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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

- pissed at Manny. SHE MADE YOUR TRUCK SMELL! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, E?

Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

- told him that I wasn't eating right when he was not around, so that shouldn't be a surprise, but I knew it would still be a topic in the conversation we were going to have. I knew my parents wouldn’t care if we were out for a while.] I know Dad isn’t happy with you, but he better be just as -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

[I didn’t miss the glare from Manny as E walked me through the house. I waited until we were backing out of the driveway to say anything.] I'm absolutely starving. Do you think we could get pizza and eat at the lake? I really don't want to eat in a restaurant, but I'm starving. [I had already -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

- don’t want to have this conversation here. The walls are too thin and as far as I’m concerned, he doesn’t need any more privilege on whatever this is than he already has.

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

- about what happened later. E, I expect you to spend the night, but if you do anything to make her cry ever again, I will shoot you myself. Got it?” I almost wanted to groan at my dad, but he heard me cry a lot these last few months. Once he disappeared into the house, I focused back on E.] I -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

- he was handing me money. “Take this and go spend some time with him. Away from your brothers. Work your shit out, baby. You’re not going to be able to do that with your brothers sitting in the house, and you know that. i’ll talk to your mother when she gets home. As far as you go, we will talk -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

- about it because E brought me home from the party. Something happened when I was there. I’m not ready to talk about it. [I should’ve known better then to talk about this right now, but I knew my dad. He crossed the patio and looked me over, carefully stroking my cheek. The next thing I knew -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

- rolled my eyes until I realized it’s my dad. “Lexi, did you punch your brother in the face twice?“ I turned to face him, nodding slowly.] Actually, it was three times, and yes, sir, I did. He’s the reason any of this is happening. He told E that I was off limits, like he was you. I just found -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

[I couldn’t even process my thoughts correctly because my brothers were home.] I don’t know what you want me to say. I can’t even properly express the amount of pain I’ve been in since you’ve chosen someone else over me over us. [I was going to say more, but the screen door opened and I almost -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- me to hang all over. Why don’t you go in the other room and ask Chris how many meals I’ve actually had in three months and then come back out here and talk to me because it wasn’t very many.

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- I love them immensely, but no. I sat in one of the chairs and folded my arms watching E closely.] so let me get this straight. You want me and only me. You have a very shitty way of showing it, considering you let my brother make the decision for you and then you went and found someone who -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- trying to back away from the situation, and I grabbed the back of his shirt before he could get any further.] Where do you think you’re going? I’m not done with you yet. [I let go of his shirt and headed to the back deck because I did not want to have this conversation in front of my brothers. -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- my brothers walking in the door, and I spun on my heels, nailing Manny in the jaw about three times before Chris pulled me off of him.] Let me go, Chris. He fucking told E that I was off-limits to him. That’s why he has a girlfriend that isn’t me. It’s your twin’s fault handle it. [I saw E -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- I just agreed to do what he says. Still saying nothing to you about my feelings for you or what we have between us. Then I just randomly show up at your house with a dude and expect you to be cool with it. [I saw the flinch, but he didn’t say anything.] Yeah, you don’t like that idea. [I heard -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

- slap him again. The only way I could make him understand this hurt is to flip the script on his ass.] pay real close attention right now because I’m only saying this once. How would you feel in our situation if I went to Dante and he told me no. So instead of even speaking to you about it, -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

[I was angry. I was so fucking hurt. I couldn’t even form words with the amount of rage pumping through my veins right now. I was even more angry at Manny for thinking he could make a decision regarding my life when he wasn’t even a parent. I took a step back only because if I didn’t, I was going -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- hurt me. I didn’t even know what to say, as I quickly wiped tears away from my face. I hated his girlfriend even more, and as soon as I laid eyes on my brother, he was going to hurt just as much if not more.]

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- feel stupid yet? Was she worth it? All the pain you caused me? Was she worth all of it? I don’t understand why you would let my brother dictate what happens to me or what happens between us. How could you do that? [I turned my back trying so hard not to sob. I couldn’t believe how much this -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- brother said so. Obviously, you weren’t paying that close attention at the parties because if you were, you would’ve noticed the one that was trying to get me to swim was your cousin not my brother. Don’t you ever listen to my Bros again concerning my feelings if you ever want me around. Do you -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- laying in my room or Chris’s room every single night and cry my eyes out because you didn’t want me. That will never ever fly with me ever it hurt. It still hurts even though I feel something for you. I always have since the time we were little, but you just threw it out the window because my -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- brother control you. Not only did you do that you devastated me? You tore me apart and you don’t give a shit. You cannot sit there and tell me you did because if you did, your little girlfriend wouldn’t have even happened he would’ve fought for me and you didn’t you let me fall apart you let me -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

- open your eyes. Chris and Manny do not make decisions for me. My grandmother does not make decisions for me. You want permission to date me fine you get it from my father and my mother. No one else. More importantly you should have talked to me. You didn’t. You let your friendship with my -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

[Now I was infuriated. I closed the distance between us and my hand made contact with his cheek so damn fast. I don’t even think he was prepared for it.] You are such a fucking asshole to put your friend his word in front of what you felt for me if you felt anything. How dare you! Wake up, Esai! -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

- urge was very strong. I remained quiet just for the simple fact that I didn’t know what to say. He said that he didn’t mean to hurt me, but he also didn’t speak to me before making a decision like this so in a way whether he wanted to admit it or not he knew exactly what he was doing.]

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

- even more. I opened the door and walked in not really stopping to notice if he followed me or not. I don’t think he has any idea how much he truly did hurt me by getting a girlfriend without even talking to me first. Honestly, I was half tempted to smack him across the face. I didn’t, but the -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

[I was angry because I wanted to have this conversation and he decided we should go inside. I rolled my eyes and got out of the truck because there was no point in me saying anything. I grabbed my bag and went in the house. I had a feeling that whatever he was going to say was going to piss me off -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- hurt me? I know you’re not stupid, but that was the stupidest thing you could’ve ever chosen to do and the most painful.

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- understood was my mother. Against my better judgment, I’m moved sit on his lap and look him in the eye.] all of our lives we’ve had this connection and you just randomly decided one day that I didn’t mean shit and you decided to bring another girl into your life. Do you really think it wouldn’t -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- Esai. You did that all on your own. No I wasn’t happy about it. No, I’m still not happy about it, but you didn’t ask me either so why the hell would I tell you anything about what I wanted? [when he decided to date, I completely crumbled and I was broken for weeks. The only one that really -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

[I snapped my head to the side when he barked at me a little. I knew he knew better than that because it was me, but he was going to get a reminder right now.] Just who the hell do you think you’re talking to you like that cause I know it’s not me. I’m not the one that told you to get a girlfriend -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- dirty looks in the hallway. I don’t even say anything to her, and she has something to say about it.

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- understand because we had a connection and we’ve had it since we were babies. Part of me wanted to go somewhere else and the other part of me wanted to go swimming with just him.] if you hadn’t come inside, he would’ve hurt me more. I’m sure your girl hates me even more now. She gives me such -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- explain it to anyone not even my mother. I was so fucking angry at him for it, but I also understood why.] I don’t even know him like that I wasn’t even dressed any sort of way to attract the kind of attention. That’s why I didn’t wanna go swimming with everyone there. [I knew he would -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

- sure that your girlfriend wouldn’t want you here with me. I saw the way she was watching me when I wasn’t even doing anything but reading. [I unhooked my seatbelt and slid across the seats to be closer to him. We had been like this our whole lives when he started dating. It broke me. I couldn’t -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

[I didn’t even realize that I had not said a word since we left the party. When we pulled in the driveway and no one was home I was angry. I figured my brothers might have wandered back here to figure out where I went. I looked at E and shook my head. I didn’t know how to explain anything.] I’m -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Damn it attached to the wrong part

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

- game. No one really understood why I didn’t want anyone. I had plenty of offers, but nobody I ever really cared about or wanted to be with except for the person next to me in the truck.]

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

- to the house. I know you don’t need it, but that’s not the point. [I turned my head to look out the window because I didn’t even know what to say to him anymore. Him having a girlfriend really bothered me, but I understood why. Our friends weren’t exactly understanding when it came to the dating -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

- take over his truck. I made a face at the smell of his girlfriend‘s perfume. It didn’t even smell good to me; it smelled like water and nothing else, but she dumped it on like she took a bath in it.] Thank you for getting him off of me. I’ll make sure to give you money for gas when we get back -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

- sometimes. [I climbed in the truck, muttering about nosy people. I made sure to buckle my seatbelt before I closed the door and looked over at him. I’ve set my bag on my feet even though I know I can set it between us. I put it between my feet to make room for him in case he didn’t want me to -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

- frowned, then she noticed my face and torn clothes. “Ok be careful. By the way, you better kiss him in the truck.” I rolled my eyes, shaking my head.] Stopp, please, not now. [I walked back over to E, following him to the truck. I was embarrassed as hell now.] I’m sorry, people, so nosy -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

[I was fucking terrified, but Esai was right there. When he asked if I wanted to leave, I wordlessly nodded, curling into his side. When we made it outside, I motioned for him to wait for a minute. I walked over to Nan, tapping her shoulder.] I'm going to go home. E is going to take me. [Nan -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- but I was still frozen against the wall with hot tears, rolling down my cheeks.] @ofjaggededges.bsky.social

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- his hand was removed from my nose and mouth. It took me a minute to realize the very person that I was missing was the only one that was here to save me from being seriously hurt. I was coughing, trying to pull air into my lungs, but I still managed to say his name.] Esai…. [I wanted to say more -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- advertising.” I didn’t even know what to do because I didn’t understand what he was talking about. I started to try to fight back, but I was smaller than most teenage girls and I also had asthma. Diego was making it hard for me to breathe. Before I could kick him, he was suddenly off of me and -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- but Diego just wasn’t stopping. I was going to scream, but then he put his hand over my mouth. That’s when I started to cry harder because all I wanted was to put my bathing suit on and go swimming. “ You’re such a little tease. You’re gonna stop being a bitch and give me what you’re -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- get off of me. [this guy just wasn’t budging at all, and it wasn’t like I had an escape plan. Hot tears spilled down my cheeks as I realize what he was trying to do. I didn’t want my first time with a guy to be like this. I didn’t want my first time to be with someone I barely knew. I kept -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- here that we’re giving me wolf whistles in that sort of thing, but I was just ignoring all of it. The bathroom door opened, and I stepped aside to let the guy out, but he backed me up against the wall. I knew neither one of my brothers would hear me if I started yelling.] what are you doing? -

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- babies, but he had a girlfriend now. I didn’t want to do any of that not now not ever. I sighed heavily and went to grab my bag.] Fiiiine, I’m going to change. I’ll be back. [I was waiting for the bathroom to be free so that I could change into my bathing suit in privacy. There were a few guys-

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Lexi Martinez @ofsoftthorns.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

- my eyes as Dante climbed out of the pool and walked over to me. “Seriously, Lexi! Come swim.” I didn’t want to tell him that the reason I didn’t want to swim was because I was miserable. I didn’t want to tell him that his cousin has been the only person I’ve wanted in my life since we were -

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