re not panicking anymore but it was one of those moments of “oh. Oh I am at work. Have we been actively working or just sitting here?” 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/03/2025Benefits of working from home: we can wear headphones and smoke CBD while we work to Calm The Fuck Down 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/03/2025Help girl I am working myself into a panic attack I think 110 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/03/2025Man one thing that sucks about being less uhh covert to ourselves is that fuckin hypnosis doesn’t work anymore bc the brain is too loud all the time. We used to be able to use hypnosis to fall asleep and we can’t anymore 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 24/03/2025Reading helped, by the way. Proud of Eli for finding a solution, even if the day feels a bit wasted. 🌌 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 23/03/2025Gonna fucking read???? I guess?????? But I don’t want to bc it’s already almost 7:30 the weekend is almost over. Fucking ugh ♠️ 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 23/03/2025I tried to draw bc I was trying to like. Kick shit into a better gear. And it didn’t really go lmao just kind of made me more pissed ♠️ 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 23/03/2025I’m going to freak it and idefk why we just have this absolutely fucking rancid destructive useless rancid energy rn and I can’t figure out what to do with it -♠️ ifg I still wish null didn’t take my damn x emote 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 23/03/2025Me being hyper-vigilant and trying to do damage control when no real damage has been done in the first place: surely this will not frustrate and offend my loved ones and put further strain on my most valued relationships! 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/03/2025Why does life always happen in piles? We had to take yesterday off to tend to a small emergency, last name the thing w elijah driving happened, and now I can’t focus bc if feels like there’s pressure trying to escape our skull and there’s nothing I can do abt it bc we alr missed work too much lately 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/03/2025Did I ever introduce myself or did I just get on here and start bitching immediately when I first posted here? I do not remember. 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/03/2025In hindsight it made sense that it was me but we are so bad at telling lately. I really need to figure out an emoji sign off but Null already uses ❌…♠️??? I would just use✖️but I feel like that could be confusing or whatever 100 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/03/2025Didn’t realize that it was me fronting until we had to drive somewhere today lmao that fucking sucked I was so nauseous -elijah 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 05/03/2025update we’re okay now. it was one of those situations where both of our energies were weird and we both thought the other was upset with them and it fed into itself 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025🌙I don’t have much else to add yet that feels necessary. most of what i know of myself is sensory or physical comforts. everything is very overwhelming, speaking is uncomfortable, having something covering the lower half of our face is comforting. 110 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025oh, introductions i suppose. i am definitely some variant of an Astro fictive, though I don’t think I prefer to be called by that name. I am unsure what I want to be called yet, I have just been using this 🌙. It feels more comfortable than a “name.” They/them feels best so far. 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025🌙 first full consciousness when we were in the middle of work, had to struggle through that for an hour or so while everything is overstimulating and i keep losing track of what im doing. the body hurts, our head hurts, everything is loud and bright and wrong, and now i feel like i am unwanted 110 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025🌙 or they may just be upset that we are having a brainweird moment right now because they had their infusion today and want us to be better company. but either way i feel guilty and bad for my presence 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025🌙 being around is so overwhelming. and i feel like our fiance is kind of frustrated that it’s me because our source is a point of tension between us and them. which feels bad 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 04/03/2025Physically difficult to hold our head up today. Slept like dick and balls last night and feeling it 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/02/2025Legitimately cannot do my job rn lol just accidentally put in the entirely wrong school and had to go back and fix like 3 different things 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/02/2025Calling into work with “any minuscule sense of safety or stability I have in my life feels incredibly fragile and seems to already be crumbling so like, I can’t focus on data corrections right now, sorry” 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 27/02/2025Wish I could leave work early for “I feel like my relationship is falling apart and I don’t know what to do with myself and I’m so alone and anxious I can barely focus” Why can’t I just get the flu or something like normal ppl 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 25/02/2025Oh yea pls send us “no freaky side effects to new medication” energy 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 25/02/2025Was gonna make a post saying sorry we haven’t posted in a while but apparently someone was posting less than a week ago. yeah that’s tracks 010 1
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/02/2025Okay they replied we’re fine but the way we still have heart palpitations lol Imagine NOT flying into a blind panic at the concept of ur loved ones being upset with u 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/02/2025Okay what is the well adjusted adult equivalent for texting someone “are you mad at me” when not knowing feels like you’re being boiled alive 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 19/02/2025God I wish we were normal lol. Stressed, panicked, nauseous, and obsessing, but we have to 💕 clock in 💕 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 16/02/2025Kinda just want to explode everything with my mind today 000 0
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 16/02/2025Hard to have the motivation to do anything when it feels like every day the end of the world inches closer 010 1
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polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 12/02/2025One of the things that I don’t think we will ever get used to in living with dissociation and derealization constantly is how it feels like we’ve been away for months at a time sometimes when we’ve just been tuned out. Coming back into reality and thinking oh, I miss my loved one, who is beside me 120 2
polychroma @polychromasys.bsky.social · 05/02/2025I keep seeing other ppl who go by chroma lately. fuckin weird man the same shit happened with our legal name after we changed it 010 1
