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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

went over 900k total wincest words written since February 2024. I need to think of something to do to celebrate a million because I'm definitely heading there. ideas are welcome.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

weirdly, I have enough brainpower left to write but absolutely no capacity for reading, be it fic, fiction, or non-fiction. my work is creative but thankfully not overly demanding, so I can do it in a state of fog. otherwise, I'm not functioning at all. things are really bad.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

four pm, we already have 31 injured and 5 dead since morning in my city. my head is just fog.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

explained the case I'm currently outlining to my husband and his response was “ааааааааа” so I guess it follows the spirit of the show..?

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

the ficlet situation is as follows: I'm now writing while the kettle boils, while the eggs fry, while the veggies roast, while I sit in the corridor during attacks, while I can't decide which book to read... well, you get the picture. this is unstoppable.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

realized that I'm writing three 5+1 projects at the same time. one is horror (that ends with fluff), one is heavy angst (that ends with fluff), and one is also horror (that ends with, uh, horror). I fucking love this trope.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

hit 300k words written this year (with about two months lost to the void). on the one hand, I'm writing, which means I'm fine. on the other hand, am I? am I really?

A screenshot of a spreadsheet:

Total -- 301289

Wincest -- 237975
Kylux -- 63314

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

accidentally wrote ~700 words in a ficlet while hiding from explosions. that's in addition to 2k words of regular writing. the ficlet situation is getting out of control.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

❤️The Twisted Oak💙 ~15k, season 4 #wincest, post-Sex and Violence, pining Sam, case fic, explicit, getting together Chapter 1/3. Day 1: Not Now archiveofourown.org/works/929002...

The Twisted Oak

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Summary:
Couples mysteriously disappearing from a mysterious hotel built around a mysterious tree? Sounds like a case! And maybe a nudge to think about what love means and where to find it. Especially after a sad, pathetic loser showed two sad, pathetic brothers how sad and pathetic they make each other when they aren’t really together.

Chapter 1: Day 1: Not Now

Summary:
Mere days after their siren disaster, Sam finds a new case. He doesn’t find a new way to talk to his brother.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

finished outlining, and it has six chapters now. see you at Christmas. I'll bring my own pumpkin.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

furiously outlining a horror kylux fic for #huxloween at four am because this is the way. I’m back on my bullshit and we are going for a ride.

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Huxloween 2026 @huxloween.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

🎃🖤 Huxloween 11 calendar 🖤🎃 #kylux #huxloween

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I've been feeling like total shit since Monday, unable to get out of bed, spiraling about writing, the whole shebang. starting a new medication regimen tomorrow, hope it'll help because I'm losing so much time to this, I'm barely doing my minimum writing for the day.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I'm currently in the final stretch of two wincest event fics, both should be done next week, and I cannot WAIT to start the old-porn-concept-that-accidentally-grew-a-case-and-now-it's-a-whole-meditation-on-faith-and-what-it-means-for-the-boys one.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I have acquired another wincest plotting principle: whenever in doubt, exploit Dean torturing souls in Hell for magic purposes.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

looking at my growing ficlet spreadsheet and I feel like my brain found a loophole in my anti-burnout rule “no more than 3 hours of writing per day.” ficlets aren’t proper writing! they are just vibes! they don’t count! well played, brain.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

❤️Daydreaming💙 ~2k, season 1 #wincest, pining Dean, explicit, getting together, ficlet, happy Pilot anniversary tumblr (non-explicit): www.tumblr.com/need-more-me... AO3 (full version): archiveofourown.org/works/92550451

Daydreaming
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Summary:
Dean doesn’t know if he’s welcome in his brother’s new world, even when Sam seemingly gives him what he wants.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

sometimes being a fic writer means waking up to a note to self: ADD HAND JOBS TO DAYDREAMING.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

me: Korean with no connection to my culture my Slavic stepkid: studying Korean because she's into K-pop me: Jewish with no connection to my culture my Slavic husband: studying Torah because he wants to convert to Judaism I feel like I'm living inside a joke lmao.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

I have thirty wincest first sentences at the moment. it was thirty-one but I've turned one into a ficlet already. you know that fairy tale about a magic pot that almost drowned a town in porridge because no one knew how to stop it? yeah.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

surprised to see people associating publishing with money. I never wanted to make a living off writing but I do want to connect with people. writing is inherently social for me. my childhood dream was to write something that would let someone in the world feel less alone.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

❤️Harvest Moon💙 ~1.5k, season 4 #wincest, explicit, getting together, ficlet tumblr (non-explicit): www.tumblr.com/need-more-me... AO3 (full version): archiveofourown.org/works/92417311

Harvest Moon

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Summary:
Sam knows what he wants to be doing when he’s sixty. Dean just needs to get his head out of his ass.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Dean points at a bakery with giant gingerbread men stuck in the window. "Big cookies," he says and darts toward the place with the single-minded food-induced focus that feels like things are back to normal. (narrator: things were *not* back to normal)

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

will I ever get tired of wincest post-Scarecrow frantic first time? or wincest post-Scarecrow bittersweet first time in a long time? or wincest post-Scarecrow desperate established relationship? no, I will not.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

if I had a nickel every time my spellchecker flags a line of dialogue as "Sarcasm can be rude. Consider alternatives," I'd be a fucking millionaire by now.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I write tumblr ficlets in a completely different mode than my regular fics (pantsing instead of planning, no dedicated time blocks, no timed sprints, no structure at all) and it's pretty fun. just hope the results aren't much worse in terms of quality.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

me today (joke's on me: I both finished the ficlet and worked on all three WIPs)

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I have now started jotting down first sentences for possible wincest tumblr ficlets because, y’know. one can’t have too many projects. right..?

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Sam and Dean in Heaven but it's them growing old with each other and dying peacefully together for the last time, their shared, most cherished dream complete.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Ash: Soulmates. Dean, aggressively kicking Sam under the counter: Keep your face straight goddammit or he’ll know. Sam, kicking back: *You* keep your face straight, Mr. Lost Fifty Years to a Witch in Poker. Ash: Yeah, you guys ain’t subtle at all.

Ash after dropping the bomb about soulmates, looking at the boys.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

I'm trying to write a heartfelt post about how much I love wincest but it's past midnight and I'm very tired, so let's just agree that wincest is a supreme example of soulmatism and was definitely voted "most likely to make codependency look cool" in ship high school.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Dean totally called Sam while Sam was at Stanford to give him an excruciatingly detailed recounting of his latest sexcapade and Sam jerked off to it while convincing himself that it didn't count as phone sex with his brother.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

snippet time: summer 2001, pre-relationship, Dean using Sam's lap as a pillow, Sam using Dean's face as a bookstand, like normal brothers tend to do

“Okay, so.” Sam clears his throat and turns a few pages. “Satyrs like playing games with people—sex kinda games, mostly. But they’re pretty cowardly, like they’ll run for the hills if you look at them sternly.” He closes the book, balancing it on Dean’s nose. “Did you threaten him?”

“Plenty.”

“With your gun?”

“Have you met me?”

Sam taps Dean’s nose with the book. “Well, then I think it’s cool. He’s probably swearing off sex right now.”

Dean shifts, rubbing his head over Sam’s thighs, and grins. “Yeah, I’m a scary guy.”

Sam lifts the book and squints at him. “Yeah, like a baby squirrel.”

“What? I’m scary.” He makes a clawing gesture. “Arrrr.”

Sam’s eyes are stone-cold. “I’m pissing my pants.”

Little shit will forever be little shit, and it’s the one thing in the whole world that Dean can always count on.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

spent a few hours trying to put together a case chapter but seven days of practically non-stop drone attacks destroyed my brain. normally, I can brainstorm my way through any brain fog. doesn't look like it's happening this time.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

I’ve always considered myself a tiny obscure guy who writes silly fluff, cannot plot to save his life, and produces asexual porn that has little erotic value. looking at readers' comments and starting to feel like this self-image is, uh, a little outdated..? confused emoji.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

made a post on tumblr about my current writing situation to organize my brain but my brain hurts even more now. this is going to take years. I'm never getting out of this, am I.

Actively writing:

A Wincest fic for an event posting in October
A Wincest fic for an event posting in February
A Kylux fic for an event posting in December
Plus a Kylux Fantasy AU that's currently on pause until I'm done with the event fic
Plus an Omega/Omega Kylux AU that's currently on pause until I'm done with the Fantasy AU

Tinkering with:

Three Wincest ficlets for tumblr

Finished and in editing:

A Wincest fic for an event posting in January
A Wincest fic for an event posting in November
A post-Sex & Violence Wincest case fic scheduled for posting in September
A Kylux fic where Mitaka writes a Caf Shop AU about his co-commanders

Actively outlining:

An alternate season 7 with 23 episode-style chapters
A season 4 rewrite with a premise inspired by @hyperfixationkween
A two-part season 1.5-2 rewrite inspired by a song shown to me by @luzifersbride
A multi-chapter post-finale fic where I decided to save Kevin's soul and make it about Wincest (already made myself cry with the DJ subplot, this is fine)

Have fully outlined and raging to be written:

A season 6 Wincest fic where Sam was supposed to quote Bible to Dean during sex after getting his soul back and which accidentally turned into a case fic (the blasphemy is still there)
A post-season 5 Wincest AU where Dean doesn't go to Lisa but studies witchcraft to get Sam back instead
A season 11 Wincest AU where Dean blows up Amara and his soul gets blown to pieces, too, so he starts manifesting to Sam as floating body parts (there will be sex scenes)

A season 15 Wincest fic where Sam tries to cast a spell to get back the people Chuck erased but ends up in a magical coma instead
A season 8 Wincest AU where Sam dies and gets resurrected to kill a new villain on the condition that he dies back afterward; Dean is obviously not amused
A season 15 Wincest AU where Dean falls sick after getting the Leviathan Blossom and it completely derails everything
A season 10 Wincest AU where Dean keeps the Mark and they find a new way to keep it in check (you know what it is)
A Heaven Wincest fic where Sam's wife arrives in Heaven and Dean sends Sam to go live with her
A Kylux AU where Kylo is a sentient tea kettle
A Kylux fic where Hux has been relying on whispers in his head to help him through life until he meets a man who confuses the fuck out of them

Percolating in the background:

111 more Wincest fics ranging from multi-chapter longfics to porn-with-feels one-shots at various stages of outlining

This is how I feel about it:
[Screenshot from S03E16 - No Rest For the Wicked: Dean in Hell, yelling, "Somebody help me."]

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

husband and I both independently bought shirts with tigers. his first comment was "oi, fuck off, you cunts" and I agree wholeheartedly.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

we had a record number (13) of air raid alerts per day in my city yesterday (the previous record (12) was in the first week of the invasion). it's 10 pm and we are on our 12th alert for today. we were planning to spend yesterday in a park but I guess no parks for now.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

I'm now at four pages of notes and only one paragraph there is actually about Kevin. the rest is DJ drama, brotherdrama, drama with other characters, and Dean calling himself a duncle (dead uncle).

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

watched backrooms last week (youtube first, then the movie), just finished severance season 1 now, and I'm disappointed that there isn't a single crossover on AO3.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

yesterday my brain asked me "what if we saved Kevin's soul but made it about wincest" and who am I to tell my brain jesus christ will you shut up already I don't need another project oh we already have three pages of notes I see I see

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

with husband home, I can't work on actual writing BUT I can outline, and I've been switching between rabidly outlining several different wincest fics like I'm high on amphetamines. so much drama is coming guys. so much drama.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I have two kinds of favorite movies: Only Lovers Left Alive and Paterson or Renfield and The Hebrew Hammer. there's no in-between.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

this clock that now lives on my wall has 366 light modes, so you never know what exactly you are going to see when you look at it. which, I think, follows the show's spirit to a T.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

my friend: you are GREAT at comedy me: I haven't read a humor book in probably a decade, how is that possible meanwhile, my favorite TV shows: Please Like Me, Community, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Shrinking

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I have no idea if I'm good at case fic but it doesn't stop my brain from spitting out custom lore that makes me question all my life choices. specifically, the choice to watch SPN.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

two out of three cards in my daily tarot reading yelled at me to fucking rest, so I guess today I'm sitting back and watching the progress bar of my files being copied to an external drive while I migrate to my new laptop. it's been two hours. I'm very relaxed.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

❤️Dry Places💙 ~24k, season 10 #wincest, canon divergence, demon Dean & demon Sam, dark Winchesters, body swap, explicit, getting together Chapter 1/3. The Dark Side archiveofourown.org/works/911264...

Dry Places

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Summary:
Demon Dean successfully turns his kicking and screaming brother into a demon. Things immediately brighten up between them until their former allies go after them with less-than-friendly intentions. So, they smoke out of their bodies.

The problem? They can’t get back in.

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

me two years ago: this is a cool Bible verse that I want Sam to quote to Dean during sex me a week ago: okay, it’s short simple porn with feels, moving it up in the queue to take a little rest, let’s just tidy up the outline me now: WHY IS THERE A WHOLE-ASS CASE IN MY PORN NOW

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

I don't like whump. I find injury disturbing, and not in a good way. I hate hurting my characters. (I do love hurting my readers, though.) what the hell am I doing in the Supernatural fandom.

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