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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

It didn't work. It didn't fucking work.

Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

I have secured a therapist. The doctor told me to write. Every day. No proofreading. Just write and write and write to vent my feelings and frustrations about her. Then, at the end, crumple up the page and throw it away. I'll be doing that. I'm sorry to anyone that's viewed my page. Goodbye.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

I'm sorry Ethan I'm sorry Lilly You are both right to hate me I am scum

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

I have lost sight of my lighthouse. I am adrift. I am lost.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

I'm a fucking loser. I'll never accomplish anything. She deserves the world. He deserves the world. I'm not good enough for him, either.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

I failed at being good enough for her. I've failed at everything I've ever done.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

want and yearning and mourning and lashing out and screaming and crying

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

My "friends" all just want me to shut up and move on, so I can keep being their fucking jester. My boyfriend is upset by the topic. I don't blame him, it's understandable. I've got nowhere to go. So I go here and let it out.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

You all should be angry at the universe for allowing me to exist within it.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

All I have left is this space, that nobody can see. The void does not pretend to listen, or to care what I have to say. In some ways, that is better.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

I look to the past and smile. I look to the future and see nothing. In the present, I weep.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

everything hurts so fucking bad someone please make it stop

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

The flames consume all. I try to pick up the ashes of my soul. The wind takes them.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

My arm being slowly ripped off by a great and horrible machine. Tears streaming down my face. I beg for it to stop. For respite. For forgiveness. The machine simply pulls.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

I am a husk. An effigy of flesh. A thing. Not deserving of life, but too cowardly to let go of it.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

My weaker moments are more intense. Sometimes I almost give in. Someone always pulls me back, and for a brief moment, I hate them for it.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

In my stronger moments, I continue. In my weaker moments, I think they're right.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

When the person who tells you you're no better than a mass killer leaves you for the person who told you to kill yourself, what do you do?

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

In the past year, people I held close to my heart have told me that: -I'm no better than a mass killer -I should kill myself How do you deal with that? When it's coming from someone you loved, someone you told things you haven't even told your therapist?

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

I want to take everything back...I want a second chance. I want to start my life over

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

I didn't do it and I should have Please someone take me back to when I didn't feel like a fucking tumor

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 30/04/2026

I'm braver today. Or maybe deeper in despair. I've been like this for over 20 years. Enough is enough. I'm tired of being like this. I'm sorry Trey. I love you.

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Mars Emeraude @marsemeraude.bsky.social · 23/04/2026