Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 30/03/2026It's not like its a necessity. I don't HAVE to think about it every single day.. 000
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 30/03/2026I could just stop. Nothing is stopping me but myself. 000
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 27/03/2026I wish little me knew it was okay to not be mean to everyone, cut your beautiful hair, wear tomboy clothes because you were afraid others would judge you for trying to be pretty We never became pretty,I'm sorry, but we do have some nice clothes now 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 27/03/2026I hope he will let me be a girl I never got to be Growing up fat meant I couldn't wear make up because what if others would see that I'm trying to be pretty even though I never will be? I can't wear dresses, I'm too fat. Can't be pretty, or I'll be a poser, everyone will know I was a sad mean kid 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I hope he will know that I like shopping, dogs, cats, trinkets, flowers, silly clothes, plushies, earrings, jewelry, clothes that actually fit me, blind boxes, selfies, hugs, kisses, public affection, cafés, ordering overpriced coffee, taking Polaroid pictures 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I hope I find someone who loves me just as much as I love everyone I hope he will buy me flowers or food or give gifts he knows I'll like on holidays I hope he will know that maybe birthdays don't mean much to me but I always do wish to be.. Idk, remembered? Just a small gift to know u luv me still 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I'm tired of being liked I wanna be loved by someone 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026And I just... Don't. Do anything I end up self sabotaging even before I try actually "Finish this meal or I'll hit you" and I just hit myself instead and not finish the meal It's so easy to finish it and yet it's so 3dhauting I'd rather be hurt Why Why am I like this She 2oukd hate me 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I just want for this to be over What pill do I have to take for emotional maturity what do I have to do for discipline Why is hurting myself not even fucking working, I would rather have lung disease than fucking do my work "If u don't do this rn you'll self sabotage as Punishment" and I just 130
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I remember drawing so much, I drew many things on paper with water color and my family ran out of wall space to hang it I remember playing the flute loud in my room and my family wouldn't say anything because they were proud I'm practicing 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026It was always very hard for me to pick up hobbies or ever attempt to do anything, and when I did it usually ended up with me being had at them and never trying it again 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I'm not letting me on the inside make everything even worse with her dreams and desires Your only dream should be to just Makebyour parents proud, make a lot of money and get a family Why do you think of things that don't ktach what you are why do you still try to be anything other than what u are 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026It always ended with I'll never be good enough for this anyways Now I have no talents no hobbies no irl friends no groups no nothing maybe I am a creative person deep down But she will never see the light of day as long as i am breathing. 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I will never accomplish my childhood dreams because I give up on everything I try I wanted to he talanted I wanted to draw, to sing, to make music, to do sports nd I gave up on everything, I never gave myself a chance t 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I need a boyfriend that's like 5 years older that would just fix my every problem with money and lovenme 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I feel so much shame it's consuming me i want to die i want genuinely just f9r everything like this to end I can to do this wnwymoe 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026Dat fucking vhud crying at 2am who 3ven fuckinh does that 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I need someone to do everything for me I cannot do this I n3ed a mom but my mom doesn't want to be mom 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I need like an energy drink or a huge bottle of coff3 or 3hwt3v3r just fucking help meeeeeeeee I ended to focus whe study wjeneu3ieieisi can't do 5hie by kys3lt 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026Every time I hear about someoestarving themsel3ves and actually loosing weight and sticking to it I don't feel pity I feel dark black jealousy and fuck I 3ish I could do that 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026Not even allowed to be a bitch because fat girls should be nice and dainty But also being fat is the least of my current problems yet it's the one I'm fixated on rh3 most 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I wonder if strangers think I have some sort of disorder when they see me 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026My hair was greasy so I did a bun and then remembered how ugly my double chin is and how ugly my face is and how fuckiny disgustng I look so I got embarrassed about going outside and came back home to dry shampoo my haid 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I genuinely don't think I'll ever be pretty and I hate this No matter how feminine I try to be I'm too big to fit into normal people clothes I'm too big to be feminine and pretty My face is too assymetrical I can't even look good with make u0non 020
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026To do list tomorrow: 1. Text my teachers about grades 2. Clean my room 3. Cry. 4. Laundry for puppy yoga 5. Actually do the assignments I'm asked to do 6. Cry 7. Go for a smoke some where in between 1 and 5 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I genuinely don't know what to do I feel a burden on my heart I hate me I hate this I hate this 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026Why am I only appealing from my personality j just want someone to actuallt use me for my looks or something I feel like a charity case 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 26/03/2026I don't deserve this why am I like this I hate myself why can't I just bring myself together I can support everyone and everyone likes me yet no one loves me and no one would give it back to me 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 20/03/2026Imngoinb to kill myself if anyone menjtons exams ahain 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 19/03/2026I have no interests in anything I can't even talk to People about them there's nothing to talk about I have nothing 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 19/03/2026What do I even do with myself I hate this eughrhrjeodooss 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 19/03/2026Wow okay nothing changed I'm still the worst person in the world and lazy 010
Mashoelya!! @mashoesya.bsky.social · 14/03/2026I will pay anyone a thousand dollars if they fix my problems in just one day just fix everything please 000
