iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

what if i start writing about AI being used for digital minstrelsy? i can't stop thinking about it and wrote my first draft of a paper on it almost a full year ago. it feels like a majorly under discussed evil about AI because there's just so many evil things

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

it's maddening to think about the fact we've been actively writing this paper about furries, stigma, and media reception and have all the new threats coming from the us government while working on the project

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Need someone the right type of queer and autistic to help me swap to linux

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

so ready for the new shape in our head to be less of a mystery

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

been really enjoying the new gupi track

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

writing a 'serious academic paper' and we keep having to refer to the musician fur:trash by name there's something nice about working with material that otherwise wouldn't be treated as serious. i like to imagine those who'd look down on this take psychic damage every time they see the artists name

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I've gotta be more comfortable being a freak openly. Being raised Catholic and being abused makes it so difficult to feel comfortable expressing much of anything

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Thinking about Ole Ivar Lovass again and can't stop from getting so mad, gotta be one of the least known bastards

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

I'm so ready to be done with the stigma section of this paper I'm writing. It's always so mentally draining to have to sit with this stuff for long periods of time

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

I will be amazed if tomorrow is a productive day writing about furry music

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

I miss the smell of damp mint in a field

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It's Hex! 🍎💙 @babyfur.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

AUGUST 2026 LIFE PLAN: •FUCK AROUND •FIND OUT •ACT LIKE A THEY/THEM •SMOKE LIKE A HE/HIM •LOOK LIKE A SHE/HER •PARTY LIKE A XE/XIM

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

i want to info dump about niche music and the analysis we've been working on so badly

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

I think a lot of people whose only knowledge for understanding autism is medical science should start shutting the fuck up about autism. It's far too easy to remain ignorant relying only on this information. This (especially) includes folks who work in psych adj. fields

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

been on a break from smoking but tonight i think i'll be smoking on that graham x mcconnel pack

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Someone in our head won't stop singing Ida Deerz I LIKE BUNNIES

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

This! It's so heavily this and the more we've studied within neurodiversity and trans studies the more clear it becomes. Medical pathologization literally built itself around conflating all these things as one another. To be autistic was to be queer in early (and tbh contemporary) psychology

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

Started reading "Fan Identities in the Furry Fandom" for a project on furry music. Very happy to be surprised by the way the book thinks about it as an identity. Was very worried it'd just be another thing pathologizing us.

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

I'm so bummed I had to skip the underscores concert I was going to last night. I was so excited to see her perform live again

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Put together a playlist of all the furry music I have saved so I can figure out what to use for an independent study. Hitting 5 hours feels kinda crazy

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Can of Bliss 🔜 AC @canofbliss.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

new single 'then/now' is now available on soundcloud n bandcamp all money from this track for the month of june will be donated to the transgender law center

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

I'm so glad dubstep sounds are really resurging in hyperpop

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

dj re:code "45" has been playing non-stop in my head since last night

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

In a weird spot where I'm struggling to believe the abuse I grew up with was as bad as it seems like it was. Like I can't even remember most of it, and so it feels like it shouldn't have fucked me up as much as it has. And like, I guess that's how the brain handles trauma, but it's fucked

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

Glad I got to see mailpup at my first show since moving. Funnily enough they were my last show before moving out of the us

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

it's crazy how there's basically a timer in my head counting down to having to process some wild shit about my mental health

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

surely the recurring dream of wounded and dying animals is a good sign for my mental health

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

So tired of realizing I have a problem with existing in spaces and doing nothing about it. How do I untrain the assumption that I shouldn't be perceived by anyone ever

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 14/03/2026

hate applying for grants so much. please give me, the poor neurodiverse transexual some money. i promise i will totally use it to return some sort of material gain for you out of my *diversity*. it'll be so beneficial for you - you'll love profiting off of my queerness if you help me live

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 05/03/2026

think things in my head may be more complicated than I've ever realized

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Willow (sometimes Espen) @nbcatgirl.bsky.social · 09/02/2026

rock lobstah playing in my head nonstop

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