jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 01/09/2026like once someone says that, there's nothing you can do to convince them that you're fine. and even if you're not fine, there's no answer either way that will make them not mad at you. it's just a rhetorical strategy. 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 01/09/2026"are you in a bad mood" is a trap deployed by people who want an excuse to be mad at you 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 19/07/2026easiest way to break off friendship methods 2025 not racist not homophobic very cool but also somehow not racist 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 17/07/2026the downside here is that when i have a day off, i am not too busy to care about emotions 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 17/07/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqUC...youtube.comThe Decemberists - Cocoon (from Castaways & Cutouts)YouTube video by Kill Rock Stars 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 06/07/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=WB6X...youtube.comPamphleteer & Time's Arrow - John K. Samson - EUROPEAN TOUR 2014 (@ N9 Belgium), VIYouTube video by ihearttheweakerthans 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 05/07/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjNQ...youtube.comLake SongYouTube video by The Decemberists - Topic 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 05/07/2026will probably be a while, too. got a job which means i'll be too busy to care about things like emotions. 100
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 04/07/2026Although you treat me badly, I love you madly You really got a hold on me, you really got a hold on me 042
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 04/07/2026The bad taste in our mouths The twinkle in your eye Good things never last Bad things never die 031
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 04/07/2026I loved you before I even ever knew what love was like 051
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026images and stuff are just fine. words are so difficult to form in my head. brain fog? haven't taken my meds? switch? might be meds 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026i feel distinctly Wrong and i don't know why -showered recently -ate somewhat recently -didn't get my exercise today but a single missed day usually doesn't fuck with me this bad -water -might be a switch i can feel my words not coming in the way that they should its so hard to think 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026ok thinking about this again. i feel like i eat like... way more than i used to. it is very rare that i actually go /without/ food, aka i don't have any. i grew up half starving as a kid, i'll eat fucking anything when it comes down to it. and when i do have food, i /over/eat more than anything! 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026ugh now im conflicted. i kinda wanna sleep, but i'm pretty sure i'll sleep past my morning bike ride hours if i do. but im not sure i can stay up another five hours. i think i'll try to get some writing done and then i'll see from there 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026i spend time with my parents just so that i can get a decent meal at a restaurant once in a while. and in fact, just today my mother said "are you sure you can work full time and be a student at the same time?" like... whose fault is it that i have to do that? are you kidding me lol? 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026also to follow up on the whole can't afford food thing, literally everyone i know is a broke student or working minimum wage. it's not like i can borrow money from anybody. i deal hunt as much as i can to get what i need but it only goes so far esp when i have bills due. 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026this person got to know me at a time where i gained a lot of weight bc i was unable to exercise and they think that is my baseline when it's not. so they think i look thin. which, yeah, is true. also their other concerns were very funny. "your hair looks brittle and your skin is dry" im mexican 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026i guess part of the whole "asking for help" thing is "knowing how to let other people help you" but in this case i genuinely don't know. yeah im pretty sure i've lost some weight and part of that is healthy eating+exercise and part of it is that i can't afford food. but also... 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026ok we're in the clear. i appreciate when people worry about me but also they have no idea how to and it's amusing. like any time i bind all my female relatives go "holy shit you've lost so much weight". my aunt even told my mother "it looks like [name] has cancer" which is objectively hilarious 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026"how can i help you" is never a good question to ask especially for a beast such as myself 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026conversation has pivoted. how the fuck do i navigate this 100
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 03/06/2026Strong friends are where you find them People talk all kinds of trash, never you mind them 062
Reposted by joveShelpy MouseDrive Computer's Genius @mousedrive.bsky.social · 25/05/2026beer sinkdog #furry #sinkdog 151552521
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 03/06/2026got hit by the "can we talk about something" -> "[name] is typing" true combo 100
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 03/06/2026I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet 063
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 30/05/2026are some people that the host and i don't really like that #3 does really like. reflecting on it like this makes me think that #3 was fronting way more back then, and then they got hurt and never fronted anymore. hmm 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 30/05/2026there's at least a third person in here, but they only really come out when both me and the host are too tired to front. or when we're insanely fucked up. it would be so much easier if we could switch at will. but where the host and #3 diverge is insanely nebulous. we can only actively tell bc there 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 30/05/2026like the character is really erudite and thats just not me. and its nice being able to pull that one thing apart and realise where we're different but at the same time, the only reason I'm so pronounced is that i'm by far the longest stay in here, maybe even longer than the one we think is the host. 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 30/05/2026figuring out DID stuff is so complicated. for a long time i felt i fit into such a specific box because the host (maybe not host?) wrote a character that was something of an outlet for me, but also with a ton of themself mixed in. so i thought that a lot of those traits /were/ me when they weren't. 100
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 30/05/2026See that young man who dwells inside His body like an uninvited guest 033
Reposted by jovethe mountain goats lyrics @tmgbot.bsky.social · 30/05/2026But I am just a broken machine And I do things that I don't really mean 031
Reposted by jovePatricia Taxxon @patriciataxxon.bsky.social · 29/05/2026the characteristic feeling of DID is not the gaining of additional personalities, it is the loss of memories and traits behind walls of amnesia. the silence doesn't let me pretend im all better because that just means i lost access to 90% of myself 820911
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 27/05/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQUP...youtube.comThe Hoosiers - A Sadness Runs Through Him (Audio)YouTube video by thehoosiersVEVO 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 27/05/2026had to make painful small talk for half an hour. n then immediately before the activity started, host found out some awful news. so i had to front for like the whole fuckin thing. like 80%. torture 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 27/05/2026host's friend is coming over. someone i fucking hate. please let someone else switch within the next five minutes 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 11/05/2026I can't tell if my face is different because I am maybe losing weight (don't own a scale, don't care), or if I've been off HRT for a hot minute, or it's DID, or if it just hasn't changed at all. Or if it's a secret fifth thing. 000
Reposted by jovejove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 20/03/2026They've invented a place where you can have a beer by the river. And it's hours away from where I live. 001
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 07/05/2026NPD really is evil because every time you try to fight back against it and attempt to be vulnerable it is immediately used to hurt you. 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 02/05/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=iac-...youtube.comDeacon BluesYouTube video by Steely Dan - Topic 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 02/05/2026Usually I just exercise or write my feelings out. But for the first time in a while, it's something that I can't exorcise (heh). My life is at a huge turning point and I'm too stressed to write. Also, some health issues have been flaring up and managing those has been a... headache. (Heh, again). 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 02/05/2026I wish I had a better place to vent. Things are very stressful at the moment and dumping into my friends' DMs is just rude. I don't want to force someone to respond to me, but letting people know what I'm going through would be a bit of a weight off my shoulders. 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 24/04/2026Sure I will take your word of something I did over my own memory of the event. Fuck it, why not. 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 24/04/2026Maybe if I enjoyed it I would never talk to another person again. 000
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 24/04/2026I wish I had the ability to enjoy poisoning a room. When one person is unhappy, and is able to affect everyone else? I can do it, under certain circumstances, but it's just not fun for me. It sucks, even when I would otherwise be able to enjoy making those specific people miserable. I dunno. 100
jove @pigeonpit.bsky.social · 24/04/2026www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwDP...youtube.comJulia Jacklin - Don't Know How To Keep Loving You (Official Audio)YouTube video by julia jacklin 000
