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Hmmm, am I ready to be seen primarily as a [problematic artist] by making and sharing things that are just 1 of 50 things that I like to make and show off? Is it worth being cornered into just ONE of my niches?? Would that really happen in my current landscape, actually???

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 28/09/2026

Rediscovering the joy of drawing for others,,,

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 28/09/2026

Do You see the underhanded sorrow in my moves?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 28/09/2026

I ask "what if I (was/did) that?" and I absorb into potentiality. I do not see myself as That, I see myself as a creature capable of a contradictory, paradoxical level of introjection. I sample and cherry pick from experiences others may call "phases". There are no actual borders here.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 27/09/2026

A slippery slope: festivities under the full moon => emotional breakdown, ego death and rebirth energy work within a liminal space

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 26/09/2026

If you can't come to such conclusions, yourself, maybe it's time to learn from others who can

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 26/09/2026

The desire itself may have had a chance, too, but the strategy was a bad omen felt in the gut. The desire is then damned into oblivion at the death of its delivery snake.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 25/09/2026

God stop being a lil bitch (encouraging) (positive) (in your best interest)

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 24/09/2026

Lili big sister arc incoming

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 24/09/2026

Truthfully as a child, I could NEVER step on stage in front of an audience. *Extreme* stage fright. Then I fell in love with Art so hard that I don't matter anymore, I wish to be on stage just to share its wonder.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 24/09/2026

Why did no one tell me TTRPG was gonna make me plural-er???????

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 24/09/2026

Ooohhh gotcha~ little snake-like shadow thing squirming in my hand... Awww, now why didn't you just tell me what you Wanted~?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 24/09/2026

Now that we're all grown up, wanna go back and do all those things our parents wouldn't let us do? :3

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 23/09/2026

When I try to remember something that another headmate was more at the front for, it feels like my brain naturally searches in the direction where dreams/stories/ideas reside, until it dawns on me (my current self) that it was indeed A Real Lived Experience of This Vessel (piloted by other self)

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 22/09/2026

Just as beauty, illusion is in the eye of the beholder The illusion is the resulting disorientation from an incorrect or incomplete interpretation The interpreted object can signal a truth OR a lie, but the illusion is a misrepresentation of a piece of a more whole and complete truth

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 22/09/2026

A lot of it boils down to a similar root fear: have I accidentally created an illusion so good that I've fooled myself and everyone around me? Overlap enough if, ands, and buts to create a moiré pattern so hypnotic.. what could possibly make sense here, other than what is speculated by the creator?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 21/09/2026

I have about a 2.5-year "memory shadow" that is cast from about 0.5 years back. So I can only vividly remember recent-past and things from about 3 years back, but everything in that shadow space is very blurry, and it's always moving along with me.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 21/09/2026

Don't be looking over expecting me to treat you any better than you treat yourself. I will mirror this too.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 21/09/2026

There is a part of me that's been fantasizing about a scenario where the world is finally just, done with my shit. Done with my excuses, done with all of these sufferings I hold SO dear to protect myself from responsibility. I say fantasize because a big part of me would be grateful, RELIEVED EVEN

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 20/09/2026

If you pull another me out of me, that doesn't mean it's yours to keep, by the way

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 20/09/2026

Will you dare to open the door yourself?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 19/09/2026

Outside of perception, why do you create?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 17/09/2026

surrender from self, to self

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 16/09/2026

Staring at it through the water You could right pass through, slip under

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 16/09/2026

🦷🦷🦷🦷🦷🦷🦷

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 13/09/2026

So much of You is impersonal. In that, not even you, can convince it otherwise. You can try to strongarm it. But it has its nature, and that will not turn out too well, and it's nothing personal. You are the beast, you are the tamer. You learn its behavior and motivators, you work with it.

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 13/09/2026

I'm not actually interested. A part of my brain (that I'm not done killing) simply sees it as a conquest. It wants to win, to be right, more than it actually wants the circumstances that would spell such a confirmation I already know my answers. I need that insidious thing in my head to give it up

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 12/09/2026

I'm not even nosy, secrets just show up at my feet :3

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 12/09/2026

Sometimes I say things I don't mean and get really scared and somehow convinced that I actually meant it, and have a mini crisis about that that ends with me eventually untangling myself and recognizing just how often other people dig themselves into this hole too

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 12/09/2026

Deer in headlights? Star struck? 💫

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 12/09/2026

When the queer who had such "articulated" (trauma gatekeepy) opinions about lolisho is having trouble wearing cutesy kidcore stuff in public Go on, grow and learn kiddo :3 Hope you understand what you've been peddling now

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 12/09/2026

I often say "I miss you too" as a courtesy I DO feel it, and you'll know when I mean it, but like 80% of the time it's just.. nice to see someone again. I'm not suffering heartache or anxiety outside of their presence and I dont think they'd want me to either But it feels expected

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 11/09/2026

The labyrinth is something like an intestine with appendages where feelings and ideas can get caught

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 10/09/2026

Between an old world I haven't finished leaving behind and a new world I haven't finished building

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 10/09/2026

I was about to ask "am I poly or actually [convoluted thing]?" but then I remembered I'm a relationship anarchist and I don't need to worry so much about that categorical bullshit

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 09/09/2026

The joy of toiling within a self-made fascimile

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 08/09/2026

My mental health is apparently indicated by how comfortable I am to playfully threaten my friends :3

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 07/09/2026

What's scarier: the void itself, or the implications of recognizing the void as the ultimate release? Release from.. what?

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 07/09/2026

I'm viewing from my eyes but I'm not the one piloting

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 07/09/2026

Wait wait hold up, let me grab the alter who's into that...

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 07/09/2026

This life didn't start until 28

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 05/09/2026

For every assertation: why? Is it necessary? Is necessitation necessary? There was a Rube-Goldberg contraption that landed you here

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🪞 jasima mi 🎀 @lili.cub.cat · 04/09/2026

I see you still circling around where the REAL itch is... Go on... Scratch it directly :3

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