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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 27/08/2025

Being autistic, in therapy, studying psychology and reading a paper on emotional regulation be like: 'Do neurotypical people really regulate their emotions without knowing all this? 😳😳'

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 22/08/2025

me: Would you look at that? A light Friday schedule - it's going to be a nice, gentle and productive day! a seemingly small disturbance: happens mind: flooded with emotions seismic changes in my life: triggered new trajectory: entered me: ...did I even blink?

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 20/08/2025

This will always bring me to tears.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

I've grown used to dreaming of my sister. Those meetings are always peaceful. Last night, with her death anniversary around the corner, I dreamt of my grandparents. It felt like a hotline to the deathworld. They lived in a quiet, faraway house - and somehow that image puts my mind at ease.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

After replying to a message I left unanswered for a few days: "Phew, they don't hate me. I'm back on track." Spoiler: I'm not. Never have been. There are still a dozen more unanswered messages - anywhere from three days to months old. Maybe I'm just built for 2-3 friends and I've hit the limit? 🥲

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

❌ "We're meeting on Friday, I'm free from 5." ✅ "We're meeting Friday, in front of my house. I'll be there at 5:20." ❌ "I'd love to talk, but I'm busy.” ✅ "I don't feel like talking - I prefer texting." ❌ "It's okay." OR (silence) ✅ "I'm upset. I need some time off, I'll get back to you."

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

I'm not saying the coolest thing about being hired by your partner is getting a say in your job title, but… no, wait, that *is* actually the coolest thing 😎 AI + Psych Insight Architect 😎

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

My therapist is a box of chocolates.

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Dani Donovan 👩🏻‍🎨 ADHD Comics @danidonovan.com · 21/07/2025

I have two modes: 1. Overthink everything and don’t act 2. Act impulsively and don’t think

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 19/07/2025

Why is the swimming pool entrance fee system so weird? 😵‍💫 You pay upfront for a full hour, but that includes time to: leave your coat and shoes, find the right locker room, change, shower… then you can swim. Afterwards, you reverse the whole process. It's never exactly 60 minutes, so...

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

You know what would be cool? If someone said: 'Look, Piotr, you're great at spotting when we break rules, make dumb decisions or work inefficiently. Can you be in charge of making sure we're not dishonest or just plain wrong? Oh, and we promise not to hate you for the negative feedback, either!'

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 17/07/2025

I don't think I'll ever fit in. I never have. In any hierarchical institution, I react intensely to injustice, negligence, broken procedures, arbitrariness. I've never stayed anywhere too long. When a powerful emotion surges, I have to uncork what I can't contain.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 16/07/2025

After yet another injustice at my uni, something snapped. I wrote a public review listing all my grievances — including serious breaches, like a lecturer giving us the answer key during the final exam. Will I get expelled? Leave voluntarily? Tone the review down? Your guess is as good as mine.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 16/07/2025

Okay, do you ever channel someone else — a real person, an actor, a fictional character — when you need to feel confident in real life? I sometimes do. Is it an #autistic thing or just a Piotr thing? It's like I have so little self-confidence at times that I need to borrow it from someone else.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 14/07/2025

Many online courses feel dumbed down. The "lecturer" apologises if a video's over 10 mins, says: "You don't need to understand this." Some uni courses are the same: you can pass without really learning 😏 I'm taking a harder, more satisfying path: "Do I get this?" "Can I explain it?" "Can I use it?"

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

🧊 ¿Tú también tienes una nevera mental donde dejas cosas para "más tarde"… y se te olvidan? Las mías no se me olvidan. Se convierten en mamuts congelados, mirándome con juicio desde sus bloques de hielo. Y yo no puedo hacer nada. Están congelados. Yo, paralizado. #adhd #tdah

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

Hey, Bluesky friends! What are you up to these days? 🤔 Here's my summer so far: - learning to swim (finally, with a trainer!) - loving my Wednesday morning TBC class - doing a Machine Learning course - reading up on motivation (my fav psych topic! 🤓) - still teaching English & Spanish

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 05/07/2025

"Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree, If mankind perished utterly; And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn, Would scarcely know that we were gone." Read it 20 years ago at school - felt nothing. Read it today and I'm having an existential crisis. 105 years later, we've learnt nothing.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

my therapist: you can always refuse when people ask you for something. no need to justify it. me: okay a month later him: tomorrow we're meeting online me: no him: sorry, but we have to me: nope, nuh-uh him: but I'm not asking me: 🎶 nah, to the ah, to the no, no, no 🎶

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 17/06/2025

humans: AI taking over? oh no, that would be the end of humanity. also humans: waging wars, killing each other, inciting hatred, lying through their teeth. no, please enlighten me: what's so great about humanity, for the world or for itself, that's so worth protecting from AI? I'll wait.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

My therapist, casually: By the way, Nonviolent Communication is actually pretty violent. Me: 😳 You can't just say that and leave! What a cliffhanger. He really knows how to end an episode of "This Therapist Is About to Turn Your Life Upside Down."

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

The world doesn't bend to our wishes. People don't obey our will. Even our bodies resist: energy dips, old habits return. Radical acceptance: things happen, people are people. Act accordingly. Don't linger in I-wish land.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 09/06/2025

someone: funny how some psych students seem to have picked their major just to fix their own issues, huh? me: yeah, I mean… could be 🤷 some time later me: what if we did our group project on dealing with emotional discomfort? also me: I have *major* problems with that

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 08/06/2025

My mum: Oh, Piotruś, I love these natural soaps, thank you! They smell beautiful, what a lovely set! Me: 🥰 My mum: It would be a shame to actually use them, wouldn't it? I'll hide them somewhere. I'm never going to use them 🥰 Me: 🥺 Not surprised at all. I'm my mother's son 🙈

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

On Monday evening, I spotted a huge wild boar while strolling through a park in Warsaw 😳 It wandered calmly, ignoring the people around. Last night, I saw it again - this time lying under a bush. I followed it for an hour as it roamed, dug up roots and scratched its rump on trees.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 27/05/2025

Who just fed all that into DeepResearch - Gallup Strengths, MBTI, Big Five traits, AuDHD diagnosis, my study curriculum, and a list of everything I'm into - and got back a 25-page strategy report so tailored it might turn me into the most effective and motivated version of myself? 😳

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 23/05/2025

me: okay, I'll try group projects this term group projects: no one knows what's going on, everyone waits for someone else to take initiative, constant plan changes, pointless video calls, horrifying ideas, endless drama me: okay, next term I'm saying my autism is back. no more group projects, pls

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

To: Dream Department at Brain Hi Team, Appreciate the hard work and all, but can we cool it with the s*x dreams about my exes? Also, the one about my empty bank account? Not fun. Bring back the classics: forgotten math test, stairs with missing steps, legs heavy like lead. Thanks, Piotr

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

Therapists: So, about autistics and theory of mind… Me: WAIT. I have theory of mind. I know people have their own thoughts, feelings etc. Therapists: Right. It's not that you don't know. It's that your brain gets stuck overthinking what they might think or feel… so you never actually reply.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 08/05/2025

It just struck me: impulse control is one thing, but another reason I make decisions impulsively might be that I struggle with the discomfort of not knowing. "Starting a new degree course? Yes or no? I need to know now!" I want to already know what course my life is taking.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 07/05/2025

My therapist: You overthink what others think. Just say what you want or don't want. It's simple. Me: “I don't want to meet up because I don't like you.” My therapist: Not that direct. Say you're busy. So how much directness is okay? 😵‍💫 And why is lying suddenly fine? 😭

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 07/05/2025

Living with a "now vs not now" brain means I either do something immediately or never. If I don't want to do it right now, it gets pushed into the void. Even if I add it to a list, the "right time" might never come. Some things just never get done. It's not ideal. I wish I knew how to fix it.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 29/04/2025

Got back to learning Python on my own. Had no idea where to (re)start, so I asked ChatGPT for a small project idea - and off I go, trying to code a simple Anki flashcard generator. My Python's still around A1/A2 level, but I hope to be able to build useful things by the end of my degree.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 25/04/2025

There's no topic where calm, rational discussion is impossible. What harms public discourse isn't differing opinions, but name-calling, mockery, dogmatism, strawman arguments and the refusal to entertain opposing ideas. If you never question your beliefs, you're no better than a flat earther.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Planning my first solo trip abroad. Bought train tickets - because I love trains and hate coaches. Paid an arm and a leg. Then I checked coach prices. Four times cheaper. Filed for a refund. So if you want to travel more eco-friendly, you pay four times more? 😳

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 21/04/2025

AI and Emotional Regulation I described a really complex situation to ChatGPT and said I felt confused. It replied that it made sense to feel that way, offering five reasons why it might be emotionally tough - and at least four of them were spot on. It's become a self-regulation tool for me too.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 16/04/2025

Things I Did Poorly (and It Was Still Worth It): The Antidote to Perfectionism Thread 🧵 1. I started a degree in Linguistics and didn't finish it — but it gave me a deep appreciation of language and led me to teaching, a job I love.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 15/04/2025

Being #AuDHD is like going from 'I'm on top of the world!' to 'Life is suddenly unbearable' – all within a few hours.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 12/04/2025

classmates: Wanna grab a coffee, walk in the park, then get lunch together between classes? It was fun last time, wasn't it? me: Yeah, it was. But today I need to cut down on stimuli, so you do you—I'll spend the break in the library with some books and decompress. Have fun! I've grown.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 09/04/2025

I always find "X viewed your profile" a bit spooky. What am I supposed to do with that info? 😏 If someone checks my profile every few days, are they trying to tell me something—knowing I'll notice?

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

One of the many problems with ADHD meds is what I call the 'Felix Felicis' phenomenon: if I take one when I'm at my lowest and then manage to do something really well — was it me, or was it the magic pill? Regular meds don't make you feel guilty. So why do these still feel like cheating?

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

Therapist: The book you bought is for therapists. How about you don't read it right now? Me: How about I do? (later in the same session) Therapist: What would you like as homework? Me: Maybe… reflecting on my needs? Therapist: Too hard. Pick something easier. Me: Reflecting on my needs it is.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 01/04/2025

My therapist: You think too much. Try thinking less. Also my therapist: Whenever you have a thought, ask, 'Where is this thought coming from?' Then, 'What is it actually telling me?' And finally, 'Are there any other thoughts I could have?' So... four times as much thinking, then? 🤔

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 01/04/2025

My biggest language milestones: English – chatting briefly with Suzanne Vega after her concert. Talking to my favourite singer filled me with joy 🥰 Spanish – calling a hospital in Tenerife about a friend's medical records. It wrecked my confidence and stressed the hell out of me 😵‍💫

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 29/03/2025

How it goes for me when I try a new technique in life: Stages: 1. 'What the heck, I'm not doing this.' 2. 'Okay... maybe I'll give it a try?' (some days later) 3. 'Oh! I just remembered - let's do it.' 4. 'Wow, it... actually worked?' 😳 5. I never do it again because I forget it even exists.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 27/03/2025

Therapist told me to schedule an hour a day just for worrying. I protested. He said I already worry way more than that, so at least this would be structured 😎 I hate how much that makes sense. Okay, let’s try.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 27/03/2025

me: I don't feel like doing anything. therapist: And that's proof of what? me: Excuse me? therapist: (repeats it) me: Proof? I think, therefore I am? I'm really literal. proof: If you use a weird turn of phrase, I will not get your point unless you SPELL it out. Not in a million years!

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

Living in the present — yes, but only if 'here and now' also includes: ➡️ lessons from the past, so I don't keep falling into the same hole ➡️ a vision of the future — realistic and finite — because tomorrow will come, and future-me needs current-me to act responsibly now.

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 20/03/2025

I'm tense all the time. The tension in my shoulders feels like a permanent feature. When I'm not tense: - when I'm drunk (not good for everything else though) - after a long massage (it's expensive) - when I'm at my best friend's or my parents' place - when I forget all the shoulds and have-tos

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Piotr | دانش @kolibabski.bsky.social · 19/03/2025

therapist: we need to start by learning about emotions me: i know emotions therapist: you being tense all the time is fear me: i don't know emotions

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