iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 06/03/2025

today i weighed in at 89.8 lbs, 0.2 under my third ugw. it meant nothing to me and i just set a lower ugw for myself

noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

eating a can of soup every day is letting me tap into my roots of pretending i was living in a zombie apocalypse where i had to ration the food as a child

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 11/02/2025

sometimes it feels so hopeless and that therapy will never help me get better because i’ll never fully open up about my eating disorder. it’s because i don’t want help and i don’t want recovery

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 06/02/2025

i’m trying so hard to distract myself from eating until at least tomorrow night, i wish i never started buying groceries again

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 06/02/2025

grieving the death of my mother and being balls deep in my eating disorder has turned me into such a hateful, bitter, jealous, and angry person

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 22/01/2025

maybe my reward for when i’m back under 95 will be sushi again

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

the loseit website is painfully outdated

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 01/01/2025

happy new year, i hope in 2025 everyone can get to the point where they feel comfortable with who they are and how they look and they can recover

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

wait edsky what’s with the influx of alt/backup accounts are people getting suspended or is it a just in case thing?

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

i’m debating soft announcing that i relapsed 4 months ago to my best friends, i haven’t told them about my eating disorder so i’m scared but i never talk about my mental illness and i need someone to listen to me i’m writing a general statement about my mental illness(es) but i don’t want recovery

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

i can’t believe i’m turning 21 soon wow i’m so ready for my eating disorder to magically go away so i can leave online ed spaces forever /s

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

i have a lump on my inner thigh and a family history of cancer but i don’t know how to get it checked out without them asking about my weight loss and if it was on purpose or accidental and if they press about it being on purpose

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

seaweed salad with chili flakes, a rainbow roll, and a california roll 🍣

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

as much as i hate edtwt and twitter as a whole and i want to make the full move to edsky, i have so many mutuals on edtwt that i’d miss talking to

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

it this a safe space for me to admit when i get really, really desperate i turn to weight loss subliminals and delude myself into thinking they work

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

why did i look up how much people gain on average from the holidays, why did the results say 1-4 pounds, and why did i gain 5+ pounds instead yes, it’s food weight but seeing it do damage on the scale and in the mirror is torture to me

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

for everyone on edsky who’s dreading thanksgiving, we’re all disordered and it’s easier said than done, but enjoy these moments with your loved ones and make memories with them, even if it means eating food. it’s a once a year event and you deserve to relish in it. i hope you all have good days

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

i’m taking a bodycheck before i go back home until monday because i know i’ll humiliate myself from how much i eat over the next few days

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

on one of my non-edsky accounts i mentioned that i had three accounts and my irl asked if they could follow the third (this one, my edsky) ummm!

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

healingminds dot bsky dot social just followed me and i regret to inform them this is perhaps the unhealthiest my mind and body have been ever

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

i’ve been debating not weighing myself over break and weighing after instead but i have an innate need to know how much i weigh every 24 hours and i can’t stop it

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

seaweed salad with chili flakes, a rainbow roll, and a philadelphia roll 🍣

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

should i break my fast with the same rainbow roll poke bowl that i ate back in august when i got the news my mom would be dying 3 days later or is it too soon

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

get to know me chain!!! pronouns: they/them height: 5’2 shoe: 6/7 smoke: no tattoos: none piercings: none fav drink: strawberry iced smoothie with popping lychee boba 🩵

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

i need to starve myself until i am nothing and i am so malnourished and fragile and sickly that i can’t form any cohesive thoughts and think about my trauma and abuse anymore

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

so so so so anxious for thanksgiving break because if i gained 5+ pounds in food weight over 3 days i’m going to gain even more over 5 days and i can’t not be at 100 by december 31st i don’t want to trigger a binge cycle

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

i need to be 102 by wednesday at my appointment i’m not kidding

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

i need to get back on this grind set but i don’t think i can keep up with myself from a month ago, i think this was my wake up call realizing my behavior wasn’t sustainable

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

in october i consistently walked 40,000-50,000 steps every monday but in the last few weeks i’ve dwindled back to 20,000 and just today i only got to 13,040 i feel so off my game lately and it worries me because i want to speedrun weight loss so badly. i don’t have the energy or motivation i used to

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dollie's spam ₊˚⊹♡ @hungerdoll.bsky.social · 15/11/2024

tips/advisories for adults migrating from edtwt to edsky: most of us are anti-fatphobia/toxicity! way friendlier here add edsky feeds!!! & then add "mutuals" feed to ur home too & "popular with friends"- links below. sub to the anti-edsky block list sub to the fatphobic block list

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

the thought of getting out of the triple digits in pounds is so exciting to me but i know that it’s not enough, all of that fat on my body won’t magically disappear when i hit 99lbs

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

my next fast is only going to be from today until thursday afternoon which could be less than 100 hours, it all depends on how much food weight i gain tonight

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

i know i said i was trying to make the move from edtwt to edsky but i’m going to try and follow back all my edsky mutuals on edtwt rn

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

i need to go to the gym asap because there’s no way i look this bad at the bmi i’m at my high bf%, upper arm fat, thigh fat, and back fat is sickening i need to be lean and toned

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

never kill yourselves this soup is about to be so worth it

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

new lw today just in time for me to eat but i’m in an awkward transition from edtwt so idk if i should repost my entire november tracker here or what

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

i’m looking forward to posting on edsky because we’re all just disordered people writing in our diaries and it’s not full of interaction bait or accounts with 10k followers who think they’re ana herself

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noia 🍤 edsky @newlyedidols.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

i’m breaking my 7 day fast in 7.5 hours and i’m trying to be so brave about it

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