iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

just dumping art here im prolly gonna delete this acc and stat a new one but we will see oc + work

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anyway whatever go my maxlynn

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ive been so kind and supportive and im always made the fool for thinking that it matters in the slightest

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i just wish my friends could forget about me so that i dont have to depress over the guilt i feel whenever im late to reply to them because im overly sensitive with communication and conversation thanks to some pricks people think so highly of me they forget im human

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even i havent been talking that much anymore im just idk bro everythings so fucked up and the things i enjoy doing somehow always backfire god forbid i live

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Mikana @mikanakyu.bsky.social · 15/06/2025

trying out a program... gonna animate him roughly

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why am i doodling better w my mouse than tablet #crk #shadowmilkcookie

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Mikana @mikanakyu.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

friend said blasaph is the type of character where you cant get the hair wrong unless you want him looking different and i grt it now

Mikana @mikanakyu.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

bro left my head its been a month im cooked

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oh kini told me abt it havent checked it out ive a lot of things to check but my brain is so crk rn

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the way it filled up such a huge part of my life lmao actually an inspiration for my story too just the weirdness of it

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"were was qritten" yeah its 7 am here and ive just finished editing the second chapter can you tell im very much awake

fandoms i used to be in: 1. scp (even ran an ask blog that was quite successful but left bcs of drama) 2. undertale (left bcs of drama) 3. fnaf (idek what happened) 4. dont starve together now its cookie run kingdom yeah theres a pattern

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Mikana @mikanakyu.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

thank youu i can come back with a link later? im editing the older chapters first cuz they were was written by a nightdrunk person at 3-5 am without a beta reader need to edit one more chapter

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ngl ive reached the point where people associate me with shadow milk

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Mikana @mikanakyu.bsky.social · 20/05/2025

havent gotten the second half of the story i do enjoy the "stay in my paradise with no pain and suffering" cuz thats literally the trope lynn follows so thats alr a huge plus but until then, ive no strong opinion on her tho shes my second most fav for beast cookies

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look i used to be a fandom artist but i had NEVER felt this crazy before about their characters now im crazy enough to write fanfic for a fandom im so cooked im never gonna make it with my ocs am i

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hahaha my brain is so cooked ive been looping this for the past few hours dont mind me

im salty i didnt go back to crk during his banner i did not even know he existed until i played the story hahahahahahahahahahahha (him and pvc r taking over my life)

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did this guy cook my brain? yeah. have i posted 4-chapter fanfic revolving around him with more chapters coming? yeah sorry my oc brain is quite dead atm. but bcs of him one oc of mine gets revived cuz they r similar so its funny #shadowmilkcookie #cookierunkingdom

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i havent slept in days. i CANT sleep. i constantly feel like im gonna pass out. and then i wonder why ive no energy funny

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i dont feel anything about my art anymore. it feels soulless have i messed up

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my entire life is a chore. always has been ever since i was a kid. i just want to create why does everyone make it so hard

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now i need to meet so many expectations that my work doesnt feel "me" anymore i keep falling into the same hole where id spite my own story and characters, wishing i were never creative enough to create them it feels like a chore rather than passion, yet im only here for them

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i miss the times when i didnt care about anything other than how cool my art looked. how cute it looked. how i didnt care what other think. how i didnt care about the price. the money thatd come with it. because i just wanted to draw and build my ocs and thats it

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i will forever wonder if my art truly means something in this world in this damned country its never enough. i cant survive

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ngl this makes me want to do an oc eye chart my ocs' eyes are mostly different... i love drawing downturned eyes i love drawing lynn and esc's eyes cuz of that

cant believe most of the dramas were ships related and i also have traumas regarding.. yeah characters and goodness ik crk also has problems and most of it comes from ppl shitting on ships bruh what happened it wasnt like this the newer players are... idk smth

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ive been working on all of this in one canvas at once yeah i totally can do my stuff one by one without getting distracted

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dude im so scared of interacting with fandoms ive been in multiple and it all went to shit somehow thats why im an oc artist but i need to yap about a certain blue jester bcs i love analyzing him

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