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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

im scared im getting baited by the way he sounds. its so knauer-esque and its making me really scared. i'll crawl through the screen and shake kjh if he doesnt do anything with Demian 1919 Chapter 6 Jacob Wrestles With The Angel Knauer Introduction

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

canto 10 part three spoilers i really hope jacob has knauer-isms. i want this to happen So Bad

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

going back to 611 handmaiden 😋

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

i havent listened to it in a while but i remember thinking about la mer + the great below with hong lu.. i have Got to Go through the discography again

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Modlely • @modlely.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

mfw I'm blindly obsessed or whatever

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

frames as a representation of a life someone wants, but they all flutter away from baochai. her presence chases them out as a result of her abusive and steep denial. i think thats all for the ramble Unless i remember something else

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

showing absolute compliance towards their roles in the arranged marriage since shes dead-set on the idea that no other way of life is acceptable.. and i say acceptable over 'survivable' because i think she knows subconsciously that an attempt is possible. theres butterflies in the early hong lu-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

of a woman, its internalized that her arranged marriage and capability to reproduce is what makes her useful because she wasnt born in hong lu's position. if shes not, then she has nothing and has to pledge death. with her order-based mentality, her resentment is misdirected at hong lu for not-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

burden her with an idea of responsibility/worth attached to presenting as a man. in an adjacent fashion, Because baochai places so much faith in adults creating a life for her, she's more mu-esque where she believes its her responsibility to present as a woman. when she hears mu explain the 'uses'-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

in relation to her and their family, while mu mixes it with her own internalized misogyny and cynicism to make sure hong lu knows that she thinks that if hong lu were to live with her identity, then she'd be 'lowering' her value. both backhandedly acknowledge that hong lu's a girl so that they can-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

their control). The other thought was that a lot of this is To show how hong lu's in a 'glass-closet' situation (if thats a term) where her abusers know about her identity but dont care about it unless its convenient to target her, hence baochai putting emphasis on what hong lu is supposed to be-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

the sexual accusation is also an attack on her being by forcing others to see her as a boy and to divide her from others... not illustrated but i do hc that pan's role in hl's life was for them to be forcibly bonded as a form of conversion therapy (strung by their elders but baochai mimics-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

baochai was groomed into knowing of adult matters since birth. she has understood everything to have an orderly and transactional 'nature' so she can use it to manipulate situations. its to contrast hl's good faith and earnestness (Obviously) but also how baochai pulls hl into into a meek position.

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

to the fan scene in hlm where one is ripped to show baoyus feelings on love/happiness over worldly things like materialism, and this time its interrupted by baochai w/ her accusing hong lu of wanting sex -> relating to how

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

btw theyre still cousins here, its just that hong lu calls her 'sister' as a social honorific (and hypothetically in the future id do similar w/ ints between her and daiyu).. eerum There was a few thoughts that went into the comic, like hl talking with a maid about a fan being in relation-

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lilian 🌺 @lycanthix.bsky.social · 29/08/2026