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Mary Nikkel

@marynikkel.bsky.social
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Writer and photographer for music and nonprofits. Content Director for The Exodus Road. Harbinger of emo. Actual rock and roll Galadriel.

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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 21/08/2026
How did I end up in Colorado? Because of the people I love and the people who loved me, the ones who taught me what home is. This is the most I've written in a very long time about the gap year I spent in Colorado between Texas and Tennessee as a young adult: marynikkel.substack.com/p/going-home
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Going Home: How moving to Colorado changed me
I had a gap year between college and marriage. Spending it in Colorado changed me forever — and foreshadowed how it would become my forever home.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
Sharks in the water (or, on finding Celiac-safe food in a red-light district): marynikkel.substack.com/p/sharks-in-...
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Sharks in the water (or, on finding Celiac-safe food in a red-light district)
What does telling the truth cost?
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 29/03/2026
Screaming: thank you and I’m sorry. 🤍 open.substack.com/pub/marynikk...
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Screaming (thank you and I’m sorry)
“Who are you screaming at?”
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 22/03/2026
I’ve wanted to write something about my journey with self-harm all month, but it’s a place of particular fragility for me. Here is what I would share today [content note for the full post]: marynikkel.substack.com/p/self-harm-...
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Behavior swapping: Self-Harm Awareness Month 2026
Instead of trading one form of self-punishment for another, it's possible to swap our scars for art.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 09/03/2026
We have to stop moralizing recovery. Hear me say it clearly: if you're not better, that doesn't make you bad. open.substack.com/pub/marynikk...
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We have to stop moralizing recovery.
Hear me say it clearly: if you're not better, that doesn't make you bad.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 09/03/2026
For the people who have held me as I’m learning to hold myself. 🤍 marynikkel.substack.com/p/when-suffe...
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When suffering feels safer than holding our younger selves
Who do we allow to tell our story, and why?
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 27/01/2026
The Lord of the Rings was back near the top of the box office. We need it more than ever. open.substack.com/pub/marynikk...
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Lord of the Rings was back at the top of the box office. We need it more than ever.
This frigid, chilling weekend in the United States, a 25 year old movie franchise was in the top 10 at the box office.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 20/01/2026
You won’t be able to save me. open.substack.com/pub/marynikk...
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You won't be able to save me
For everyone who loves me through my illness
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 28/08/2025
I have learned to believe with my whole heart: if you’ve lost something, it can be found. On rock and emo’s resurgence: marynikkel.substack.com/p/the-lost-a...
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The lost and found: rock and emo's resurgence
Have you lost something dear to you? It can be found.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 12/06/2025
These photos are what I looked like when I was first sent to work, without pay, at 8 years old. Today is World Day Against Child Labor. This is my story. marynikkel.substack.com/p/what-child... 🤍
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What child labor taught me to believe about myself
I went to work for the first time around 8 years old. It changed my relationship to myself forever.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 21/05/2025
If you still have X, would you mind retweeting this? Meta’s active sabotaging of our anti-trafficking work has been a source of tremendous harm. x.com/theexodusroa...
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 13/05/2025
Mental healthcare is the #1 reported need of U.S. trafficking survivors. I wrote a deep dive into what some of those needs are. theexodusroad.com/human-traffi...
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How does human trafficking affect mental health? - The Exodus Road
Meta description: Human trafficking affects mental health in severe and long-lasting ways. These are some outcomes for survivors.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 11/05/2025
I will never and always be a mother: marynikkel.substack.com/p/never-and-...
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Never and Always
Why I've chosen not to have children of my own, and why that doesn't mean I am absolved from mothering.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 15/04/2025
I’ve outlived myself by two years now. marynikkel.substack.com/p/two-years-...
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Two years as a ghost
My phone rang all day on April 13, 2023.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 01/04/2025
Recovery is like living on black ice: you learn to lean into the slide. marynikkel.substack.com/p/living-on-...
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Living on black ice
Recovery means accepting you will sometimes slide.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 20/03/2025
I have a particular personal and professional interest in the nuances of trauma, how it manifests in our lives. So researching this piece on Stockholm syndrome and trafficking felt like a passion project.✨ theexodusroad.com/stockholm-sy...
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Stockholm syndrome and human trafficking - The Exodus Road
Is Stockholm syndrome real? How are Stockholm syndrome and human trafficking related? Learn more about this type of trauma bond.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 13/03/2025
Mental health is discussed at a rate I would’ve found impossible years ago. I am so grateful for this. I also wonder sometimes if the urgency has become diluted in the deluge of content. I wonder if we’ve lost sense of what we really stand to gain — or to lose: marynikkel.substack.com/p/stay-alive
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We try to just stay alive
I find myself realizing I can lose sight of the stakes in mental health conversations.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 08/03/2025
My primary work is serving as Senior Content Manager for a global anti-trafficking organization. I tell stories about some of the most horrific violations humans can inflict — and much of that violence is gender-based. marynikkel.substack.com/p/a-warrior-... marynikkel.substack.com/p/a-warrior-...
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A warrior and a mother
It's International Women's Day, and I'm thinking about how survivors of sex trafficking have made me a better woman.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 04/03/2025
For the first time in a while I dreamed about writing marketing copy, woke up, recorded it, and actually ended up using it, so I guess you could say my productivity game has never been stronger/more disconcertingly obsessive. 💁🏼‍♀️
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 16/02/2025
Whew, this one felt cathartic and immensely vulnerable. On purity culture, self-punishment, and how I am learning to accept it isn’t a sin to love my lifelong soul mate. marynikkel.substack.com/p/glass-and-...
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Glass and gravel
Falling in love felt like my greatest sin.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 07/02/2025
Friendly PSA from your neighborhood anti-trafficking professional: human trafficking does not uniquely spike during the Super Bowl. What DOES spike is awareness and policing, creating a psychological effect where it seems more prevalent because we’re paying attention.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 06/02/2025
A tiny, indignant face was on the screen, red with all the ignominy of entering the world. I immediately burst into tears. I knew I had just discovered a new way to love. marynikkel.substack.com/p/the-cool-a...
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The cool aunt learns to trust
The pre-dawn hours are my least favorite, but it didn’t matter one morning in Memphis: I was in love.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 05/02/2025
It truly blows my mind that I get to be a part of work with this kind of impact. I am truly in awe of the skill our cyber investigations team exercises every single day on behalf of survivors. www.thecoloradogazette.com/article/7829...
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 04/02/2025
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Banned Wagon Books @bannedwagonbooks.bsky.social · 26/01/2025
Banned Book Quote of the Day: “From what I’ve read,” I said to him, “the world goes crazy every three or four decades. The trick is to survive until it goes sane again.” —Parable of the Sower, Octavia E. Butler
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 26/01/2025
In my latest article, I attempt to illuminate another often sensationalized topic: grooming. Some of the statistics are staggering and sobering. I hope that this serves as an invitation for us to protect each other well. influenced.org/what-is-onli...
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What is online grooming?
Online grooming is a predatory behavior that has become one of the most pervasive online dangers today. Here’s how to spot grooming and what to do about it.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 19/01/2025
Stillborn futures, PTSD, and creating for your life: marynikkel.substack.com/p/stillborn-...
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Stillborn futures, PTSD, and creating for your life
The sticky air of early Tennessee summer clung to my skin as 13 patients and a facilitating therapist sat under the slow-lapping sound waves of a Taylor Swift ballad.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025
I spent most of November in the hospital. Here is a little about what that experience is like for me. marynikkel.substack.com/p/medical-tr...
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Medical trauma and what it's like to be hospitalized for anorexia
The carpet ground against the skin of my face, my hip bone stabbing into the floor.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 18/01/2025
In case you wondered what it’s like to exist in the brain of a nonprofit writer, I woke myself up in middle of the night to find myself loudly announcing “new marginalization impacts the ALREADY marginalized the most”
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 16/12/2024
Maybe every hometown is a ghost town, a haunted monument to the selves we left behind. marynikkel.substack.com/p/ghost-town
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Maybe every hometown is a ghost town
Maybe every hometown is a ghost town, a haunted monument to the selves we left behind.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 17/11/2024
Starting to catch up on watching the last few years of The Handmaid’s Tale after reading it earlier this year. The role of dystopia as social bellwether has rarely felt more relevant.
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Mary Nikkel @marynikkel.bsky.social · 16/11/2024
I’m a music and nonprofit writer who writes memoir on the side, plus photographs rock shows and world travel. I don’t “niche down” well. I love Lord of the Rings to an unsettling degree. I’m that annoying millennial who misses the potential social media used to have. Nice to meet you! ✨
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