iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 11/12/2025

Trying to do my injection while high was a fucking mistake

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/11/2025

Just had my first estrogen injection. It feels more sore than I thought it would

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

monthly post to show I'm not dead lmao. music has been kinda slow but it's because I've been working on my confidence issues with it lol. in other words I've got my battle jacket and I'm going to start work on it soon!

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

Torn between being happy my shift at work is short today and I get to go home earlier, and being upset I'm going to be home longer because all 5 of my immediate family are home

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 11/09/2025

How did I manage to work myself up to crying over something I had almost 0 problem with until now because I had a few kinda bad interactions at work l, but it was really just me overthinking people's body language, and one guy was just kinda mean. And this shit happened like, over a week ago

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 11/09/2025

unironically being a cat girl sounds really good

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 02/09/2025

Damn I just let out more tears than I have since I was like 7. It wasn't a proper cry but it's safe to assume it's coming. Estrogen is some crazy shit. G cups next please thank you

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 29/08/2025

Y'know it's kind of funny, but I think a lot of the lessons I learned about mentality and how it affects your performance in things that I learned from my competitive Splatoon days is one of the last missing pieces I need to finish making music

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/08/2025

I'm high as dick rn and I swear I'm hearing voices

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 25/08/2025

When people talk about dictators, they often talk about how they held power through fear. The less talked about part is how they also held their power through charisma. They're idiots, every dictator has been and will be stupid,

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 23/08/2025

going to be honest, the reason music stuff and my general presence online has been so quite is that for like the last 6 months or so I was pretty much relearning music entirely.

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 22/08/2025

pros of having a job: money for music stuff cons of having a job: no time to do music stuff

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 09/08/2025

the eternal struggle of writing songs and doing some pre-mixing is asking myself if two tracks sound like shit or if I'm just feeling some sensory overload and/or ear fatigue.

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 02/08/2025

having to read musescore and songsterr sheet music I have found I truly appreciate the use of repeats in notation

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 02/08/2025

just a reminder, israel fucking sucks. Even as the people of the world let themselves forget for the sake of their own comfort, don't let yourselves forget Palestine is still fighting. Fuck israel Fuck america Fuck capitalism Fuck these stupid colonizing pedophile bastards

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

maybe 5 hours of sleep between shifts is why I'm so god damn tired

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 20/07/2025

just got through like 5 hours of guitar practice. God I needed that lmao

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

Hey guys what's up I finally remembered my password

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 04/05/2025

the pain of having nothing to do while you wait for your package to arrive

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 02/05/2025

it took me exactly 360 days, 5 days off from a whole year, to finally be competent enough to begin recording my own guitars. I guess technically it took less than a full year right? Regardless, my lack of experience with my guitar has been a major roadblock for my music this past year, and while I

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/04/2025

Does anyone else have the memories of every conversation you have with your parents wiped from your head? It's been like 20 minutes and I already can't remember specifically what they said to me

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/04/2025

Y'know for how stubborn my father is on wanting me to do shit, he very easily accepted the fact I want going to music school on aus anymore.

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 20/04/2025

I'm high for the first time rn, things I did Hit the pen like 4 times Inhaled the same puff twice and I'm dying I have work tomorrow at 7

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 14/04/2025

How can people so casually act like whatever you're aspiring to do isn't possible. They act like they're humoring you and constantly bring up the need for "alternatives" and act so sure that you're going to fail. And they have the audacity to say they want to support you too.

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 09/04/2025

Tried to buy some bras on Amazon but I guess the band size I thought I was was way too small so now I get to go to staples so I can return it and hope to god the employee there doesn't question anything

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 29/03/2025

this weekend comes the time I'm going to have the most uncomfortable conversation with my parents I've ever had I know no matter what I say it's not going to end well, but if I play my cards right I can at least put the matter they've been bothering me about to rest

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 28/03/2025

My chest started to feel sore at work today My big naturals era is coming

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/03/2025

One of the worst parts about autism I don't see people talk about much is waking up and already being overstimulated Like my day didn't even START yet and I'm already fucked

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

Left is from like 5 minutes ago and right is from February 5th

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

About a month and a half different with voice training

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

my thighs are all prickly and shit because I shaved them for the first time yesterday but god I'm going to actually fucking SLAY in a skirt when the IPL starts taking effect on them

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 12/02/2025

I've realized that I've put a bit too much distance between me and my friends than I wanted to, so I'm going to try and do my best to talk to people more. I've always found it hard to maintain social contact with people when I don't have much to say, but fuck it we ball

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 12/02/2025

Going from the "I'm content on my own" kind of person to the "I love my friends and want to hang out with them" type of person has been a wild shift the last 2 years lol

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

I've begun conceptualizing my rebrand and proper debut as a musician. Going to be a few weeks or months yet, but hopefully I'll have some exciting things in the works.

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

Y'know I'm more sure that I made the right choice by skipping out on uni Yesterday my father went on another "you can make a lot of money doing IT" rants, but before he framed it as something to keep my afloat while I build a music career, though I could tell he was just saying it like that to not

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 07/02/2025

I suppose I should say, that as of this morning I will no longer be working towards my goal of going to music school. The situation is complicated but please know I made this decision myself, and only for myself. I'm not giving up on music, and I don't intend to never try for school again,

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 05/02/2025

might have made a small breakthrough with my voice figured out I was raising my resonance too high for what I wanted, and that I should keep it a little lower, and then use vocal weight to change it. I think for now I have all the theory I need, I just need to put it into practice

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 04/02/2025

take 5 of trying to learn how to shave my legs this time I'm taking a pocket laser to them!

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_m3llow🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇸 @m3llowrockstar.bsky.social · 03/02/2025

just wrote my first ever proper guitar chord progression not sure how I feel about it as part of the current song I'm writing but I think I'm on the right track it's just kind of hard to pick chords when I have no idea what my vocal melody is going to be lol

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