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the dog is leaning on the edge of a table, and she's wearing a lose shirt. the text reads: "i don't know what i even want anymore"

Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

feeling like i am recovering but i dont want it, i feel like its just temporal and i must go back to suffering, because there is comfort knowing everything is shit and makes me see the world how it is, cruel and cold and maybe i want it because i am not comfortable feeling good anymore

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I think I like to bring myself down because i deserve it, I rather feel this pain than the hope of something better… Pain is the only thing I can control

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

*constantly needs affection and is mostly needy but as soon as someone does that goes back to isolation and overthinking*

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Idk why I feel like shit, everything feels heavy today, my heart aches

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I really want to be a pretty trans but I fear my face and body are ugly and when I have the money to do something it will be too late

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

my monkey ass brain goes "neuron activation" when I see something/someone pretty and cant help it to have dopamine spike

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Sorry if sometimes it feels like im being fake, i do like things I see but I dont know how to properly share it without overreacting or making a lot of mistakes... like that time when i was learning pronouns and misspronoun a lot... takes time to learn and change the chip iykwim

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Its so hard to ask for forgiveness when you already had a second chance. I am trying my best to manage myself and my own emotions, understand i do not mean harm or make you upset or make you feel uncomfortable...

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I have ruined some of my best friendships because of my own stupidity and instability... im sorry, I wish I could go back in time to fix them, I really cared about it, made me feel worth something i guess, and litsened...

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Every time I get close to someone I get a weird feeling and like, uncomfortable sensation in my head, like its overwhelming and cant take it anymore and I want to run away Makes me feel like I will never understand how relationships work Makes me feel lonely and craving for it...

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I think im doing better, after the last mental breakdown im like, idk, less anxious? Lets see how long this lasts

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

I hurt myself to feel something different than this mental burden, but it all comes back again Why I can’t let go Im broken I really don’t want to live feeling this pain in my head, I swear im not bad I just don’t understand why is it so easy for others to move on

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

I don’t belong I want to die Someday i will Tired of this feeling Im awful Don’t know how to let go I’m numb Always ignored, never first, nobody will remember me after im gone

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Why do i have to do everything alone? Nobody cares about me

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Euthanasia should be legal at age of 21 or if you have persistent depression... gosh I wish It could be a normal thing... I dont know, I just wanna pull the plug and wish for an easy way out

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Dont you love when everything feels heavy again? I can never go back to being happy, I am clumsy, I rather stay low so i can never be dissapointed

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I wish they see this someday and know how sorry I am for misunderstanding everything, Yes i feel something for you and I cannot change that, but I didn’t want to lose you either. Why I do this? There is no point… I hope we can start all over again

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I cannot recognize emotions, i have to process the moment and analyze, it takes hours or days even, and when I realize what it meant its too late. I know I wasn’t important but I didn’t know back then… all I thought was how happy i felt and how to make them feel the same, sorry

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I miss when I could talk with them... I wish they remember me and say "maybe they are over it now, I could give them another chance" But I know its not gonna happen because I fucked up being a fool and clingy

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I dont even know whats going on with me anymore I want to die and go to furry heaven, live there like those stories with friends... everything seems so hurtful in real life, there is no joy anymore

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

I love rainy and gray days, it doesnt hurt my eyes

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

Sorry, I just overthink and even if I try to reach out I kinda feel guilty, maybe i make others uncomfortable with my presence or bothering in dms… I can’t handle my emotions very well and I don’t recognize them. Not sure why I even live for

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

I hurt myself to feel something My antidepressants can only do so much, and sometimes i feel they dont work I give myself a caffeine peak to feel better but that doesn’t last long and makes the downs a lot harder to handle.

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

I try do what others want and tells me, I try my best to make everyone happy but why and for what?… I distract my mind doing something else, like fixing my car or do groceries but it doesn’t matter because at the end of yhe day I still remember…

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

I dont know how this world works, I push away those who try help me and I try to reach the ones that ignore me, just because I felt something, I was included and part of something but now… Im nobody, every single day I think about how everyone else would be better without me.

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

Im gonna try this one more time… Im tired all the time, my mind is a broken mess and i dont know why i still talk to “friends” that wont talk to me back, it has been a long time but I felt happy back then, now everything is falling apart, im trying to restore whats broken and… I cry…

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 25/03/2026

Motorbike or e-bike can be a cheap alternative

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 03/03/2026

Squeak loud and proud 🐭

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 24/02/2026

I feel ya, thoughts are heavy today for me... hold on tight

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

Why i get ghosted/ignored and keep trying to crave for a reply I don’t understand myself I know its over but refuse to let go I don’t even know why I even try

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

I have been ghosted for months and I still try to get some kind of reply, im that pathetic I just don’t understand whats wrong with me so they don’t talk back

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 24/01/2026

I had plans for today but got cancelled, I have been staring at the screen of my laptop for hours, not knowing what to do. I´ve got no social life, nobody interacts with me in a way I could say "omg my bestie is here", I feel like im not important to anyone. I just want to leave this world.

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 24/01/2026

Cada vez mas cerca de cyberpunk2077, yo ya estoy viendo ads hechos por AI, no solo eso, tambien online veo merchandising usando AI...

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

Hopefully you can fix it ☔️

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

stay safe, we love you💚

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little mousewife @compactdivine.bsky.social · 18/01/2026

lucky for you i would forgive the same person one thousand times if it meant getting my head patted again

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 19/01/2026

Everything loops in my head Dreams more vivid than ever, somewhere inside me keeps living in the past and when I wake up I can feel it slowly fading away I get sad and wish i could sleep forever

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little mousewife @compactdivine.bsky.social · 15/01/2026

my least relatable ideas are the ones i hold dearest i think

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little mousewife @compactdivine.bsky.social · 15/01/2026

today things are harder than yesterday

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Nixie @nixiegreen.bsky.social · 15/01/2026

I wish there was a magical way to transport myself to my ideal place

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