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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

First post in a looong time. I think I'm happier this way. I keep things to myself way too much. It sucks. I like doing this more, and some people I care about read my blogs. But it's also publicly available information about my daily activities and thoughts. I really don't know anything...

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

Trying to say, "I love you!" or show it implicitly in some way. I feel like I'm not doing enough. Or rather, than I'm spreading myself too thin sometimes. I came into work this morning with an extra pep in my step and greeted everyone cheerfully. It was nice, but I can't stand one of my coworkers

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

-- our lives. It's weird. I wonder if when my life comes to end, I'll ask the question, "Did I love enough?" I hope to live my life in a way that I can proudly answer, "Yes!". I know it's probably small and meaningless, but I texted a few of my close friends.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

This past week, I've been thinking about what would happen if I died and what my legacy would be. The icebreaker for my Bible study asked me what I'd say to my best friend in 7 words, before I never see them again. One of my favorite music artists dropped a song about the fleeting nature of-- 🧵

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

In other words, this is an exercise to acknowledge the state I'm in and work from there. I really can't afford to go lower than this, or I'll start losing things like my career, my integrity, my relationships, etc. All because I'm not taking care of myself and my loved ones.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

I formatted this post a little differently because my health (and especially anxious or overwhelmed feelings as of late) has been overshadowing my desire to express myself. I have also somewhat withdrawn from meaningful relationships. Just conversing less, being less thoughtful, and less proactive.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

My spiritual health is strong. (Although, I'm deeply apprehensive around other Christians) I say it's strong 'cause I'm growing my personal relationship with God through both "General Revelation" and "Special Revelation". More on that in a separate post. I've been taking refuge in God a lot lately

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

Physical health needs some improvement, but I'm working on it. Idk how to evaluate my mental health, so I'll do some research. I'd guess that I'm doing bad though. My social health is fine. I'm well-connected, although I feel a bit neglected. I haven't spoken with my support system in a while,,,

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

Health Report: My heart feels heavy & life feels like a lot. I think this feeling is exacerbated by the fact that I didn't sleep well last night, and I took caffiene this morning. Though, I have been experiencing this feeling every day for the past several days. It's just strong in this moment. 🧵

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

Afterwards, I spent some time by myself playing video games. Then I went to go run for 30 minutes, watched a fireworks show with a stranger, bought food and snacks from a convenience store. I ended the night off by singing karaoke in my car before getting ready for bed and going to sleep.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

Yesterday, I went to out for lunch with a friend. We were trying to go to Burger Wolf, but it was closed. We went to café Surin instead for lunch and met Lulus & Joca (the café's resident serval cats). We visited a Blue Seal ice cream parlor afterwards. I've been craving for beni-imo lately. 🧵

Chicken nanban set. My friend ordered the pork set.

Lulus & Joca resting in their carrier crates.

A selection of ice cream flavors at Blue Seal. I like Blue Seal a lot.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 24/06/2025

When life challenges you, make sure you come out stronger. Been struggling to give gratitude, notice things, and be as thoughtful as I have been before. I want to reclaim it.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 18/06/2025

I can start putting in leave for stuff now, so I will try to put in leave to check out Malaysia & mainland Japan in January. I might also visit home. Budgeting money & leave days will be important. Also cause I wanna see about attending FURUM & JMoF >_< www.furum.org/2025 www.jmof.jp

furum.org

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 18/06/2025

The other day, I passed a big milestone for my career. I completed my initial training pipeline. Just waiting on a license to be processed, and gonna do some more hands-on training before the boss lets me work without supervision.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 18/06/2025

These past few months, I've been listening to a lot of reggae. Recently, I've been getting back into indie rock. It feels right to me. Also been listening to Nintendo game soundtracks again.

I never really understood why people blast music in their car, or set the bass really high. But on my drive home Sunday night, I did just that. Lowk, I had a karaoke session by myself. It was pretty fun.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 18/06/2025

A compilation of photos from last weekend. Doing my chores throughout the week gives me so much more free time! Hung out with coworkers, traveled by myself, called friends & family, and one of my friends actually came over to my apartment to hang out :3 Very good weekend.

A photo of an empty table at a sports bar. Empty & half-filled drinks clutter the table. A lot of fun, meaningful, and serious conversation was had that night.

A photo of my breakfast on Saturday morning. I went to a breakfast cafe to reflect on the night before, and to check on my coworkers.

Some flowers that I saw on Saturday. I went grocery shopping after this photo was taken. I have not yet identified this flower.

A photo of my lunch on Sunday. Before this photo was taken, I called my family while driving north. Sunday morning, I also studied some Japanese and went to church.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

I spent the evening journaling at my desk and drawing. I wanted to update my Toyhouse, but I was already past my bedtime. P.S. I'm journaling on paper cause I'm not too keen on sharing EVERYTHING on the internet XP Tryna keep it generic and somewhat authentic.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

I met their dogs and got to play with them! A big German Sheppard and a little Dachshund. He also allowed me to take a bunch of cooking ingredients, seasoning, lemonade, pots, plates, and bowls. "It's too much trouble to pack them", he said. I basically had permission to loot their house XD

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

Yesterday was a good day. I studied pretty hard, and noticed the birds chirping while I was inspecting some trucks. I read somewhere that if you hear birds chirping, you're in a safe place. At least, there's no predators nearby. Also, one of my coworkers are moving away so I helped him out.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

Last Tuesday, I felt like I got hit by a truck. Not actually though!! I was just super sore from the gym and it was really hot outside that day. My body was working hard to recover, and that made me exhausted. I made a decision to eat good and hydrate a lot so that my body wouldn't struggle.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

I got my waist measured recently, and turns out that I have the smallest waist in my immediate workplace. Felt pretty good about that. Although, I've been thinking about bulking up and getting physically stronger. I need to up my cardio as well.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

Last Monday was a pretty good day. I studied hard. I also met with a social worker again for mental health. Been thinking a lot about my spiritual health lately. I hit the gym that evening, and tried out a bunch of the machines there.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

Last weekend, I met with my Japanese tutor. We learned more about "なんじから、なんじまれ" and similar sentence structure. Also learned about the days of the week. After that, I went grocery shopping.

A particularly luxurious meal I ordered from McDonald's last Saturday. It was good.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 12/06/2025

I'm like, the little brother/cousin of all the circles I'm active in. Mostly work and mutual hobby groups. I'm happy with that. I'll grow up someday, but no need to rush.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

I only went out for dinner at Sushiro with some folks from my church. I listened to them talk, and ate my fill of fish, rice, and tea. I spent the evening playing It Takes Two with my friend back home, doing my homework, and finishing up my laundry. Lastly, sweet dreams!

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

Today was good. I started off the day pretty slow. Spent some extra time in bed. Usually, I have a "weekend checklist" posted on my door that I glance at every day that I'm off work. I haven't looked at it in a while, but I did so this morning. I spent the day catching up on my chores.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

I also fell asleep to the voice of my friend back home. We were on a call because I was having trouble sleeping again >_< As much as I don't feel like I deserve to be taken care of by so many people, it's reality that we're all in this together. I think I made real friends out here.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

I can't talk to them about what I'm really feeling. That is, until one of my friends snapped me out of it. He approached me, and suggested we go do fun stuff together and grab food. I spent the rest of the day with him, and I enjoyed it a lot. Made sure to thank him.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

-- something to do with the things I've been going through. Anyways, back on topic to the beach day! A bunch of my coworkers and some leadership saw me isolating myself and tried to encourage me to put myself out there and even checked if I was okay. Felt really appreciated tbh. Although--

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

-- understand where these thoughts and feelings come from. I have not felt like this in a long time either. Only when I was really new to this job, that I felt like that. But I quickly got on friendly terms with a lot of my coworkers, and I feel happy seeing them every day now. I think it has--

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

There were lots of dragonflies, butterflies, and robber flies! The shoreline felt quite vibrant. I did some walking up and down the sandy beach as well, and it was good. Although, I felt kind of sick emotionally. It's pretty typical of me to feel like I don't belong, but I really don't--

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

Yesterday was pretty good! My work was having a beach day, so a lot of us got out of work and hung out on the shore. People grilled food, met folks from other departments, played beach volleyball and other games. Since summer is here, I noticed a lot of cool bugs flying around. 🧵

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

I feel like I'm on the verge of replaying a dark time of my life. I also find myself asking a lot of the same questions from that time. One of these many questions asks, "How much do I value being authentic?". My answer? A lot, and I'm not interested in hating myself for it.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

I haven't struggled with falling asleep this in a long time. Very upset.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

Could just be because it's late and I'm having trouble falling asleep. But I feel like I'm no longer looking forward to the future. I don't know how I feel about spending time with others. I'm just waiting for something to happen. Or I'm living out of obligation. Not because I want to.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

Hello! Today was a good day. I played volleyball with some of my coworkers before our shift. I went to work, studied a whole bunch, and sold lots of fuel. Now I'm back home. Very simple, easy day. Also texting my friends before sleeping X3

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

-- a friend from the airport, so I spent a lot of time in that area. It was a pretty chill day, and I called my friend back home twice today hehe Love 'em a lot! We played It Takes Two on my mobile data >w< Today was a good day. Thank God.

A photo of a big orca plush at PARCO Village Vanguard. I liked him a lot, but I don't really have a spot in my house for this big guy.

The same big orca plush, but I'm holding it by the chin. He is so cute!

I visited the observation deck of PARCO City Mall too. I looked over the shoreline. It was a nice sight.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Hello! Today, I slept in a little bit. Despite that, I had less than 6 hours of sleep,, I was somewhat busy today. Got lunch at PARCO City. It was my first time going there, so I walked around a lot trying to get familiar with the layout. I also stayed out in Naha very late. I was picking up-- 🧵

A photo of PARCO City Mall's 3rd Floor Map. This was the area I focused a lot on familiarizing myself with. I'll probably do the lower floors another day.

A wall of plushies and other merch in PARCO Village Vanguard. I think my friend back home would love this, which is why I took a photo.

I ate Panda Express. The fortune cookie was hilariously fitting.

I visited a Lawson late at night for food & coffee.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Went from being FPV Batman to just being plain old cute lol I hope that your bed is nice and warm on a cold day 🫂

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Did some studying, completed some online training, etc. After work, I went to a bible study at this Christian fellowship house I really like. Same one I've been going to for months. We had dinner, a worship night, and just spent time together. It was really good. I went home late, and slept.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Last Friday, I went to work as usual. Sadly, I was making a lot of little mistakes that morning and it really messed with me. One of my coworkers pulled me aside today and asked me if I was ok. We had a deep conversation. I felt a lot better afterwards, so I was able to lock in and get things done

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

-- day catching up on chores, calling my friend back home and playing video games with him and one of his friends. I'm glad that I'm still able to take care of myself and be around others when I'm down. Really cherish the people around you.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Yesterday, I slept in a little bit. I got up and got ready for my day. Realized I forgot to do the homework my tutor assigned me. Was supposed to meet with him for a lesson, but we ended rescheduling. He's a very patient guy. Ate lunch at a resturant and got a haircut. Spent the rest of the-- 🧵

My lunch from an establishment called "Morning Works". As I ate, I read up on self-help and religious articles. I also watched a tree sway in the wind and cars drive past. The resturant was bustling with a lot of people.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 01/06/2025

Just casually wearing a cape in the dead of night XD

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

Kind of overwhelmed lately. Not just with work, but other things too. Prayed about it. But also, I scheduled an appointment with a mental health counselor. Been reaching out to close friends, family, and some coworkers.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/05/2025

Tried walking down the Indy Jones Trail after work. Could not find it at first. When I did, it was far too overgrown and dangerous for me to consider trying. It was already turning a bit dark out at the time. Turned back. Driving & getting out was nice though

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 27/05/2025

Weekend was long. Happy to be at work

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 25/05/2025

Went to a new church today. I really didn't like it. Met with my Japanese tutor afterwards. Learned about telling time. Became very sleepy. Spent the evening calling my best friend, played Jackbox with their family from over 1,300 miles away. Played TLoZ:BotW by myself until past midnight.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 24/05/2025

Hello! Today, I went to Seaglass Beach and walked along the shore with one of my friends. We had a really good time, goofed around, had deep convos, and admired our environment. We ate at KFC afterwards and visited Hard-Off before heading back home. I'm very tired, and quite happy.

The shores of Seaglass Beach. Unfortunately, I took photos of everything EXCEPT the places with seaglass.

Some drawings in the sand my friend and I made. I drew him an oppossum, and he drew me a puppy.

Some water, thick with algae. During high tide, it will connect with the ocean.

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ParkiePuff @parkiepuff.bsky.social · 24/05/2025

Morning! Yesterday, I got the day off from work. So I spent the day doing laundry and calling friends & family from back home. I also went to a bible study.

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