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I should be fine chat I realizer i dont esnt to die I just don’t know how to live There shouldn’t be more than short term health complications

I dont eant to due i dont want to die i took the pills oh god i dont esnt thus oh fuckfuckfuck

Normalize not writing suicide notes because nobody fucking cared enough to do anything before you did it so why the fuck do you owe them letters????

Okay yeah if i disappear its bc i killed myself

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i cant do thid shit anymtoe oh my gof ehat if i just did it what if i took the pills

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One thing my mum does that will always make me so fucking angry is that when she realizes that i’m right, she ends the conversation and gets mad.

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why the actual FUCK is school considered more important than my literal fucking HEALTH

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and maybe i tried other things, but nothing can capture the sting /lyr

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what do people think they're doing by asking if somebody is okay yeah it can feel nice to get recognition but still oh my fucking god they ask and then don't know what the fuck to say when you're not when you tell them you are they pry and when you say you're not they don't know what to do

"are you okay?" no. obviously i'm not. anybody can see that i'm not. however, i have to be. i have to be okay because what the fuck happens if i'm not?? nothing. they just watch you wither and give half-assed 'encouraging' words and hope you can just somehow get through this shit #shedsky

the stash of zoloft and trazadone is looking mighty delectable at the moment

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repost bc i really like these cuts but it did NOT get as popular as some of the other cuts i posted guys these ones are better than the ones that got a bunch of reposts and over 60 likes

don't be surprised if one day i'm just fucking gone

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i'm so fucking pissed i just want this to fucking stop i am SO fucking done with everything oh my god

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Oh yeah cut last night btw !! Just 2 mini beans bc i freaking lost my good exacto I think my mum founds anf took it :/

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Found my backup wxacto but it’s such terrible quality

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I can’t find my fuckint exacto shitshitshit My mum might’ve taken it away fuckfuckfucktuckfuck

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I’m so sick rn eugh Waiting for kitkat to respond He probably fell asleep :( Might just go cut >,<

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I hate when ppl unfollow bc then i have to go thru my following list and then unfollow them to make it even again !!

lexi @kittipawz.bsky.social · 05/11/2024

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arm cut seshhhh

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eli ★ shedsky ★ @v0mitt.bsky.social · 04/11/2024

i think about this tweet a lot 🏷️ #edsky #caterpillarsky #caterpillar #edtwt

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Threw up the soup but it wasn’t enough i need to go on another long walk

I know for a fucking fact that it’s not body dysmorphia I’m fucking fat as hell I’m swimming in my fucking fat I’m so fuckj g disgusting #caterpillarsky #edsky #edtwt

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My mum is trying to make me evenfucking fatter than i alrwady am Fucking STOP IT Im LOSING WEIGHT just like you FUCKING TOLD ME TO Stop it you fucking bitch !!! Stop trying to make me fucking eat !!! #caterpillarsky #edsky #edtwt

I fucking hate the autistic fear of being perceived

I hate looking at myself I’m so fucking disgusting

Practically praying that he’s just busy and nothing happened to him/he’s not upset with me

Just made mlp kandi !! Made bracelets based off of the mane 6 but i’m gonna do spike and some of my fav background ponies soon :3

EEK i have to modify some of my clothes after school bc they’re too big for me and my pants don’t stay on my hips anymore !! I can slip them off without undoing them !! This may sound like an annoyance and a bad thing BUT it means that i’m losing a lot Of weight >,< #caterpillarsky #edsky #edtwt

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Oh also i probably lost all my school friends But that’s okay bc i have kit and ygs I have my blades I have my writing I have my books I have starvation That‘s enough for me I don’t need school friends #caterpillarsky #988sky

Ugh i need a lot more trazadone before i have a proper way out I have a lot of zoloft and some anti nightmare meds too but a lot of zoloft is probably my best bet Just need to deal with insomnia without my trazadone for a while and i’ll have a proper escape route

I have the urge to just delete my fic The one i’ve been working on It’s kinda shit I migjt just figure out if you can private fics and then do that and never touch it again and then post other/more normal fics

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Shout out to my big sister taking suchc good care of me despite living across the world <3 !!

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I absolutely HATE how my brain works Criticism eats away at me and debilitates me and i can’t continue my work because it’s not good enough anymore Guys i absolutely hate this

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Kevin !! @m4gg0tist1r3d.bsky.social · 03/11/2024

I’m actually so fat i can’t do anything right I got a bad head cold and had soup yesterday Fucking fat ass Being sick doesn’t give me an excuse to be a fat fuck I need to starve I need to starve i need to starve i need to starve #caterpillarsky #edtwt #edsky

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Hey gang Haven’t posted in a minute im just super tired :3

rei ❀˖° @hlwitbysthy.bsky.social · 01/11/2024

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right if i don’t stop gaining and losing the same 3kgs this month i might actually kms

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Antares 🔭 @skkwhore.bsky.social · 01/11/2024

was feeling cute but then remembered i’m fat

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Just go home I am SO fucking tired oh my god

I just want to go home. I have 26 minutes left I just want to fucking go home

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I could see the look of fear on her face oh my god

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I hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this Why the actual fuck am i like this im going to fuckiny cry

I just feel so fucking empty Like pieces of me are missing And I dont know what they are or where they went And whenever I start to feel even slightly whole again, it’s over before I can even register it #caterpillarsky #shedsky #edsky #shsky #988sky #bpd

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Even if i’ve never interacted with somebody anr we’re just like moots or if ive only interacted a few times you best bet im being super enthusiastic when they post like a “good morning” or “hi” or “good night” post !!!!!!

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Sooo sososoo tired Head hurtss too Im killing so much