A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 59mAnd I says, Buddy, I got a little girl sick back in Texas. She's got a hanker for plums and ain't nothing else gonna do. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 1hi hope death is like being carried to your bedroom when you were a child & fell asleep on the couch during a family party. i hope you can hear laughter from the next room 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 1hIts some weird moment of vulnerability. The utter shock of it all crumbling a small hole in the wall he made to hide how much he secretly hated himself. 011
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 2hWorker bees can leave. Even drones can fly away. The Queen is their slave. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 3hi hope death is like being carried to your bedroom when you were a child & fell asleep on the couch during a family party. i hope you can hear laughter from the next room 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 4hAnd that's why when I look into your eyes, it's the scariest feeling in the world... 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 5hWhile a house may hunger, it cannot starve. And so in fever and anger and loneliness, it may simply lie in wait. Doors open. Shades drawn. Hallways empty. Hungry. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 6hThe fact that you think I am frustrated or broken says more about you than about me. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 6hThe world's gone beautiful because it's about to die. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 7hand the universe said I love you because you are love. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 7hIt may grow angry. Its basement may fill with churning acid like an empty stomach. And its gorge may rise as it asks itself, through clenched teeth, "what did I do wrong?" 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 8hHer aunt continued to bake wonderful cakes and leave them by the door. "I hope you're okay, Pars," they would say. I ate them myself and they made me very happy and warm. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 8h"I don't know what I'm doing," I said, walking to a window. I poked the broken glass and pulled back. "But I think you might get it. Your family has been through a lot of pain, and mine hasn't." 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 9hYou tell me it's a cruel world and we're all running around in circles. I know that. I've been on this earth just as many days as you. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 10hIts some weird moment of vulnerability. The utter shock of it all crumbling a small hole in the wall he made to hide how much he secretly hated himself. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 10hYou want to know the REAL reason your wife left you?! It wasn't the drinking, or the stumbling home at all hours, or the rage! It was the WHINING! Nothing's EVER your fault, IS IT?! 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 11h"You're acting stubborn and ignorant," Daddy said. "Collective absence of pain can't eliminate it's existance. As they say, the palette is drawn to the canvas." 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 11hWhen the pain finally comes, it comes all at once. And it never ends. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 13hSo, even though you have broken my heart yet again, I wanted to say, in another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 14hAnd as he stares into the sky, there are twice as many stars as usual. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 15hWhen Daddy comes in, he carries you to bed. Is there anything you feel like you could eat, Pokey? Anything at all? 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 15hI feel like something bad is going to happen to me. I feel like something bad has happened. It hasn't reached me yet but it's on its way. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 16hWorker bees can leave. Even drones can fly away. The Queen is their slave. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 16hand the universe said I love you because you are love. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 17hWithout pain, without sacrifice, we would have nothing. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 18hYour fate leads you right back to my arms. My body is your event horizon. Inescapable. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 18hIt may grow angry. Its basement may fill with churning acid like an empty stomach. And its gorge may rise as it asks itself, through clenched teeth, "what did I do wrong?" 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 19hYour existence is nothing but an echo of a dying god's screams. The unseen converges. Surrounds you. And it tightens like a noose. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 20hI'm afraid that I did something really stupid because I don't like myself. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 20hAnd that's why when I look into your eyes, it's the scariest feeling in the world... 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 21h"I don't know what I'm doing," I said, walking to a window. I poked the broken glass and pulled back. "But I think you might get it. Your family has been through a lot of pain, and mine hasn't." 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 21hThere's no point in worrying about those kids on feelings and intuition alone. 010
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 22hi think that number... i think it's actually pretty small. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 22hBut tonight he is alive and in the north field with his mother. It is a perfect summer evening: the moon rising over the orchard, the wind in the grass. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 23hAnd do I believe myself when I say the same things Almost every day That I will be different, I won't stay the same But I cling to what stands in my way 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 23hWithout pain, without sacrifice, we would have nothing. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 07/10/2026And that's why when I look into your eyes, it's the scariest feeling in the world... 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 07/10/2026Worker bees can leave. Even drones can fly away. The Queen is their slave. 000
A TRAGIC CLOWN. @lesserbells.bsky.social · 07/10/2026It can't have been a year already... It can't have been 5 years already... It can't have been 10 years already... 000
