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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

Omg no!!! Thank ypy so much for reading a nd appreciating!!!! I can make stories but it means nothing if it doesnt resonate. Sp thank for resonating with my story, fren

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

Thank you so much! I wrote Hunger, and I am so glad it resonates.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

He's here and he wants to know!!!

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

I originally beta'd A2A, and am going to beta the new version! If you've never read A2A, you'd be ideal!!! Get in touch with @cannibalsnplaid.bsky.social to see if you'd be a good fit!

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 12/04/2025

2nd fic in mine and @catharafox.bsky.social 's Holiverse series, Baby It's Cold Outside. Silverflint origin story for the 'verse archiveofourown.org/works/64597249

archiveofourown.org

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

Idk why but Julien cracks me up. Sitting in the office alone at work cackling to myself

Screenshot of a Discord text exchange. Julien writes, "that's so gay"

Remy, with the name Canadian ... showing, replies "Idk if you know this about about me but I might be the tiniest bit gay"

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 28/01/2025

Us occupying the same space for 3 days really aligned us

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 28/01/2025

It's delightful to me how often @juliensalad.bsky.social and I are on the same page. The longer we know each other, the more we share one brain cell. We have fun tbh

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 28/01/2025

I had a day of nothing. Watched a show with my friend, did laundry. Watched a hockey game. Didn't look at the news. Talked to my partner. Good day. But the Doom is looming in the background. I needed this day to prepare. I need peace so I can do what's needed. Take your peace, do what's needed.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

I'm cackling. What job could I habe that involves buttholes, incorrect answer only

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

Y e a h. YEAH. I AM NOT A REBEL, I AM A REVOLUTION

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

U' a queer little nightmares and I'm about to get VERY FUCKIN LOUD about it

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

My job is weird and I say weird things to my friend in regards to customers' bullshit

Screen shot of a Discord comment that reads "do whatever you want with your own butthole, but be considerate of others"

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 23/01/2025

I'm trying to get my shit together to go to work. I ask in the gc, "How am I supposed to talk about safe, consensual sex when the world is collapsing?" Friend replies "bc safe consensual sex will help people cope. It's rebellion against the Doom" So yeah, I'm ready to help folks rebel

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 22/01/2025

Also, I had a consult with a psychiatrist today. Essentially, she diagnosed me with The Big Sads. Recommended course of treatment is therapy. Which like... didn't need to do a 10 a.m. appt to learn that lol. But at least I have a referral so therapy is going to happen soonish

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 22/01/2025

Actually, it's the slow burn before the oorn but it's very fuckin queer so

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 22/01/2025

THE DOOM WILL NOT GET ME TONIGHT. GONNA WRITE PORN UNTIL THE SLEEP MEDS KICK IN

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

My ma, very tenderly trying to get me to eat, hands me a bowl of sliced oranges: here you go, my little fruit, have some fruit. Nourish your body so you can keep going.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

We have to keep going. We have to find the strength to keep *being*. To my cis allies, to my friends who love and care for us, be vocal. Be loud. Be uncomfortable. I will fight, even though in this moment I have no hope. But we exist, we have always existed, and we will continue to exist.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

Ma: heh heh heh fuckin Billy Bones Ma: I'd bone him Me: drink some water, you thirsty bitch Ma: can I drink Billy Me: ma I swear to god

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

"If you're going to behave like children, then I will be your daddy" is like. Jack pls. Pls, Jack. You are the least daddy pirate to ever exist. You are a 2010s theater kid trapped in the 1700s. Be so for real, Jack.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

SHARK DATE SHARK DATE SHARK DATE

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

What kind of unglued motherfucker turns into a storm with depleted supplies and almost no water?! Captain James Flint. Absolutely fucking unhinged. Would still follow him into any storm though. I am also unhinged.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 20/01/2025

I can't do this. I habe to do this. I can't keep standing up, but I have to. I dotn know how to comfort myself or strengthen myself or anything. I'm afraid, sad, and angry. And I don't know what to do with it. So I'll just sit with it until I can move again. It's all I can do

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 20/01/2025

What a fucking *day*. It's been a Rollercoaster, man. Woke up to an impending sense of dread but still needing to Do Stuff. Leonard Peltier had his sentence commuted. Inauguration. Executive order. That gesture Elon made. The impending sense of Doom and the all consuming grief in advance

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 20/01/2025

Tell me what's giving you queer joy rn. Can be very small or very large. The Despair is trying to get me and I need to not let it. My queer joy is the gc with @juliensalad.bsky.social and @omgsammie23.bsky.social we are unhinged and ridiculous and I love y'all so much

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

Hhhhhhh yoy saw Gob?! In high school?!?!!?!?!?! AND ED THE SOCK WAS THERE???? HHHHHHHHHHH

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

MUCH WAS AWWSIME. DICYOY REMEBER ED THE SOCK'S FROMAGE??? I W E E P

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

I MEANT LOVE, AND AKSO HATE HHHHHH

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

I love sharing media with my ma, and love sharing media with her. She's currently rewatching Black Sails

Screenshot of Facebook messenger message thar reads

Ma is watching BS

Ma: You're brother described them as wet cowboys
Me: are they not
Ma: ESPECIALLY CHARLES. AND BILLY
Me:
Ma: SO WET. SO COWBOY

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

I also have somebody who loves and understands me to the level he thought I deserved. I wish they could have met, I wish I could have explained how wonderfully and wholly Jacky loves me. He couldn't understand me anymore, but I hope he sees how much Jacky loves me and is happy for me.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

The grief is still monumental, and I'll feel this loss all my life. On the other hand, what I have still left of him is how much he loved me. That still exists. And I still have the stories.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

The words came back. I have ideas now and I can put words on the page. Partly it's bc I feel more at peace with losing Dad, and partly bc my partner saw me and helped me when I expressed a very real fear. I always say I *am* only words, so if I can't tell stories I don't know who I am.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

It was almost exactly two months from when dad died we started working on the new idea. I'd told Jacky a couple days before I was afraid I'd never be able to write again, that Dad took all my words with him. He was my biggest fan and writing seemed, idk, too hard? Without him.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

I hadn't been able to write since my dad died in October. 2 months of no words, no stories, nothing. Right before Christmas, Jacky proposed an idea and somehow unlocked the words. We wrote 14k on it, then I wrote 4k on my own fic. Plus however many we added to one we're still working on

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 17/01/2025

Matthew was such a good. I can handle any literary or media deaths now bc I was *six* when I witnessed Matthew's death. Nothing else hurts that much. EXCEPT IZZY DESRRVED MORS, BETTER. THAN WHAT HE GOT. I WILL F I G H T

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 17/01/2025

Okay but??? Matthew Cuthbert? I survived Izzy Hands bc I witnessed Matthew Cuthbert when i was 6 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 17/01/2025

Posted chapter 2 of Break Me, Shake Me, Take Me Over, my Hornigold week fic. Mind the tags, there's physical violence and forced drug use and a noncon bj. There's also a love confession to Iz from CJ tho so idk. It's cute? Except when it's very not cute. archiveofourown.org/works/565810...

archiveofourown.org

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

Had the pleasure of listening to this artist tonight. I love her voice omg. Please listen open.spotify.com/album/4Rq8HH...

open.spotify.com

Gateway

Dreamie · Album · 2022 · 11 songs

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 11/01/2025

This album saved my life quite literally. The lyrics are moving, and Darren's voice is so sweet. I know it's "just" 90s Aussie synthpop (the INXS influence is deep), but this album is meaningful to me. Also I Knew I Loved You is dead romantic.

A tall white man with blondish hair wears a blue shirt and stands to the the right. His body is turned to the other man, but they are both looking at the camera. The second man us slightly shorter, has black hair and blue eyes, and is wearing a square chain necklace and black knit shirt. His body is turned to the first man, they both have serious looks on their faces. There is a blue and green background behind them, with the words Savage Garden Affirmation in a green rectangular outline. This is the album cover for Affirmations by Savage Garden.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

I did! Gotta eat the fruit to be the best fruit I can be

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

She's literally The Worst 😂😂😂😂😂

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

Ma noticed I don't eat fresh fruit anymore. She reminds me every day and brings it to me. I say "but I *am* a fruit, ma." Today she handed me a banana and said "I KNOW YOU'RE A FRUIT, BUT YOU CAN ALWAYS USE MORE INSIDE YOU. TELL JACKY HI, BTW" I just ?!?!! Let me live, woman

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

Fic Jack: met in a group chat, started writing together. Spent everyday for months together on Zoom. Pined for me for a year. I had feelings too but didn't say anything bc they're married. Finally talked while writing Hallmark Christmas smut. Been together officially a year. Still write together.

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

Canon Jack: met him when I was 16. At 19, he was a rebound from my first serious relationship. We ended up engaged. He had a coked out weekend involving strippers and our gay roommate, we broke up. 15 years later, we got back in touch. Constantly told me he loved me while coked up. We don't talk now

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Remy (phoestiel) @phoestiel.bsky.social · 26/12/2024

They can see themself onscreen. They can see this queer little world and these queer little folks and all the love they have for each other. They can imagine a world of freedom and acceptance. In sharing this media, I'm sharing a visionnof their future, and they need this. I need this.

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