kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 16/10/2026It's 0:34 and I'm like "I just got a LETTER" "I HATE IT" (Durg also posted this gif in response)static.klipy.comSteve from Blue's Clues: Mail Time!ALT: Steve from Blue's Clues: Mail Time! 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 14/10/2026Note to doc "about how disturbing it is to imagine a certain someone being genuinely angry because of how sweet kind they are - and that if anything COULD upset them - it would generate rage in me - but the flipside being how me being genuinely angry disturbed because others know I try to be kind" 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 13/10/2026Sitting in the designated queer disaster position in my chair Having a cackle "Crackship Cenobite" 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 10/10/2026I think I'm being automodded for being TOO AMAZING AND ALSO RAW 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 10/10/2026It is now 1 30 and I feel like sketching Which we all know is not a good idea because my brain is full of drunken bees 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 10/10/2026Sitting here shitting as the cats scream for bathroom access 'THE MIDICHLORIANS ARE THE POWERHOUSE OF THE CELL' 010 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 08/10/2026Reminding myself that I need to celebrate the small victories... even if that's just "I got out of bed and put some of my shirts to soak in prewash to get out the blood and exudate". 010 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 08/10/2026"Reminding people you're there because you know how easily you're forgotten when you don't" as a maladaptive attachment style 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 07/10/2026Me trying to read though disability paperwork vs medmary eligibility and having a "oh ... I can't read" "I told the eye dr some days I just can't read and it is just inside my head and they were like... oh it's in your eyes now too" Explaining that... it's not brain fog but a brain curtain 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 07/10/2026And I quote - because I was about to just do some "wind down break games" > "Oh SWEET! FASHION!" 020 2
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 03/10/2026Starting the day with aural hallucinations paired with phantosmia... Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool This is fine Cool 010 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 03/10/2026Sitting with the 'oh hey people may /actually for real/ be put off by the fact that I will portray some topics that give the squick.' That I'm not doing this to tickle my pickle and there's not post art nut clarity - but that sometimes I will just not touch those topics either. 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 02/10/2026"Hey Doc! My titty bleed when I scratch it and when I take my blood sugar from the titty scratch it say it's high. SWEET TITS ~!" But no really - complications from uncontrolled diabetes is a leading cause of a bad time. 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 02/10/2026just learning about the cbd thc bans like... FFFF 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 30/09/2026On the train feeling like a level 8 shut in and wondering how bad my eyes have gotten or if it really is all in my head still. (that tbi life) 200 2
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 30/09/2026Listening to the cats have a morning tussle And my brain deciding it wants to blend Fallout Boy with Panic at the Disco Dr appointment at 1 Letters to request And the words looping "What a wonderful caricature of intimacy" 001 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 28/09/2026Playing with Kalapaint update and... I think this is going to be my "hey guys brushtest Tuesday" stream for the month except... every day If only for the way the color engine is developing and how my own color generation project in py is also coming together - even if it is just small swatches. 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 25/09/2026dat glob of hot glue precum mm mm melting thermoplastics 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 22/09/2026"Hey doc - why can I only use my powers for spite and shit posting?" 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 22/09/2026Me remembering that THANKS TO THE INTERNET - you can just drop things in your dr's mailbox... I mean... I know I shouldn't drop MEMES in there. I've been struggling ever since my psych not to just have my "I'm in crisis" "here's a meme to show my mood of how bad it is" but... I can just msg my dr. 110 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 21/09/2026How to write dr note that says if I get stressed I break out in full body peeling rashes and then my skin falls off? That it's not acne even though it looks like just acne at first... That this is why I don't leave the house... 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 19/09/2026"Hey doc I need a series of formal letters saying how hard it was for me to request this formal letter" "How hard was it to GET this formal letter written." 101 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 17/09/2026I see some comments sections and wonder... Do some people just spend the day going around being mean? Why would you do that? Why would you go around being mean? Don't be mean *talking to cats voice* Then again this is me and my... People coming across my peeps at random folk may go wtf? 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 16/09/2026Broke out my fiorocet because my back was killing me all day with a dribble of 3Chi 1.2k Comfortably Numb and back in that "time space travel feel" 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 13/09/2026Getting that yearly urge to just get some mushroom logs for the backyard The raccoons and poss bros and skunks would eat them though. 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 12/09/2026The chronic illness life Getting in the shower and singing 'this is the way we wash our wounds - gdi now they're oozin' 001 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 08/09/2026I know we have a fridge with misc leftovers but my heart calls for an obscene amount of chicken and mushrooms - heavy on the mushrooms in egg noodles 101 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 07/09/2026"what do you mean if I take my muscle relaxers my back and legs stop hurting for a little while. WOW" "What do you mean just take /naproxen/???" 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 06/09/2026The urge to play School Days Summer Days Cross Days Bad end VNs Then again... the OST has been clawing at a certain part of my brain and maybe like an earworm of an unfinished musical phrase it just needs to have the echo of the second half - the ending of completion to satisfy the hanging 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 06/09/2026It's my cat's birthday happy birthday to my cat. 010 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 06/09/2026What if it's the ick What if it's the funk of a thousand years 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 05/09/2026"You are a DUMB baby - and dumb babies don't get to crawl into plastic bags and suffocate themselves." a love letter to my cats. 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 04/09/2026maybe it's not too late for me to take up the drums I didn't have the mouth control or coordination for woodwinds until my twenties.. And I don't think I have the lungs for brass My heart is still in the strings But I've got some issues to beat out. 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 04/09/2026Still postictal Put on my Luka Teto list If I really am sending things through time - this is clearly how. 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 04/09/2026What do you mean other people don't write a script or notes before making a phonecall? 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 03/09/2026So I think I did that thing where I sad things to my psych that makes me get handed off to a new psych again... (where I make a statement that the words are so very heavy my tone of voice is lighthearted and then it hits you and since it was a telehealth I just saw the color drain from her face.) 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 01/09/2026"My God Kabi - you're such a disaster queer you can't even see their husband without feeling a twinge of the ick?" (re a babygay Kabi's early loves 'what do you mean they could tell"'s spouse - like... it's not JEALOUSY - it's the same kind of feeling I get with thinking about a certain ex...) 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 29/08/2026Qadishtx Tantrika Child of Baubo #clearcat 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 29/08/2026Seeing a vtuber on and wanting to go "GIRLFRIEND WHERE DO YOU SHOP???? THAT TOP" ... and then... wait... put a finger on my forehead between my eyes and press 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 29/08/2026Just took my gabapenities Just took my prozooo Just took my remamams got a big bottle of water Listenin to some Luka Luka Gonna make so much piss #KabiNO #KabiWTF 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 28/08/2026Magia Exedra with the "this is wrong this is wrong this is wrong" "but never forget Maguca is suffering" update.... #Magiposting #PMMM 110 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 26/08/2026I REALLY want to love Kalapaint BUT MY TABLET CHOKES ON THE PRESSURE SENSITIVITY it is stuck on all pressure all the time and I can't find the option to "reset" or "adjust" that ... sure there's a "pressure curve" but that means nothing when all that's reading is 0|1 and it's in mouse mode. 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 26/08/2026My periodic mental comparison of the lyrics of Hikari vs Simple and Clean Note RECALL of the opening refrain as a method of giving myself a kind of psychogenic response - namely frission. Now if I tell my neuro or epileptologist this... watch it turn into the grippy socks / neuropsych referral 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 25/08/2026Got the deshed brush out on Goobert and seeing the amount of fluff that came off of her & that Pickle is now starting to get his bigboy undercoat and no longer looks like a "ratty little runt baby" Urge to get felting and carding out and get to work is strong if not for my lack of tetanus booster 100 1
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 24/08/2026Etsy sending me emails like a sad fuckboy ex 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 21/08/2026Flipping the bottle cap off my medicine container realizing how often i say "FAAAA~~~DUUUUUUDE" when I'm upset 000 0
kabidlost.bsky.social @kabidlost.bsky.social · 18/08/2026'but do you know and understand the social impact Connie Chung had on a generation? " #KabiWTF @the Connie Chung rest area 100 1
