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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

#spamtennatober2026 Day 7: #sneotenna (technically? does it count?) forgot to tag this in time, sorry

mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

There are 213 works with Slow Burn tag for Spamtenna on ao3 There are 50 of them with Completed status The Slow Burn tag is not about the pace in relationship development It is about an author’s Slow Burn-out

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

#deltarune I was curious if there is anyone taller than Tenna (in his Ch3 default height). Not that I had doubts, but just to be sure The answer is NO* *Titan doesn't count, and Jackenstein wears a costume(?)

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Like what's the point? "now we have a series" who the fuck are 'we', you're alone here

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I’ve lived on social media by the “fake it till you make it” rule for a decade now, and oh god, I’m so tired of pretending my entire existence matters to anyone

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

#deltarune not-yet #spamtenna fic One good turn deserves another, third chapter of the slowest burn imaginable Also now we have a series named ✩TV performance of Office Romance✩ archiveofourown.org/works/935783...

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

We're alone inside our heads, it can't be any other (healthy) way. So it's only natural to feel loneliness smt. It's okay if even the most caring people around you don't feel like a fix for it. Nothing wrong with either you or them. We can only be near each other, share warmth the best way we know

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Important thing to remember that everything in our universe is temporary. Including our struggles. It's all blow over. If you have no caring people around you right now, it might (and will) change tomorrow. Your heart might not feel it that way, but your mind has to remember and remind you.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Majority of people are usually blind as f when it comes to other's emotional needs. You're skilled in this field, it's a part of being creative person, especially artist. But there is a reason why creative people are such a rarity.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

It's good to be selfish to some degree. There is healthy "I'm valuable human being like everyone else" between "I don't care about anyone" and "I'm not worthy of other's care"

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

You are not in control of what you are feeling, only actions. Feelings just happen. So no, you're not a crybaby. It's totally valid to feel everything, sadness and loneliness included. Please, don't deprive yourself of important part of emotional spectrum.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

You're about my younger sister's age, so, if I may, I want to share what I tell her occasionally. Please ignore if it makes you uncomfortable, I'm just a random person. But I hope things become better for you. So.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Being diagnosed with BD means having doubts about every single thing I like or think or do. I’m unreliable. I can’t promise anything, I can’t cooperate, I can’t convince myself I’ll be on the same page tomorrow as I’m today.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Stuck in a spiral of doom thoughts. Want to do something, but have no skill to do anything. Try to do what I could, but get miserable results, because surprise I can’t do shit.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Too tired and depressed to celebrate Undertale anniversary sorry

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Can't write for a week now Should think "i'm doing it for myself", "only i can write like me", "no one judges me and my ooc", "i have no deadlines" I think instead "no one reads", "i'm worthless", "i do ooc too much", "if i can't write right now i won't be able to write ever"

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I'm done. It's impossible to convince me that giving Tenna to MTT is a good ending for him. MORE THAN ONE viewer is his fuckin DREAM and MTT aka Nobody is the loneliest viewer of all why Toby just why do you do this to me The quote (from twitter):

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Also also I'm incapable to write Spamton canon-style with all his speech quirks. The same goes with Tenna's showmanship. I'm the saddest clown in town and can't keep up with his level of hype, energy, and enthusiasm over everything

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Also I kinda hate myself for writing in this style. It's very funny and satisfying at the moment, characters thrive with energy and chemistry. But it makes me feel miserable and unworthy

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

I wrote 4 dialogue-only fics this month. And I'm absolutely devasted because there are 3 options for publishing: - not, and they just gone in my ggl docs - as is, and no one understands because I have whole scene in my head, and reader don't - after polishing, but it completely ruins scene dynamic

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

God I just can’t let Tenna go I’m sorry

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

But I think it was “I want to be someone important to you”, and no that’s not the same as “to be watched”. At the end of the day, Mettaton also will stop watching TV eventually. Because Internet exists. Because new interests could take place of old hobbies. Because things do not last long.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

And even Susie doesn’t come up with “you don’t need to be a TV in lightners house anymore” in Tenna’s case. She just listens to his speech and takes it for “I want to be watched again”. Sure we find you new viewers, she said.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

Ch5 cemented the idea of giving up darkners dreams for lightners sake, that’s the only way this universe works Susie was my only hope: there was no way she pushed Ralsei to be something more than “eventually obsolete” thing for nothing But now she distracted by romance

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I (almost at all) don’t care about Dess and Roaring and Prophecy. You know, the main plot of the damn story?! The only thing I care about is wellbeing of imaginary friends, and I just know I don’t get happy ending with this one

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

Pre ch3 Ch1 is about two worlds, light and dark, and evil king who want to shift power balance Ch2 is about self-sufficient cyber world and not-so-evil queen who wants to do good by expanding her domain After ch3 Ch1 is about King’s resentment for abandoning Ch2 is about Queen’s serving dear Noelle

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

And about the crew How do Elnina and Lanino stay in Castle Town I don’t understand. They are not toys and dices (which was not given to MTT obviously). How is it possible to split weather channel from TV and bring them to Castle Town separately?

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

And Tenna is adopted and watched again for the low low price: leave behind Dreemurs, leave behind your whole crew (who were your friends at least at some point), leave behind Spamton (who you do care about, see pipis scene), leave behind your dreams Just threw away your whole life to be useful again

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

The same goes for Tenna’s ending up being given to MTT. Every post ch3 interaction screams at you “he wants to be adopted”. Toby clearly implies this is the best ending for things: to be used, to do what they created for.

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

“I’m with you in the dark” used to be upbeat saying “you are not alone” Now it breaks my heart every time it’s added as a leitmotif It’s implying the ending where darkners are free to be themselves is impossible bc they have to be with you as your comforting fantasy companions

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

What I want: to get proper rest to be able to write a fic What I do: stay awake till dawn, sleep 5 hours, feel tired and pathetic whole day

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

Got tons of likes (thanks to everyone you’re the best!) Got third comment on my fic Got back my collab partner who was absent for two weeks Too good to be unpunished tomorrow

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

#deltarune #spamtenna I love spamtenna in ANY form (part 4) The only ending I'll accept: Darkners are not things anymore, and they could live alongside Lightners, and do what they want instead of whatever their 'purpose' is

The picture based on Undertale's true ending scene, where Papyrus rides in red car, but with Spamton and Tenna instead. There are tin cans tied to the car, implying Spamton and Tenna are just married. Text "feeling the sweet breeze"

The picture based on Undertale's true ending scene, where Undyne and Alphys are on the beach. There are Spamton, Tenna and several other characters, including lightners and darkners. Text "Going to the beach"

The picture based on Undertale's true ending scene, where Mettaton sings on the stage. There are Pink and Ralsei instead, Kris playing piano, Susie playing drums. Spamton and Tenna and several other characters including lightners and darkners are sitting in the auditorium. Text "Watching a new show"

The picture based on Undertale's true ending scene where Toriel brings pie to the Frisk's bedroom. But it's Spamton and Tenna singing rock-a-bye baby song to their pipis. Text "Singing a lullaby"

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mathyw.bsky.social @mathyw.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

Working on a pic with tons of effort Trying to write another fic Tired as f. And scared that my hyper fixation will left me before I could finish anything Please don’t go away Please don’t go away Please don’t go away

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