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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 14/09/2026

in definitely unrelated news, my wand just Popped - both from the cable and the head, which was presumably the motor. requiescat in libidine

the inside of the head, layer of protective foam completely worn away

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 05/08/2026

marionette (🎨 PastaGoth - not on social media)

the cat, arms shackled together and legs manacled to the ground, stares up plaintively, mouth agape and drooling. they wear their signature glasses and their lab coat, hanging off their shoulders to their back and exposing their body. a shaved strip from the top to the bottom of each side of their torso harbors four staples each, the first at their chest nipple and the other three proceeding downwards along their abdominal nipples, all tugged upwards hard enough to pull a few centimeters away from their body, leaking blood (or milk, for a couple) into the surrounding fur, towards the unseen focus of their vision. one additional shaven line on their left thigh contains an extra staple tied to the one on the left nipple, forcing that leg into a permanent squat while the other rests its calf flat against the ground, an uncomfortable unstable equilibrium.

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 22/07/2026

wwhy did they phrase it like that

You will be receiving anesthesia/sedating medications and will need a responsible adult to accompany you home from our facility. We would encourage this person be able to understand discharge instructions as anesthesia can interfere with your memory.

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 20/07/2026

that box in the middle is around three and a third beats in 200 milliseconds. a brief moment of 1000 bpm from a human heart. I feel funny

a zoom into the aforementioned telemetry sheet, focusing on three boxes with between around 2.8 and 3.4 beats in each

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 20/07/2026

oh my god pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC...

"Full telemetry strip revealing the extreme tachyarrhythmia with an average ventricular rate of about 600 beats per minute. Patient experienced transient syncopy during this event."

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 11/06/2026

...I keep. wanting to feel it again.

[2026-06-10 12:44] Luca: the three new types of pain from that day were
[2026-06-10 12:45] Luca: - scalpel hitting nerve (maybe)
- hard object being pressed into bone /hard/ from underneath the dermis
- dermal separation (with the tip of a scalpel, because more specialized instruments were not expected to be necessary)

[2026-06-10 12:56] Luca: the first was a stab that was processed autonomically, instantly put me in a fear state - I don't know how to describe it other than being more Intense and concentrated than other kinds of pain I can remember, a thick impulse on a speaker. if I had freedom of movement of my hands I would have hugged my knees.

the second was...I mean, you know the feeling of pushing something hard into your finger? multiply that by five; this was the worst in terms of pain times area times time, I think, like a little circle heated up white-hot with Wrong.

I could tell when the third was coming when she switched scalpels (the one used narrowed to a point). it felt like I imagined it was - a tearing away of layers from the inside, like expanding a hole in the seam of some plastic packaging. thin, but so sharp...
[2026-06-10 12:57] Luca: the normal cutting felt like the dermal separation, but thicker and duller, more familiar, like an injection extended laterally.

[2026-06-10 12:59] Luca: I went through. phases
[2026-06-10 13:02] Luca: the part staying controlled and feigning true strength more convincingly, the part where I got sweaty and nauseous and saw colored static in my vision, the part where I started moaning, the part where I stopped moaning and started crying, the part where I stopped crying and started shaking...

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 09/06/2026

the finger was anesthetized after two hours, a bit after the scalpel hit a nerve (?) and made me jump. continuing to play pretend about being strong would have been a problem if the next time made it Cut The Wrong Flesh

a blood-spotted towel drape containing bloody and iodine-saturated gauze, bloody scalpels and their caps, pairs of forceps, suture thread and packaging...

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Luca ☣️🐈☢️ @pervertc.at · 09/05/2026

it's healing up nicely - I like how you can see the darker stroke where my scene partner got most bloodthirsty -w- I'm grateful for these scars as something that in both design and medium simultaneously represents me, them, and the nature of our relationship.