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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 01/10/2026
virtual top surgery consultation is next week!! 🥹
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/09/2026
roommate made me this bracelet while I’m sick again- I am having a hard time talking due to sore throat and phlegm and I manage ‘gay???’
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 28/09/2026
soar throat and aching… how do I keep getting sick 🫩
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 26/09/2026
how this mfer driving in the Lightning McQueen driving simulator arcade game ( my body hurts ) no but I laughed so hard I think I’ve strengthened my abs
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 17/09/2026
A single visit from a mindless, lack of manors fucking insane friend of my roommate I am going through trauma flashbacks. Sunday evening when I was walking home from work, I’m turning the corner home and I see a black hooded person run AT ME from a white car. I run inside FAST- lock the door.-
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 14/09/2026
Kumoricon plans!! Friday: Yui Hirasawa with friends again and Chisato Nishikigi for photoshoot in evening with graffiti walls ( so excited for this ) Saturday: Killua and bestie as Alluka ( this is gonna be so cute ) Sunday: Castiel again probablyyyy
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 09/09/2026
and she’s not even kidding
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 08/09/2026
yeah I guess you could say it was crispy
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
at pax west, there was a piano player taking requests- my friends and I are dancing leisurely and suddenly the Aerith theme is playing, and then- we look to our right and the Final Fantasy producer and director are standing right beside me ( I was cosplaying Aerith ) and they’re LOOKING at me 🫪
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 06/09/2026
passport photo scary as fuck
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 06/09/2026
boss met with me this morning with a white envelope, my heart racing unsure what it could possibly be- inside there is $100 as yet another gift. Still, I am surprised by the love and family I have found, the support. Knowing I’m not only loved but seen. ‘My treat.’ She said with tears in her eyes.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
errbody loves taking pictures of me at this angle erm
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/08/2026
I got a $3 raise!! 🥺 ( I’m starting to become severely depressed but I have a loving community and work environment and I feel guilty for feeling depressed I want everything to stop changing, and if this is everything I ever wanted why does it feel like I don’t deserve it ) Tiffany Day reference lol
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 28/08/2026
It’s turned into stage 4 single cell sarcoma… home alone, what else can I do but cry? Just yesterday talking about her will, joking about her funeral that I promise to tell them all about our inside jokes during my speech. I don’t want her to get sick. I want her to get better and live her life.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 27/08/2026
Had a serious talk tonight, planning visit to Canada, all 4 of us as our last trip all together as roommates- talked about her will and who will get what. She will be moving out after November to get more intense care. To live life to the fullest if she has only 5 years left. Reality hurts.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 26/08/2026
It is stage 2 cancer and so far no sign of stopping of finding more tumors, yeah so why does cancer find its way to the people you care about the most?? just a fucking question. At least there is time, we know there is time to find every tumor and go into remission in 2 years.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 19/08/2026
I’m gonna fcking die laughing
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 19/08/2026
another tumor near her eye, and the surgeon has canceled the surgery twice now. I hate the fucking American healthcare system.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 18/08/2026
a lil bit of adventure, a 5 hours get away if you will
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 14/08/2026
do not listen to pheobe bridgers new album, specifically the song ‘still standing’ if you’re grieving… or do, idk man I started my day ( 1am ) listening to it and crying 🫩
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 10/08/2026
pictures I take and pictures they take I’m fcking crying
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 08/08/2026
my boss and coworker took me out to dinner last night and payed for everything. I have been a alter ego of myself to just keep going, the confident and strong one, but i felt vulnerable when their partner drove me home after I had a couple drinks and I just suddenly cried silently in the backseat.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
hmmm my roommates are starting to anger me, making comments like ‘oh now your thing 2.’ as they have started getting frustrated guests and health issues my roommate and dear friend is going through. As I’ve become ‘thing 2’ in their frustrations… since I’ve been right by their side the entire time??
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 31/07/2026
we have 6 guests coming to visit this month, but at what cost: if only under different circumstances
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 30/07/2026
please don’t take her too
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/07/2026
broke down at work, I don’t want to be told that she has a few months left to live- god please let it be stage 1 and her recovery be possible I’m genuinely so scared. I have to stay strong for her and for everyone. But It’s cancerous tumors that have spread- that will most likely come back. Fuck.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/07/2026
I did not sleep at all last night
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/07/2026
my roommate and best friend has cancer… I’m finna crash the fuck out why the fuck does the world give the brightest people lift altering, life taking illnesses. After my mom, I am scared to watch it happen again.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
Is it too woke of me to say that jimothee becoming a Seattle sensation is actually super not cool and cute as he is a direct result of global warming and animals getting disabilities due to lack of food, water, resources and living conditions worsening aha… yeah…
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
she’s just a babbbbbbyyyyyy ( 14 years old )
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 19/07/2026
I forget just how much has changed in so little time and yknow- I haven’t cried since moving states. No time to process, just going going going. When I am alone at night like this- and I actually start to process what has happened, still no tears come. In 8 months my entire life changed.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 16/07/2026
going to powwow after work tomorrow 🙂‍↕️✨ I’m gonna eat 4 pounds of fry bread.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 06/07/2026
when is it my turn to not live in fear, what are you afraid of? 🌹❄️ open.spotify.com/track/52abQE... #ffxiv #finalfantasy #himaflorian #originalcharacter
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 05/07/2026
got complimented on my scent while buying an iced matcha latte EHEHEHEH…. 🤪🤪🤪🤪
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
going to my first powwow in a few weeks with my boss and coworkers 🥹 so thankful to have found such a wonderful support and family. guhhhh will cry.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/06/2026
roommates took me to the beach last week while I had the energy to walk again, feeling lucky to have a found family that makes me feel scared to die.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 29/06/2026
yall got insomnia due to illness… yo take some robitussin.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 27/06/2026
I’m alive but I’m dead
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 23/06/2026
how are celebrities, people who are seeing hundreds of people all the time not getting sick so often and getting weakened immune systems. Not to mention many of them are already starving themselves making their immune systems weaker… just a thought while I am still sick with an ongoing infection 🫩
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 22/06/2026
how I be looking according to my roommate
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 22/06/2026
rashes on my face and body… oh my immune system is fcked
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 17/06/2026
high white blood cell count, infection and meningitis… what the fuck I am home after 2 bags of fluids and 3 different bags of liquid meds and a lumbar puncture procedure 🫩 I’m stable enough to be home but god- I feel awful for my roommate, staying with me until 4am and taking me home.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 16/06/2026
getting sick after work with no days off for 2 weeks back to back… was something I should have seen coming 🫩
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 08/06/2026
nonchalantly brushes hair back 📸: swotchnellie #tattoos #photography #modeling #washington #nonbinary
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 15/05/2026
me and my friends are in a state of mourning for the loss of Juniper, all of us knowing her within a short time. She was kind, smart, all of us queer and unafraid. I heard my roommate earth shattering cry last night at the news it was her. everyone misses you. why is this world so cruel.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 04/05/2026
I love you Seattle, you are my forever home ☁️🍃
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 04/05/2026
the way I was a blubbering mess in the movie theater during project Hail Mary when Grace is being forcibly taken away and downed with drugs- got me thinking about last year how terrified I too was, thinking I wasn’t brave enough to keep going. Yet here I am, I did what I believed was impossible.
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☁️ cas ☁️ @kyaupaya.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
got accepted by my dream tattoo artist in Seattle- which I now live in… appointment is set for December 8th- perfect gift for my birthday 🫶✨ ( flying doves and floral with flower petals flowing with the doves… meant to symbolize the loss of family member and flying away, spreading by my wings 🥹 )
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Good Smile Company @en.goodsmile.com · 23/04/2026
Preorders open now! Aniplex Lycoris Recoil Lycoris Recoil Chisato Nishikigi & Takina Inoue Spring Ver. Non-Scale Figure Presenting a figure based on the jacket illustration from the "Lycoris Recoil" TV anime Blu-ray and DVD release! Preorder: goodsmile.link/xvbyIJ #goodsmile
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TAiGA🕳️ @taigakuudou.bsky.social · 24/04/2026
「 帰ってもいいって 言ったのに 」 彩葉の上で寝ちゃうかぐや 3 #超かぐや姫 #月見ヤチヨ #酒寄彩葉 #illustration
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