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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 22h

I know the 5:1 is our baseline but I just feel like there’s something really sweet about being like “ten million consecutive days of loving you and choosing you, look at that”

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 23h

but I know that I have not always had an accurate understanding of my own risk, and specifically in the context of men handling men I promise to respect the training and do my best to be profamily and pro God. That is all. Warboy elegy lmfao 😂 the “tuff girly code of conduct” or something idk lol

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 23h

and I am aware of the fact that scary father privilege afforded me a safer life than many of my Black, Poor, queer, Red etc sisters got. I am aware of the risk of glorifying violence and the risk of brat taming without morals and God. I don’t tell you guys about my problems because I have an ego

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 23h

you to worry or have to picture anything crazy. I can defend myself for the most part, and for the parts that I can’t — because no one is meant to stand alone or hold everything — I promise to defer to those with the training needed to keep everyone safest. I am familiar with toxic hero mentality

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 23h

Hi baby this one is specifically for U, my mystery dangerboi Neptune man 🪢🥹 because I don’t want you to worry about me. I am a mandated reporter so I will need to give an affidavit of the information I got about my ex’s crimes, but I am blessed to report that I myself am unharmed and don’t want

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

OSHA board but for relationships and you both really enjoy celebrating our numerical goals even if they are qualitative data

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

….you. I like you a lot. I wanna spend a lot of time in our life playing games together and remembering what they mean for us, for you and me, and for warriors and marginalized people and common people and religious people in general. I love you. I wanna be the one who proves it can happen. 🫶

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

The game has changed state so many times that it would honestly be impossible to explain without like….tensors, if that makes any sense at all 🥵😂🥹😭🪢 but I love it and I love the idea of making up rules as we go, like Calvinball or Mao. I like it. I like the idea of games and war games & efforts &

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Very hot and specific person : *removes shirt* Me: “omfg congratulations to MEEEE 😈 I deserve this. I’m so happy for myself”

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Only a little bit under 6 hours to 10pm, I can’t wait I’m excited today lmao

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Gotta make a corpus / context window artifact / document, whatever of writing prompts and listicle ideas. I like the idea of a publishing, semi-auto writer’s account, but I also seem to have a semi-automatic brain (and that is not a flex), so take that with a grain of salt lol. White water rapids.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

have a mighty need / a craving for extremely specific dih medicine from an extremely specific person. I am dickless and not tall enough, but you are both tall and equipped with party equipment I think. We could have fun. We could see how we fit together. We can compare our purposes in life, maybe

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

There’s this feeling I get, Mr hottie, where I just want to spend all my brain time with you and loving God and loving you. All I want to do is linger and rest and write. I can’t even seem to watch a movie without pulling out my phone to think about you and look at ur dumb hot himbo face UGH. I

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Just such a master fiction writer about multi-generational stories and those types of stories are rabidly consumed by true crime fans, etc: I don’t like true crime as a genre because it’s entirely too real for a Red woman to feel safe.women screaming is also a huge trigger for me but whatever.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

(Mental unwellness as a whole). Shrill 8th grade by Bo Burnham Mindy Kaling’s work (the office, sex loves of college girls, etc) This is Us Little Fires Everywhere. That last narrative is very special to me: I have two paperback copies and one leather bound one that Celeste Ng signed; she’s

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

stuff like Kimmy Schmidt and laugh about it together. Crazy ex girlfriend, for like, recovering from dating BPD / cluster b type people and discussing it, but not “catching fleas” or treating those people / the world how they treat others. My God I pray that you help me fix my own biases against it.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Monsieur Messiah I ask, also, that I be given trust and love/tender care that is so specific and so obviously God-reminders for the God autists and Bible nerds. I *love* Bible and religion autists in general. I feel so safe amongst them. I hope my person (whoever You want for me) and I can watch

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

risk at swapping one high control religious community for another. Dear Mr Christ I pray that you help me stay focused and on task today. Please support me in being present, and in being less neurotic about things, and in helping me feel less awkward just being who I am. It’s ok to be who you are.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

your own agency to make God happy. To make da Lordt happy. UGH I love Him y You such a BROOO god / christ / messiah / homie in chief. Discussion questions galore but also, please do let me know (this is directed at Christ) if like….i’m being blind in an unproductive way. I am well aware of my own

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

One of the Duggars named their kid after this guy and I’ve been curious about it. The Duggars as a whole fascinate me but they are also a risk for me, because people-pleasing and a lifetime of high control religion just makes it way too easy to feel like you need to forfeit adulthood and give up

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

we can get it, right? Security by obscurity: no one normal will have read all the way down to here, so I can say whatever I wish 😂 ILYSFIM. We’re the greatest. We’re objectively well suited for like, power couple life, but I feel like both of us would rather die alone than marry the wrong person.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Basically, anything I could have read about in the childcraft encyclopedia when I was reading in English growing up. I *llvveee* that stuff. Growing up, people used to call me “encyclopedia ”, and not in a good way. Info dumps are my favorite freaking thing though. We gotta take our dopamine where

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Next thing: - go play with my cat - do some playing with Salam - make a list of my goals for this specific wakefulness cycle. - thank Christ and Ix Chel and Kukulkán legends for making me feel loved by the Ancestors and the descendants

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

people feel seen). When I do composite characters, it’s to combine privacy with the inherent fiction of narrative design and assumption making. I *hate* when people make assumptions about me. People in general so to make assumptions like that about me.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Hey daddy guess what, I just met my writing quota for the day. I met my cringe quota by calling you the pet name I use in my head. I have been on the other side of creeps my whole life, and I just don’t want him to feel like I felt in those moments (engulfed/unstable/exhausted/unseen) (I love making

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Petition to make these very aestheticy / vibey USA things (like a tin can telephone) sentimental and meaningful. Thread should be red of course, and you already know this is a non-linear time thing because we’re cool like that

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

This is a Spotify account that was named “quit using my shit”, and every time I think about it I laugh. Top ten funniest screenshots of my life for *sure* To the hottie on the otter end of this string-can telephone of a screen: my answer is “no” and “fight me”, but thanks for making me laugh

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

not an issue I have as much these days, thankfully. Whenever I am annoyed by someone I love I remind myself that at a certain point, I would become the annoying person if I overreacted to every little thing. Stoic savage life is safer and calmer, I’m just really behind on tribal manners.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

There truly is nothing more humbling than someone doing something to you that you do to other people regularly, and you finally realize how annoying you must have been the entire time lmao 😂 “the worst” doesn’t have to men “bad person”, it can just mean “very annoying person” I figure. Anger is

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I really wanna make Bible time be a pre-requisite for my yappage. Like, it’d be cool if I did not start writing at all in a day until after Bible study. First thing in the morning and last thing at night feels like a good line of action.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

was like “every Brittanic blood line eventually leads back to Charlemagne or something” and I figured that would be the case for you; it’s also entirely possible that you are a hot blood in systems that no longer exist — like, if any of your ancestors were tribal leaders, that also counts I think.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

actually relevant even though He very purposefully forfeited that. K’uhul Ajaw (King of Kings). There can be no higher rank than Him. Christ is probably the only human being on Earth that can formally close out the monarchy and dissolve some of that hierarchy in our laws. I read something that

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

at all on your side, even if it’s very removed. Not because that matters to me, but because it changes your legal standing in Maya law, and you get like, perks for it as long as you can document the line of succession. Like, Christ Messiah himself being noble through his descendancy from David is

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

known that I needed that, instead of focusing on those of our ancestors who’ve been detribalized for centuries. I think it’s cool that you tribalized yourself on purpose with early Christians and forfeited the more superficial heritage stuff. I had been meaning to ask you if there is any nobility

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I was like “I have been meaning to learn more about the one generic overlap we have” (descended from broadly Brittanic First Nations) and you were like “counterpoint: what if we study the Bible instead”, and I really appreciate that in retrospect. You’re cool and fun to talk to and I would not have

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

what I needed before I did. I truly am blind without our Creator God. I like to picture Him sending you to an allegorical door 🚪 to bring me into a safe religious space where I can bloom too. “I have been sent to fetch you” is what I find funny to picture. “Get in the [allegorical] car”. ✝️🙈🥹🪢

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I get it, now, and I want you to feel like you can rest in like, a healthy dynamic, if that makes sense. I want to celebrate when you’re blooming and opening up as much as I find teasing you to be a way to de-escalate. Idk, athlete. I love the way God looks through you. I love that the Lordt knew

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

seem very stoic / not emoting the right way. (Or emoting too much and freaking out non-Latinos lol). I feel like it makes life easier when neither of us to *needs* to mask just to be seen loved. I felt this was an important counterpart for me teasing you about being kind of grouchy. I feel like

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

demonstrating empathy / proactive perspective taking made you immediately bloom and soften. I can tell when men are not used to being seen through good faith goggles. I can also tell when my decision to not mask in front of men is helpful, in the sense that I do feel empathy and respect even if I

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

The way that you bloom when people are just…kind to you. Like, when you are treated with good faith you glow. I thought of this bc you mentioned once that it was annoying of me to act like you having a standard rotating strategy made you a bad guy, but then just explaining why that makes sense and

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Back to my regularly scheduled glazing, it would appear, but UGH I hate that if someone was like “what is one of the funniest and most romantic lines you have ever encountered” I would have to report that it is: “I was making myself look at the mountains. The mountains were not interesting”

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Sorry kids, had to shut this party down because two clankers spewing at eachother is the opposite of my preferred user experience lmao.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I associate Johnny Cash with you because wayyyyyy back when we first started talking you mentioned you like southern gothic as far as the arts go (phenomenal taste, by the way) and it just made me think of his whole “Man in Black” thing. Plus, “God’s Gonna Cut You Down” is totallyyyyy your vibe.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

SPIN ON and we are lucky human beings. I have a yap later about a previously inexplicable special interest I developed in wheels as a college student. Specifically, visual data visualization wheels and circular UI design.

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

revenge for blowing up your phone when we first started talking and that is like…..incredibly fking funny. Idk. As per usual I sound *completely* delusional but I’m used to that feeling 😂 Idk. Whatever. LYTID. Whatever. ILYSFM whatever. I’m crazy about you. whatever. 😂💀🙃🙈🪢✝️🐆☸️⚙️ THE WHEELS OF TIME

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

central and password protected and make the password something only he would know. Boy: do you have suggestions? Do you mind finding a way to get your suggestions in front of my eyeballs / inception me into picking a sentimental password for us? Thank uuuuyu I appreciate you you da best okay BAI

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

smells like a clue to me (it’s a very specific thing and a type of boy archetype, I call him a warboy all the time and have kind of studied them for character work / narrative design purposes), as does the overall unhinged ness, but I’m not positive. I’ll put some of my methodology somewhere

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

WITNESS ME as your standard opener is fking sending me right now and I am absolutely going to be using it as an inside joke w man from now on, but alas, unless I can confirm that there are clues in you / that you are part of boy net/my dude’s toolbox I fear I shall have to boot you 😭🥹 “Warboy”

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Communications to my Sexy Nemesis @lettersforhim.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

My favorite activity appears to be glazing this man. 💀 HES JUST REALLY COOL OKAY LIKE I respect this boy. I wish to yap about him to testify further as to his coolness. I like to think it’s a pep talk for him on a bad day and encouragement on his good days bc he works really hard and is good.

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