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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 21/06/2026

I slept 11.5h last night, woke up feeling amazing, had breakfast a shower and my meds, walked around a bit, then lay down and proceeded to sleep another 4h. I think I’m going into hibernation

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 21/06/2026

I typically wouldn’t do this but he’s so charismatic girl… I think I just might show him…

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 04/06/2026

I’m about to give you a detailed mapping and analysis of the structure of your oesophagus courtesy of my tongue and saliva cmere.

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 29/05/2026

Catholic Church redemption arc was ABSOLUTELY NOT on my bingo for this year… no this timeline holy(literally) peak. I will maintain a healthy dash of scepticism but I mean it’s hard to not have a drop of hope when he dropped a 42k word encyclical on the matter…

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 17/05/2026

You’re both absolutely fine, I posted because I wanted to hear thoughts and feedback🧡 Also I swear I DM both of you with my regular updates alllll the time so your thoughts are always 🤗

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

OMFG Chiitan liked one of my posts, is this what winning feels like?!?

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

The writing was on the waaaalllll all along 🤣😂

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

This has been my random unprompted Sunday morning confessional post

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

3rd fun fact; every time ever that I thought of myself as a body with organs in it(heart, liver, lungs, brain and all) I get filled with this crawling dread and disgust. I wish to replace all my parts with synthetics. (this probably doesn’t have anything to do with the whole trans questioning thing)

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

Secondary fun fact about me growing up, prior to highschool and going to an all-boys school most of my friends were girls. I had male friends yes but like 2-3 then the vast majority were girls otherwise…

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

Fun fact the only pictures of myself that I actually liked from basically my entire childhood were the ones I felt I looked ‘cute’ or kinda girly in. Any other photo of myself kinda just made me feel a lil disgusted or disappointed… 🤔

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

honestly 90% of the time I am unaware of the fact that o have a physical self beyond needing to eat and the constant background discordant horror violin tune that is the sense of being alive…

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

So that’s why I feel like it’s not that I lean one way or the other consistently but it is definitely more… fluid or subject to context at any given moment… Not that I am vividly aware of it most of the time

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

Which is interesting but also then at the same time from the self perception perspective I like looking at myself- I appreciate what I have done to work on my body be it looking masc and muscular with/without clothes and the fact that sometimes it can be androgynous in other settings clothing etc

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

🥹thank you Lime I really appreciate you, i think the thing that stands out to me when I think about it is, I’ve never felt overtly- dysphoric about the way I am perceived physically for my body voice self any of that. I have however at times felt keenly euphoric addressed outside of the masculine…

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

I think the biggest thing is, I just don’t want to be associated with- the male gender on a social and physical level, which is definitely a form of dysphoria in its own right. There’s a lot of complexity to it all innit… 😅

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 10/05/2026

So. Here’s the thing. Every time I read or listen to like a transwoman’s experience hrt incl I’m like “haha I do that” but at the same time just not THAT intensely. I don’t know if I want to be a… girl(?) I just know when things don’t fit me… I just wanna be cute dawg… 🤔

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 08/05/2026

Yess!! Literally basically got enough to cover most of the basics we’re so close

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 08/05/2026

I got a refund on my apartment deposit!!! We are a biiig step closer to the pc!

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⁺‧₊˚ ཐི 𝕳𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖓𝖊 ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺ @magicalfaeryn.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

me trying to interact with anyone like:

a meme image of a cryptid in the woods saying "i saw you from across the forest, i love your vibe"

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 08/05/2026

Not to mention the documented observable and immediate negative health effects that the massive datacenters needed to run these models have on people. Including but not limited to; vertigo, headaches, dizziness, nausea, anxiety and fatigue. People are literally tortured with infrasonic waves.

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Fujoshi Mountain Sect Leader @gin-and-chthonic.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 07/05/2026

Hi yes hi please yes hi yes please hi yes please PLEEEEAAAASEEEE

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 07/05/2026

Yeah! You get me! The gods are conspiring to torment it can’t be something as simple as nOt EnOuGh WaTeR

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 06/05/2026

No one will disturb thy slumber upon my life I swear it.

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 06/05/2026

I just told my mom I have a headache, she asked if I’d drank any water. Why did I get irrationally upset first and then realise that no I indeed haven’t had any water today… I’m not drinking no damn water

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 16/04/2026

Please know this is fully voluntary and NOT an emergency I’m asking for only what you can spare and even then prioritise actual causes, this is about as luxury and as personal a request as it gets, the goal is up on kofi! ko-fi.com/melancholyba...

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 16/04/2026

Hi, so if you’ve been on my discord you’ll know my PC recently sighed its last breath and I’m now hoping to raise funds for a new PC, I’ve started the goal on kofi with some of my own contribution. I’m hoping you could help a recently unemployed angel out-

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podzol @alfile.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

Love low poly pigeon

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 14/04/2026

Heheee thank youuuuuu! I’m gonna put the parts in today and see how it goes 🙂‍↕️

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 14/04/2026

Me: nooo I’m twenty blah blah Her: that’s crazy! You look so good for your age! Me: *blushes uncontrollably* Baby-face card Strikes AGAIN (It’s doubly hilarious because this was what I had bought and was carrying on my way out while I was walking)

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 14/04/2026

Was picking up a delivery at the mall today and there were these greenpeace people taking collecting donations, so on a whim I signed up to donate. I talked with the lady and when she was taking my details she was like “so how old are you?” Me: twenty blah blah Her: No way! I thought you were 18!

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Melancholy ☕️🧡| Pre-Debut ENVTuber @melancholy.vtubers.social · 04/04/2026

I’m sorry Cherri this is the life you chose I’m just tellin you like it is

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