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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 7h

You know, for experiencing yet another catastrophic life event today, I actually don't feel as bad as I thought I would feel.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 9h

Raise your hand if you're depressed and being told to "think positive" or "believe you can get better" accomplishes absolutely nothing for you. I just want someone to help me with a plan of action most of the time.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 10h

All I ever asked for was someone to love and enough money to live, and I'm never getting either.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 10h

My life can't take many more of these setbacks, but I'll keep trudging on.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 13h

I don't really care what happens to me anymore. I don't have a reason to live. Never had. Even less so since I'm going homeless in a year. Accepted my fate that I'm going to die soon.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 17h

I really wish my life would end or someone could put me into a coma until things could get better.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 18h

I didn't get the job... Fucking hate my life. Nothing ever goes right.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Why are my dreams so mean to me... My last dream before waking up was about going to an "otter spa" and every otter there was just biting my leg constantly...

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

People think I wouldn't be a good partner because I would be too needy, but all I'd really need is just one day of cuddles, smooches, and love a week. At the moment I get none of that, so it would be a significant upgrade.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Work day has ended and I didn't hear back about the job. Guess that's my cue to take it easy for the weekend.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

New haircut, new selfie! I took about 20 tries to take a pic here I like... most belly pics I only take one >_<

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I have the curse of being different, but in a different way from most people that are different.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I always feel like I try so hard at life and nothing works out for me the way it does for others.

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Noah @noahotter.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Marketing your indie project can be a genuine struggle. On today's episode of Indie-opolis, we interview @curdlegames.bsky.social , creator of the upcoming chaotic driving simulator 4x4 in a Furniture Store, about the marketing process in the indie scene and how to get your ideas out there. Enjoy!

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

In other news I discovered Heaven Studio and this fills the empty hole in my heart for more Rhythm Heaven games. I may just never play another game again as long as there's plenty of levels to download.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

My entire existence is pure anxiety. I don't even know how I'm going to sleep tonight, thinking about the job application.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Now that I'm entering the job market for software engineering as someone who's passion *isn't* programming, I feel very looked down upon just because I don't do hobby projects.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I'm so nervous I'm so nervous I'm so nervous When I get that email about the job I'm either going to be elated or broken.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I submitted the programming assessment. 3 days of work is done. So nervous though on if it'll be enough >_< a lot riding on this.

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Otter Make Games Inc. @ottermakegames.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Along the way, in person and in stream chat, I get asked a lot about how I work with my Autism & ADHD and not against when it comes to my daily workflows, I got asked to join a podcast last month with and the episode I'm in just went up so happy to share here.

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Mental Health and Neurodivergent Burnout Being A Big Reality in the Indie Scene: Talking with OtterMakeGames about the Reality of Mental Burnout Behind The Scenes: Indie-Opolis E4

Indie-opolis: Exploring The Best of Indie Creators · Episode

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Happy to report that after being stressed out yesterday, the programming assessment is almost complete. I need some cuddles now.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I feel like every decision I make now, I'm teetering on the brink of death.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I don't feel well anymore. The programming challenge is not going well. I don't think I can do this and my life is going to be ruined forever if I can't.

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Noah @noahotter.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

New episode of Indie-opolis up! Today, we spoke to @ottermakegames.bsky.social , another neurodivergent otter developing a game about the rescue dog he adopted! We discuss the realities of neurodivergent burnout in the indie space, masking, and how to keep your passion burning. Hope you enjoy! 🦦

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I have "poly" and "ace" all over my bios everywhere and people are still shocked when I don't want sex or a monogamous relationship.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Next 3 days I'm locking in. I was given a bunch of tasks I don't know how to do to get this job, but learning new things is my strength. I have to get this right.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Happy #tummytuesday! Starting to feel better, so why not celebrate with some roundness.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I learned something this past week, which is that my therian identity is a core component of what I need to get feelings. If you constantly refer to me as a little otter pet and treat me like one, I'll be much more likely to fall for you.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Imagine if you discovered a new thing, far greater than anything you had ever experienced prior in your life. Then one day that thing was suddenly taken away from you, and the other things that once were important in your life went away with it. That's basically my life and how I feel about love.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

It's kind of hard knowing even if you really like someone, they might not be a right fit for you. And even harder if they are a right fit but they're not available at the time you need them to be.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

In other (sort of) good news, I might be getting hired back at my old company, the robotics startup. I just need to do some programming work these next few days, which hopefully I can figure out alright.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Does anybody have any suggestions on meeting people that are poly and okay with dating an asexual guy? Philly/South NJ area preferred. I can't find any actually existing poly meetups. I have tried poly specific dating apps, there's nothing on there besides horny people.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I wish they could invent a way for people to be asleep 24/7. I would jump on that in a heartbeat.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I feel like people that say it gets better are either just saying that to say it, or legitimately don't know how fucked some people are.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Gotta stay alive to see the end of Steel Ball Run I guess.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Update: It was completely useless as always. No one actually even tries with me.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

On the suicide hotline for the second time this week. Yaaaaay

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Some day I will disappear and then everyone will be better off.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I encourage people to reach out to me to talk or try going out on a date with me, if you think there's any at all chance we'd be compatible. I probably sound like the most desperate person, but I really don't know what else to do.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

The lack of a partner is really, really wearing me down. I want love more than anything in the world, it's the thing I care about the most, and yet I'm 31 years old and have never had a real relationship.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Over 10 years and nothing has ever helped me. Why continue on...

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

It just got pointed out to me by a friend that a lot of straight women are like this. But I guess when it's a gay man, it's seen as weakness.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

So just to make sure, it's not normal to have your entire life's ambition be centered around being in a relationship, right?

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Do I expect too much of potential partners? Is it bad that I won't compromise on the things I need?

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I really just met my "once every 2 years" crush and got rejected like that huh.

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Why is it so hard to find people that take romance seriously, aren't just focused on sex, and also polyamorous (and who are looking for someone like me)?

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Tuna the Goat (Comms Open) @goatuna.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Don’t Talk To Me Until I Have My Weighted Autism Otter Sticker comm for @shirosiri.us! #furryart

“If you need me I’ll be under the Autism Otter” Shiro the raccoon pinned underneath a massive weighted otter plush

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Brownie Otter θ∆ 🔜 Furpoc, MFF @otterbrownie.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I'm sorry everyone. For the next few days I will be insufferably sad. It's how I'm cursed to be.

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