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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

I think I’ve come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who I am.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

It’s been raining all day. I hope you’ve all been able to stay warm and dry.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 29/09/2025

And into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

Perhaps tragedy is all they are meant for. After all, branded as destiny or fate, it’s undeniably tragedy that brought them together in the first place. It’s possible that they were not meant to exist outside those moments of desperation & pain that forged this bond between them.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 26/09/2025

I used to think I was smart, but you made me look so naïve…

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 24/09/2025

But when someone’s gone and you’re the primary keeper of his memory – letting go would be a kind of murder, wouldn’t it? I had so much love for him, even if it was a complicated love, and where is all that love supposed to go?

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

I hope I can forgive me for having the nerve to exist.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam, and no emotion that's worth having could call my heart its home.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 24/06/2025

[Coincidentally happens to be visiting at this time. Crazy!] Very sensible, Dà-gē. What are you going to do with so much unexpected free time?

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

[Could really go for some competitive gay sex right now…]

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 09/06/2025

All the things I knew I didn't know and didn't want to know, that you told me just to tell me later that you'd told me so, come flooding back to me now.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 08/06/2025

/ “lxc is quite a manipulative person” what

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 08/06/2025

You make me so sad, my friend. I love you with an aching. But I’ve been holding sorrow in the hollow of my throat for too long. Maybe, however unlikely it may seem in this moment, I’ll learn to let go. One day, I will love you simply.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 08/06/2025

/ lxc/xy is one of my craziest mdzs rarepairs

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

What a cute little plush! I’d make a forehead ribbon for mine. [If anyone loved me enough to give me one… 😔]

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

Telling me not to worry only makes me worry more.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

It’s lovely to see everyone getting along so well. (*ˉ︶ˉ*)

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

I never say a word in case I come off needy.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

This is my father. He is young. Here is my mother. She is not crying. She cannot look into the lens because the sun is bright. (The woman my father knows is not here. She does not come till later.) This is me she is carrying. I am a baby. She does not know I will turn out bad.

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

/ the thing to know about my lxc post-canon is that he might not be suicidal, but he’s suicidal, y’know

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

/ damn i wish lxc did half the shit his haters accuse him of doing

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蓝曦臣 / LAN XICHEN. @mourningsbreeze.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

Everyone certainly seems as though they’re feeling lively tonight.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 27/03/2025

Observe others without worrying about what to say. Don’t chide yourself for doing it wrong. Just exist, in your awkwardness, without apologizing or explaining yourself, even to yourself.

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