iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

this is why i don't like to draw, anymore, too many sweats

neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

help, I've retweeted like 200 posts of #Jaadugar on my private account, and downloaded like 70 images, and took like 100 screenshots of the anime help

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 25/03/2025

Finished watching Scott pilgrim

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Oakley!! (MD Phase) @eyesofoak.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

HEY! Murder Drones people!! Give me your OCs, I’m gonna doodle them :] Told ya I’d do another one of these! Read the thread for a little more info <3 #murderdrones #murderdronesoc

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

hehe, accidentally had to see something related to the fanzine. fuck me. why. just a singular line or something on it to at least not have my brain not forget it and abuse me with it but that's over. I guess this brain is going to hurt me anyway.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

that came true, I'm not surprised, I hope more of my prophecies come true.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

guys give me md dtiy please.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

I don't need to see more posts about the fanzine my day is already stressed and ruined because of it.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

everyone in the quotes are so happy. expect for me, I'm just suffering, stressed and sad. would've said if I could do a single drawing or a line but I can't.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

I can already see the posts they're all excited, I'm not. why, must I be like this? I would've say, just a single line or little drawing but, I guess I can't do that.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

what did i tell ya, everyone is excited for the fanzine while i'm suffering here.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

No matter the learning material, no matter how they phrase it or show it visually this dumb fucking brain doesn't wanna learn.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

can't think of any hair, looking at references are useless to

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

giving up art, is getting more appealing everyday, why continue my stress because of the fanzine, my inability to improve and learn, etc?

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

Mei by MD strays and male J.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

just seeing people, who are younger or just a year older than me doing well at drawing is one of my ways to get demotivated.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

accidentally saw the MD fanzine account. day ruined and stressed for the rest of the day as warm please, just a small drawing for them to remove this stress, or just let me add a single line.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

96 days. haha, so much time to be useless and not improve.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

everyone else is more able. I'm less able than someone normal, a literal child can do better than me, they can do fucking shading, anatomy etc. were they drawing from the womb? I don't see any point to draw if I know I'm going to fail it anyway. god, maybe I am worthless and useless.

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LuLuYam➡️ LLY LIVE 🪳🌷 @luluyam.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

Normalize inconsistency in your art. Normalize not making every art piece super detailed and intricate. Normalize just creating art for the sake of it.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 15/11/2024

I don't want the fanzine to drop. I don't want to feel absolutely fucking stressed from it. I know. worse reason to fucking stressed but I am. just a little drawing please.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

demotivated. any art tips?

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 12/11/2024

want to make a new oc for funies and maybe to ignore the stress of the fanzine. but I fucking have aphantasia and being very indecisive.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

Cant think of what more to add

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

kota not understand what doing

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 03/11/2024

just a little drawing for the fanzine just a small one would be enough to satisfy my negativity but I can't. might let it grow.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

thank you for the random colours oc from 小红书

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

i dont have a future i dont want to continue my life i dont want to have my disadvantages for longer.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

is there a point for me to draw? It's just going to end up like everything else, failure.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 06/11/2024

There Are Decades Where Nothing Happens' and 'Weeks Where Decades Happen - Lenin

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 05/11/2024

I'm still bored. I don't know what to draw.

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 05/11/2024

I 'm bored Give me somethings to draw

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 03/11/2024

am I just a guiné pig that was used to seeing what would happen if they gave someone only disadvantages? if that's the case or not, I want to disappear, it might end my suffering and the disadvantages I have, I wouldn't be useless and worthless anymore just dead in a river no theory me fine..

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 03/11/2024

Maybe I'm a useless and worthless fuck. I don't even consider myself a "normal human" atp because of the amount of stuff I can't do unlike "normal people" everyone to normal people say something is "easy, simple, basic" but for me, it's "hard, impossible, complex". I don't want to contd this life

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neaba @kotsuni.bsky.social · 03/11/2024

I can't do anything about it anyway, my brain will not forget it. everyone else is probably excited when the fanzine comes out, and I'm here fucking crying to myself. watching small and big moots on it, while I'm here fucking crying.

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