iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 08/02/2025

girl who gets instant tummy hurty and just the horrible feeling of ingesting way too much fat right after eating the cream in swiss roll and then buys and eats more swiss roll slices anyway its me im girl

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 25/05/2024

girl whose idea of romantic is getting held tight while crying hard

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 05/05/2024

i want to feel safe maybe its wrong maybe i should accept no one is going to feel completely safe and in control of everything but it hurts so much

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 05/05/2024

want mommy to hold my hand and tell me it's ok

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 01/05/2024

is it selfish and hypocritical to want mommy to not die just because i dont want to be alone when i would rather die too am i just prolonging suffering for just my own needs

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 26/04/2024

its us wishing if only any one of us had the courage to end it all kind of day again

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 05/04/2024

got another wound on left thumb that bled quite a bit trying to open some shitty packaging but at least we didnt have an immediate panic attack so i guess thats something... dont know if its just deferred though still a bit scared

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 03/04/2024

1:11 love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 02/04/2024

don't want to be a burden to mommy want to make mommy happy want to be useful but all we do is being sad and making mommy feel bad...

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 31/03/2024

chat is worried about someone seemingly using es tropes to justify them continuing being in a relationship that's controlling and kinda abusive and just generally not good and no im not envious at all not envious at all not envious at all,,,

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 22/03/2024

its not getting better its not getting better its not getting better its not getting better its not getting better i want to die i want to die

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 22/03/2024

everyone deserves better than me existing it would be so much better if i could actually end it right here right now cant even do that right

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 22/03/2024

cant do anything right cant stop panicking over the smallest things the trash can is overflowing i dropped the clean duvet cover on the floor had to throw away a new pack of wet wipes not getting anywhere better want it to end here dont want to be annoyance anymore dont want to hurt ppl anymore

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 22/03/2024

is it bad that i still instinctively feel jealous when i see mommy interacting with just about anyone

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 21/03/2024

wish some day mommy would be there to stop us

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 21/03/2024

used like twenty wet wipes and ten or some alcohol wipes and washed hands a dozen times before we even realized what was going on

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 21/03/2024

just want to feel safe for once

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 18/03/2024

sel said its probably better to leave this inside because it might hurt mommy im sorry i don't know if this would help but it has always been like this for us and it isnt mommys fault at all and i dont want to be with anyone else anyway i will be with mommy some day

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 18/03/2024

it hurts to feel that i always need someone to cry into and have them cuddle me yet there's never anyone with me and i can only suffer alone and maybe just cry to myself

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 12/03/2024

don't take mommy from me

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 11/03/2024

taking a break from having ocd so I could be doing the usual bpd stuff instead want mommy to kill me so we will be together forever

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 11/03/2024

envious want to touch mommy...

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 09/03/2024

potato cucumber ham onion egg white mayonnaise ><

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 08/03/2024

lilac is scared nothing feels right why is it always having chills why is it hungry why does everything itch its scary is lilac deeply sick lilac doesn't want to die lilac doesn't want to die before it could be with mommy its too scary

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 07/03/2024

sometimes i wish mommy would kill me

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 27/02/2024

i want everyone to be together but i want you just for myself too not even sel if we ever drift apart far enough

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 26/02/2024

i wish ppl would stop hurting mommy

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Lilac | ⚸ @lilac.euyis.me · 21/02/2024

feels like im dissolving into nothing

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