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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever

@luckstergal.bsky.social
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I mostly come here to complain.

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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
Considering much of my posts here are vents: For what it's worth, I've been feeling a lot better lately. I am still operating at maybe 60% battery at the start of each day, but it's better than 10% this time last year. Taking it one step at a time and am excited for the future. 💖
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 22/09/2026
The "Chibi a Day 2015" fiasco I dealt with just keeps happening to you year-round. This is some bullshit. You ask for so little. Basic companionship. If they cannot treat you as a legitimate friend, they should put their hands back in their pockets instead of expecting art.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
This vague post is about people no longer in my life. With some, it's been years but the ghost of what used to be still haunts me. Some, it's more recent. If we're still in communications: It's likely not about you. Chill. /🧵
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
I am not perfect. FAR from it. But some of you out there will not reflect and see your own flaws. And if I point them out, I'm the asshole. I would much rather put up the walls, shut up, maintain my own peace, than to point out these flaws and start a war. You don't get to be mad at me for that.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
I have plenty of friends I do not talk to on the daily and am always so happy to chat up again and "catch up" with. Time and distance means we have more to talk about after the long break. Thankfully it's only a small handful that has given me so much heartache. But DAMN it hurts.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
I am tired of people blaming me because I have chosen to walk away for my own mental or I have recognized that I am annoying people with my interests and projects; so I go quiet unless spoken to. I am too old for this shit. Unplug for goodness sake.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
When someone excitedly talks to you about something that makes them happy and you respond negatively because it's not about you--they're going to show you less. You do not get to be mad at your "friend" because they've turned into a reply-only machine. You showed you don't care. But they still do.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
If you present something to a friend and they respond very happily and wordily, but you cannot return the favor when it's their turn--they're going to show you less. If you are a creative getting feedback from them, but yours is basically "Meh" or left on read--they're going to show you less.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
The last example drives me especially nuts because it's impossible to include everyone in everything. We're not all into the same things. The venn diagram of interest is not a circle! Most people understand this! If people happen to vibe better, they are going to hang out more. It's natural!
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Some of you are so used to having a friend tightly secure in your pocket that you cannot handle that that friend MIGHT have other friends. And if they do anything that does not include you, that's a personal offense on an invisible list you've been mentally writing.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Some of you have no awareness of other people's situations and repeatedly vent to your friends about your financial state, your internet numbers, etc. Even though the friends you vent to might be in a worse state than you. But we're jerks if we point our our struggle as a counter.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Some of you exhaust your friends and wonder why they distance themselves after a bit. Everyone is going through something. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. Economically. Politically It's fine to vent once in a while but when it's a constant, people are going to put up walls to protect their peace
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
I am trying so hard to put into words the frustrations I have had with a couple former friends. Millennial Take of the decade here: Some of you have gotten so comfortable with having access to your friends 24/7 and it SHOWS. 🧵💢
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
My biggest motivation came from someone who shared my interest, and was willing to listen and talk with me. Not at me. Hiragi, I dedicate everything I write hereafter to you. I am honored to be called your friend. Thank you for reminding me where I began. 💖 /ramble
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
All this babble is to say that it really can just take 1 person to get that ball rolling again. Rarely does anyone ask for anything besides a little encouragement. I did not get it from my family. I did not get it from friends in art industries. I did not get it from a published author.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
Friends come and go. I lament on past friendships where I'd present something to them and get a nothing response. "Uh huh." "Nice." "That's neat." "Oh, wonderful." I was made to think I was not interesting. So I stopped sharing. I stopped creating.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I am in the note-taking process of dotting my Is and crossing my Ts. Organizing the world I have been slowly crafting since 2012. Figuring out the stories I want to tell. What characters to present. I am on the path to actually writing a novel. Because ONE person has been cheering me on so loudly.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I made a friend two years ago. To my surprise, they were incredibly interested in my creative process. My characters beyond fandom roles. The world I was crafting. They encouraged me to keep working on my original stuff. They wanted to see it. They wanted to read it.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I stopped. Because no one wanted to read what I made. I started making comics instead. People read those. But I found the visual medium harder to do. But I kept going for a while. The last time I really sat down to write something was about 20 years ago, prior to recently.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I wanted to share my writings. My handwriting was not bad. But it would be rejected because there's no pictures so it was boring. Eventually I discovered fanfiction and that was a whole new chapter of writing (heh) on my free time. Expanding on worlds I was in love with.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I remember burning through notebooks, writing my own stories about fantasy creatures. Back to front, page by page, even asking for college rule notebooks because I could fit more words per page. Drove my parents crazy as it was seen as a waste of notebooks and time.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
The last couple years have been interesting for me to really reflect on my creative processes. I used to be that kid who read for fun rather than for assignments and points. I would burn through series after series and ran into a wall at some point. School turned reading into a chore.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
My FB has been marked for deletion and I have a weird sense of anxiety as the day draws closer. Feels like the final cut on the string. I doubt that they'll notice, but I still have that fear of a sudden call out of the blue for the sole purpose of yelling at/interrogating me.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 12/06/2026
No, I'm livid because I'm sick of people like you who miss the point on purpose because you think you're so clever. A woman in a bikini is NOT on the same as a woman with full bare tits and ass out and you know it. You're not different than the people we're complaining about.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 12/06/2026
You know damn well a bikini drawing is different from folks waving money in front of a person wanting them to draw bare tits, ass, and dick when they've already made it clear they don't want to do any of that. You're on 108 lists for a reason, being obtuse on purpose.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 12/06/2026
"Easy" is subjective, dude. It's easy to take off my clothes. Will I do it for money? No. Will others do it for money? Yes! And good for them! The point here is that one does not take off their clothes for money and people are taunting money in their face to make them do it anyways Boundary stuff
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 08/03/2025
Make the comics, coward
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/02/2025
trying hard to curb my guilt of not being able to keep up and just focus on WHEN I can make nice things in return!
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/02/2025
PAIGE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEY'VE GIFTED ME STUFF LIKE ONCE OR TWICE A DAY FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS I CAN'T KEEP UP
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 05/02/2025
Trying to keep up with this speed demon of a new friend of mine, holy crap. Love you @trammander.bsky.social !
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 19/01/2025
I'mma chalk this up as a drunk drive-by or something. Maybe they didn't even expect me to unblock and reply. Who knows. I've waited to see what it was they wanted and gotten nothing. So, back to being blocked. Not sure they could say anything to prove they've changed at this point anyhow.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
I've been sitting on whether or not to hit [Post all] on this for 3 hours now. We're already approaching 1 year since I had to walk away from someone I'd thought was a trustworthy friend. I didn't need another ghost to pop up.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
It's been over 2 years now and out of nowhere I get an email from Patron (Which I closed down a while back now but I still have an account) informing me I'd been DMed by him on his own Patron account. This will be interesting. I haven't thought of him nor spoken of him in ages.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
I think the kicker is this was fresh off negotiations in allowing a gender swapped version of my character to be used in a project of his. Who whole thing just accumulated with the finality of "This isn't just about me anymore" and I was done.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
It goes without saying the entire topic is incredibly complex, but he was very much on the black and white "I've made my decision that the entire group is bad" camp and it threw me for a loop.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
This was at the height of media sensationalizing either bad apples or blatant over-reactions in the trans movement in recent years.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
I had to hesitantly agree to let him use a gender swapped character of mine for some big comic project he wanted to order. Again, because I was concerned of the loss of the occasional comm. The breaking point was him coming out of nowhere with this banger.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
Reflecting on it, there had been a LOT of red flags here and there, but I opted to ignore it out of desperation for the occasional comm work. A very discomforting thing was him assuming he co-owned a character of mine just because said character was in a lot of comms with his character.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
There were times where they went to alternative routes to contact me, not seeing what they'd done wrong. Months would pass and they'd STILL contact me on one of my alts on tumblr like there was a chance for us to be chummy again. After about a year of silence, I stopped thinking about them.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
2 years ago I walked away from a client who out of NOWHERE came out as Transphobic. I gave him 2 chances to back up and he failed, so that was it. I blocked them and made sure their patronage was removed.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/01/2025
Nothing quite like learning Patreon's Block system is crap. So, you can block someone, but they can still DM you (but you cannot DM them back until you unblock them). This aught to be good.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
I am not always interested in the the things my friends are into. But I am interested in their joy. I love listening to them go on about the things that make them happy in this miserable world. I listen. I ask questions. I try to contribute in conversation. Because that's what friends do.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
Random people dismissing you and your interests is one thing. I can hand wave that and roll my eyes. When it's someone you thought was your friend, someone you're willfully vulnerable with, it's another. About on the same level as a family member. It makes you paranoid about yourself. Thanks👍
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
Thanks to this one person I thought was my friend, and learning in the aftermath of walking away how they truly felt about me, I am always wondering about my present friends: Do they actually like me Do I annoy them Am I better just being a quiet wallflower listening to them, but not contributing
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
Found myself thinking this morning about how I'd learned a former friend used to complain to my husband about my hyper fixations and how much I shared them. It's been years, but there's still irreversible damage. I still find myself apologizing when I share things with people to this day.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 11/12/2024
My fluffy man My storm cloud My alpaca My Norn, Papa to Quaggan My perfect hubby 💖
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 11/12/2024
20 years with the best man I could have ever asked for. I love you @synduo.bsky.social
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 07/12/2024
Silly doodle I made for when I'm the one checking to see if we're doing Tabletop on Sundays.
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Luckster, Lucks, Luckstergal, Whatever @luckstergal.bsky.social · 04/12/2024
Can sometimes be nice to just jump back in time a bit!
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