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Johnny Profane Âû

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One Voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Podcast, YouTube, Newsletter. Find Me on Social Media: linktr.ee/johnnyprofane1

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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
I’m autistic. Here’s what happened to us this week. A study of 2 million autistic Medicaid enrollees found life expectancy of 64.9 yrs. 13.8 yrs below U.S. average. Plus 21 more stories. johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/divergent-... #Autism #ActuallyAutistic #DisabilityRights #Neurodivergent
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Divergent Times — Week of September 9–16, 2026
News Briefing: One World. Divergent Minds.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
I’m autistic. Here’s what happened to us this week. A study of 2 million autistic Medicaid enrollees found life expectancy of 64.9 yrs. 13.8 yrs below U.S. average. Plus 21 more stories. johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/divergent-... #Autism #ActuallyAutistic #DisabilityRights #Neurodivergent
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Divergent Times — Week of September 9–16, 2026
News Briefing: One World. Divergent Minds.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 11/09/2026
Autistic readers see… what's really going on. The quiet part. The words no one says out loud. I almost missed it. In school. In my life. No paywall. Just the story… free. autisticaf.me/2026/08/28/m... Medium & Substack below. #ActuallyAutistic #Psychology #MentalHealth #Education #Neurodivergent
Cover graphic for “Autistic Noir: “Maybe Genius Lies Elsewhere”: Autistic Me, Theo & School, Pt 1” Black background with gray and red text above a fragmented black-and-white close-up of a person’s eyes beneath a hat brim; “Frag from the Raw Autobiography” appears at the bottom.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 09/09/2026
You're not broken. The System is. You already know that. Here's one autistic life giving it words... Follow my raw journey from crushing middle-school trauma to the explosive joy of self-guided learning. The education machine missed my genius. Maybe it missed yours, too. Part 2 of a series.
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Autistic Me, Theo, School… and Genius, Pt 2
You're not broken. The System is. You already know that. Here's one autistic life giving it words... Follow my raw journey from crushing middle-school trauma to the explosive joy of self-guided learning. The education machine missed my genius. Maybe it missed yours, too.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 03/09/2026
I'm autistic. Here's what happened to us this week. - Alleged chronic neglect. The company billed $27.8 million for 16 clients. What does the fight for support look like where you live? johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/divergent-... #MentalHealth #Psychology #DisabilityRights #Neurodivergent
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Divergent Times — August 27–September 2, 2026
News Briefing: One World. Divergent Minds.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/09/2026
Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head... in my autistic time. Deadlines. Dread. Lost jobs. Hyperfocus. And the strange truth that time doesn’t pass for me. It feels. An autobiographical fragment from the upcoming book, Autistic Noir.
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Every clock is a handgun in my autistic time
Every clock is a handgun in my autistic time. This is my raw, late-diagnosed autistic elder’s reckoning with deadlines, dread, hyperfocus, lost jobs... and a world built around punch clocks, not feeling. You see, time doesn’t pass for me. It feels.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/09/2026
School wasn’t preparation for work. For this autistic kid, it was the job: clock in, perform, conform, carry it home. Here’s a short, spoken performance of “For This Autistic Elder, School Was a F***ing Job.”
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For This Autistic Elder, School Was a F***ing Job
For this autistic as a kid, school wasn’t preparation for a job. It WAS the job: clock in, perform, conform, and carry it home. A blunt autobiographical fragment about school, work, disability, and the Man’s rules that never seem to end.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 28/08/2026
School was a place to escape… from. Maybe you were the autistic kid tat school misread, Or the adult still carrying that classroom around. This one's for you. A story about shame, survival, Theo, and the possibility that genius lives elsewhere. Read it here:
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“Maybe Genius Lies Elsewhere”: Autistic Me, Theo & School, Pt 1
A haiku got me branded a cheat. A homeless psych-dropout named Theo got me branded... maybe genius. Autistic, ADHD, and done trusting school to measure either. Frag 10 of my raw autobiography asks: what if genius never lived in a classroom at all?
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 19/08/2026
I’m autistic. Here’s what happened to us this week. Feds close the comment window on a 336-page autism research plan. Rx for leucovorin rose 46% after White House autism claims. 6 more stories. #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent #MentalHealth johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/divergent-...
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Divergent Times — August 13–19, 2026
News Briefing: One World. Divergent Minds.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 18/08/2026
For autistic people, and the people thoughtful enough to listen to us: eye contact can mean panic, pain, sensory overload, even disappearance. I explain what it feels like from inside. Read “What’s the Autistic Thing with Eye Contact?”
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What’s the Autistic “Thing” with Eye Contact?
I can’t hold eye contact without panic, pain, and sometimes losing myself. This isn’t an autistic “glitch” to train away. It’s my lived reality, and a plea to stop demanding eye contact from autistic people.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 13/08/2026
Tips? Input? Local story that hasn't made the news? Drop me a DM. Or johnnyprofane1@gmail.com... With your help, I'd love to expand this resource. Add global stories.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 12/08/2026
“These stories may look separate. They are not.” I’m following these connections. These patterns. That is the work of Divergent Times. #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #MentalHealth #Psychology johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/divergent-...
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Divergent Times — August 6–12, 2026
News Briefing: One World. Divergent Minds.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 03/08/2026
From Seven of Nine to Rose Nyland, media relies on stereotypes. Non-autistic portrayals are just tourism on the cheap. As a late-diagnosed auDHD author, I explore pop culture icons and explain why you can't act our lived experience. #ActuallyAutistic #MentalHealth #Psychology #Culture #Television
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Betty White, Seven of Nine and Rain Man Walk into this Bar…
From Seven of Nine to Rose Nyland, media relies on stereotypes. Non-autistic portrayals are just tourism on the cheap. As a late-diagnosed auDHD author, I explore pop culture icons. and explain why you can't act us. Without being us.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 27/07/2026
I wade through the neurodivergent news so you don't have to scroll through all of it. DOJ's rollback, a fatal police shooting, a nonverbal boy still missing in Calgary, quiet policy shifts nobody's flagging. Curated, fact-checked, unbiased. New on Divergent Times.
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Divergent Times: Sunday, July 26, 2026
I read the neurodivergent news so you don't have to scroll through all of it. DOJ's rollback, a fatal police shooting, a nonverbal boy still missing in Calgary, and quiet policy shifts nobody's flagging. Curated, fact-checked, unbiased. Would you want this delivered regularly?
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 21/07/2026
They called my autism "immaturity." Missed every red flag. The Treatment Funhouse. I explore trauma, the medical model, the suffocating mask of “personality,” & the wild ride of late-diagnosed auDHD. autisticaf.me/2026/07/21/autistic-n…
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Autistic Noir: They Called It “Immaturity.” They Missed Every Red Flag
In the first episode of Season 7 of AutisticAF Out Loud, Johnny Profane uses the metaphor of a horror-themed funhouse to depict the struggles faced by autistic individuals within the medical system. He reflects on personal trauma, the challenges of diagnosis, and the quest for joy despite adversity. The narrative highlights the importance of understanding and embracing neurodiversity.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 14/07/2026
Coming Fall 2026. Excerpts free... AutisticAF.me/the-book #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #MentalHealth
Book cover for "Autistic Noir: My Life Is My Art — An Autobiography. Autistic AF." by Johnny Profane Âû. Dark background with bold white and red title text. Below, a fragmented black-and-white collage of close-up eyes and a person in a knit cap facing a forest, evoking a noir, introspective mood. Tagline reads: "Built frag by frag. Just like I lived it... since 1953."
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax"... for navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory overload. Here’s why working for someone else costs neurodivergent professionals far too much.
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When Working For Someone Else… “Costs” Too Much.
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax" navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory overload. Here’s why working for someone else costs neurodivergent professionals far too much.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
What's the real cost of a corporate career if you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax." Navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules & burnout. Here’s how this cost this #neurodivergent far too much. #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD autisticaf.me/2026/07/02/w...
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When Working For Someone Else… “Costs” Too Much.
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal “Autistic Tax” navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory ov…
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
What's the real cost of a corporate career if you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax." Navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules & burnout. Here’s how this cost this #neurodivergent far too much. #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD autisticaf.me/2026/07/02/w...
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When Working For Someone Else… “Costs” Too Much.
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal “Autistic Tax” navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory ov…
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax"... for navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory overload. Here’s why working for someone else costs neurodivergent professionals far too much.
autisticaf.me
When Working For Someone Else… “Costs” Too Much.
What is the real cost of a corporate career when you’re autistic? I billed like a VP but paid a brutal "Autistic Tax" navigating a corporate shark tank of unwritten rules and sensory overload. Here’s why working for someone else costs neurodivergent professionals far too much.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 26/06/2026
NEURODIVERGENT MANSIONS in my mind are many caverns pieces of me, hidden within... well, damn near most of em. I find memories every day i never knew... I had yet that's me, smiling at me from every damn one of em. #ActuallyAutistic #ND #Neurodivergent
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 20/06/2026
How I Became an Autistic Performer at 4… Then Acted My Life I performed for control. When they’re laughing… you ain’t in trouble." Autistic masking isn't hiding. It was my desperate stage act for safety. Read my raw truth. Trading authenticity for applause. The exhausting reality of lifelong…
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How I Became an Autistic Performer at 4… Then Acted My Life
I performed for control. When they’re laughing… you ain’t in trouble." Autistic masking isn't hiding. It was my desperate stage act for safety. Read my raw truth. Trading authenticity for applause. The exhausting reality of lifelong cosplay. And the moments of joy along the way for this late-diagnosed autistic elder. I’m writing a memoir… out loud. Building a book. Fragment by fragment.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 20/06/2026
How I Became an Autistic Performer at 4… Then Acted My Life I performed for control. When they’re laughing… you ain’t in trouble." Autistic masking isn't hiding. It was my desperate stage act for safety. Read my raw truth. Trading authenticity for applause. The exhausting reality of lifelong…
autisticaf.me
How I Became an Autistic Performer at 4… Then Acted My Life
I performed for control. When they’re laughing… you ain’t in trouble." Autistic masking isn't hiding. It was my desperate stage act for safety. Read my raw truth. Trading authenticity for applause. The exhausting reality of lifelong cosplay. And the moments of joy along the way for this late-diagnosed autistic elder. I’m writing a memoir… out loud. Building a book. Fragment by fragment.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 19/06/2026
I Don’t Think I Had a “Personality” as an Autistic Kid I was busy finding Infinity in a burnt-off ant leg... I’m writing an autobiography… out loud. Frag by frag. Just like I lived it. This one brings home the stakes. Read all the frags... free... No paywall. No sub. autisticaf.me/the-book
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I Don’t Think I Had a “Personality” as an Autistic Kid
I was busy finding Infinity in a burnt-off ant leg... Author Johnny Profane  I’m writing an autobiography… out loud. Building a book. Fragment by fragment. Just like I lived it. This one brings home the stakes. The moments of joy along the way… that draw a line under what could have been. Not if they fixed me. But maybe what all of our children…
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 14/06/2026
Iran Peace Deal... my ass.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 14/06/2026
Yeah. SURE we have a deal. SURE Vance is going to Switzerland to sign it. And 9F COURSE Netanyahu will take one for the team. On no timeline I'll ever exist on. In any universe.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 14/06/2026
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 13/06/2026
@clc1905.bsky.social may I drop you a DM?
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 12/06/2026
For #Medium readers who trust raw truth… over medical models. This autistic kid wore a costume. Forced to everywhere. By a world that couldn’t handle… my nature. Still shedding that hazmat suit? I wrote it so me & you feel seen. Here: medium.com/artfullyauti... #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent
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I Don’t Think I Had a “Personality” as an Autistic Kid
I was busy finding Infinity in a burnt-off ant leg…
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 12/06/2026
For #Medium readers who trust raw truth… over medical models. This autistic kid wore a costume. Forced to everywhere. By a world that couldn’t handle… my nature. Still shedding that hazmat suit? I wrote it so me & you feel seen. Here: medium.com/artfullyauti... #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent
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I Don’t Think I Had a “Personality” as an Autistic Kid
I was busy finding Infinity in a burnt-off ant leg…
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 07/06/2026
Moments of joy "among the garbage and the flowers." That’s how I tell my story. Fragment 4 is out. A raw look at my 1972 crash, trauma & a late autism diagnosis at 63. What does the system do to an 19yo who can't explain why? Free read. If this lands for you, I'd love to know.
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The Autistic Treatment Funhouse, Room of Exams
In 1972, a traumatic car crash triggered my harrowing mental health journey. Decades before a late autism and alexithymia diagnosis at 63, I couldn't explain my feelings... much less why. Read this raw, unfiltered autobiography fragment to explore the depths of trauma, resilience, and the survival of my autistic joys.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
This one is #Medium readers' deep. Someone DM'd me I had imposter syndrome. Offered a book. Me autistic, 73, said "I don't have a syndrome of any kind." Can't work. Can't think. Can't stop replaying. Days. Free. johnnyprofane1.medium.com/when-kind-wo... #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #AutisticElder
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
What happens when you're trapped in the medical model of autism for decades? Step into the horror-themed funhouse. I'm an autistic elder sharing my raw, unfiltered truth of surviving a system built for a different mind... fragment by fragment. Read the real story.
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Welcome to the Autism Treatment Funhouse
What happens when you're trapped in the medical model of autism for decades? Step into the horror-themed funhouse. I'm an autistic elder sharing my raw, unfiltered truth of surviving a system built for a different mind... fragment by fragment. Read the real story.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
What happens when an autistic "alien" uses books and movies to decode human behavior? I got a brutal reality check. In this raw memoir fragment, I explore hyperlexia, cultural gatekeeping from Oliver Stone to Harper Lee, and my desperate attempts at survival. Read Fragment 2 of my autobiography.
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I took you at your word. It was a lie. Culture vs my autistic life.
What happens when an autistic "alien" uses books and movies to decode human behavior? I got a brutal reality check. In this raw memoir fragment, I explore hyperlexia, cultural gatekeeping from Oliver Stone to Harper Lee, and my desperate attempts at survival. Read Fragment 2 of my autobiography, coming Fall 2026.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
What happens when an autistic "alien" uses books and movies to decode human behavior? I got a brutal reality check. In this raw memoir fragment, I explore hyperlexia, cultural gatekeeping from Oliver Stone to Harper Lee, and my desperate attempts at survival. Read Fragment 2 of my autobiography.
autisticaf.wordpress.com
I took you at your word. It was a lie. Culture vs my autistic life.
What happens when an autistic "alien" uses books and movies to decode human behavior? I got a brutal reality check. In this raw memoir fragment, I explore hyperlexia, cultural gatekeeping from Oliver Stone to Harper Lee, and my desperate attempts at survival. Read Fragment 2 of my autobiography, coming Fall 2026.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
What happens when you're trapped in the medical model of autism for decades? Step into the horror-themed funhouse. I'm an autistic elder sharing my raw, unfiltered truth of surviving a system built for a different mind... fragment by fragment. Read the real story.
autisticaf.wordpress.com
Welcome to the Autism Treatment Funhouse
What happens when you're trapped in the medical model of autism for decades? Step into the horror-themed funhouse. I'm an autistic elder sharing my raw, unfiltered truth of surviving a system built for a different mind... fragment by fragment. Read the real story.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 31/05/2026
This one is #Medium readers' deep. Someone DM'd me I had imposter syndrome. Offered a book. Me autistic, 73, said "I don't have a syndrome of any kind." Can't work. Can't think. Can't stop replaying. Days. Free. johnnyprofane1.medium.com/when-kind-wo... #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #AutisticElder
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 29/05/2026
Since 2019 I’ve published a quarter of a million words. Over half the size of the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Gotta be a pony somewhere in that shit. Working on a book. Fall 2026. About freaking time. #ActuallyAutistic #auDHD #Neurodivergent
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
They called it autistic treatment. Felt like a funhouse. With a Horror theme. #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
They called it autistic treatment. Felt like a funhouse. With a Horror theme. #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 29/05/2026
Since 2019 I’ve published a quarter of a million words. Over half the size of the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Gotta be a pony somewhere in that shit. Working on a book. Fall 2026. About freaking time. #ActuallyAutistic #auDHD #Neurodivergent
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 29/05/2026
#Medium readers expect new angles. They called it autistic treatment. Felt like a funhouse. 23 mirrored rooms. Room 1. A guy with a blowtorch. Smiles. Thin. Cold. "Trust me. Gonna change your life." 22 rooms left. Everybody talks about the Meds Room. medium.com/artfullyauti... #ActuallyAutistic
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 16/05/2026
Trip down Memory Lane. Back when Kimmie & me we're gonna be Country Punk stars. Lol www.facebook.com/share/v/14Yz...
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 16/05/2026
A personal narrative about navigating condescension as an autistic professional. Experiences of "benevolent ableism," highlighting the emotional turmoil caused by seemingly kind but patronizing interactions. The piece advocates for recognizing these subtle forms of discrimination.
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When “Kind” Words… Hurt: An Autistic Elder on Microaggressions
The author shares a personal narrative about navigating condescension as an autistic professional. They describe experiences of "benevolent ableism," highlighting the emotional turmoil caused by seemingly kind but patronizing interactions. The piece advocates for recognizing these subtle forms of discrimination and emphasizes the importance of honoring one's limits to avoid further harm.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 11/05/2026
Wanna run this by y'all... before publishing. Could really use your thoughts. Delicate territory to navigate... #Neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic
The Cruelest Knife Leaves No Scar
You never feel the cruelest knife
Poison-tipped with a pat on the head
A smugly… gentle… smile
Words so softly, warmly… said.

He only said…
“You’re flourishing. 
Even with autism. 
Good on you.”

Judgment is like napalm
Dropped benignly… safely… from on high
Burning invisibly… under my skin.

She casually said… 
“You got imposter syndrome. 
I got this book…?”

Or some radiant dirty bomb
Parachuting slyly… tenderly…
Silently melting my guts inside.

The manual simply read…
“Neurodivergents 
think outside the box.
That makes them perfect… 
for certain tasks.”

Leaving a foul smell in the air
Mustard gas masquerading…
Like piercing gas-station incense
Blindingly labelled, “Stay Calm.”

Stealth Weapons of Mass Humiliation
Or casual toxic caring
Preening in plain sight
Don't breed even sullen gratitude 
Just resentment. Rebellion. 
Sometimes? 
The worship of tyrants. 

You never feel the cruelest knife
No, Not right away.
A slice so sharp it leaves no scar
So weird… that instant shapes my life.
The Cruelest Knife Leaves No Scar
You never feel the cruelest knife
Poison-tipped with a pat on the head
A smugly… gentle… smile
Words so softly, warmly… said.

He only said…
“You’re flourishing. 
Even with autism. 
Good on you.”

Judgment is like napalm
Dropped benignly… safely… from on high
Burning invisibly… under my skin.

She casually said… 
“You got imposter syndrome. 
I got this book…?”

Or some radiant dirty bomb
Parachuting slyly… tenderly…
Silently melting my guts inside.

The manual simply read…
“Neurodivergents 
think outside the box.
That makes them perfect… 
for certain tasks.”

Leaving a foul smell in the air
Mustard gas masquerading…
Like piercing gas-station incense
Blindingly labelled, “Stay Calm.”

Stealth Weapons of Mass Humiliation
Or casual toxic caring
Preening in plain sight
Don't breed even sullen gratitude 
Just resentment. Rebellion. 
Sometimes? 
The worship of tyrants. 

You never feel the cruelest knife
No, Not right away.
A slice so sharp it leaves no scar
So weird… that instant shapes my life.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 11/05/2026
Wanna run this by y'all... before publishing. Could really use your thoughts. Delicate territory to navigate... #Neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic
The Cruelest Knife Leaves No Scar
You never feel the cruelest knife
Poison-tipped with a pat on the head
A smugly… gentle… smile
Words so softly, warmly… said.

He only said…
“You’re flourishing. 
Even with autism. 
Good on you.”

Judgment is like napalm
Dropped benignly… safely… from on high
Burning invisibly… under my skin.

She casually said… 
“You got imposter syndrome. 
I got this book…?”

Or some radiant dirty bomb
Parachuting slyly… tenderly…
Silently melting my guts inside.

The manual simply read…
“Neurodivergents 
think outside the box.
That makes them perfect… 
for certain tasks.”

Leaving a foul smell in the air
Mustard gas masquerading…
Like piercing gas-station incense
Blindingly labelled, “Stay Calm.”

Stealth Weapons of Mass Humiliation
Or casual toxic caring
Preening in plain sight
Don't breed even sullen gratitude 
Just resentment. Rebellion. 
Sometimes? 
The worship of tyrants. 

You never feel the cruelest knife
No, Not right away.
A slice so sharp it leaves no scar
So weird… that instant shapes my life.
The Cruelest Knife Leaves No Scar
You never feel the cruelest knife
Poison-tipped with a pat on the head
A smugly… gentle… smile
Words so softly, warmly… said.

He only said…
“You’re flourishing. 
Even with autism. 
Good on you.”

Judgment is like napalm
Dropped benignly… safely… from on high
Burning invisibly… under my skin.

She casually said… 
“You got imposter syndrome. 
I got this book…?”

Or some radiant dirty bomb
Parachuting slyly… tenderly…
Silently melting my guts inside.

The manual simply read…
“Neurodivergents 
think outside the box.
That makes them perfect… 
for certain tasks.”

Leaving a foul smell in the air
Mustard gas masquerading…
Like piercing gas-station incense
Blindingly labelled, “Stay Calm.”

Stealth Weapons of Mass Humiliation
Or casual toxic caring
Preening in plain sight
Don't breed even sullen gratitude 
Just resentment. Rebellion. 
Sometimes? 
The worship of tyrants. 

You never feel the cruelest knife
No, Not right away.
A slice so sharp it leaves no scar
So weird… that instant shapes my life.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 09/05/2026
Fair warning... this one's a little rawer than usual for me. A comet, a cult, and a family card game in an ice storm. Family trauma, religious themes, substances, a few sharp words. New piece on the patterns I couldn't name until now.
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Family, God & Vodka Neat…? My Autistic Elder’s Truth
An autistic elder reflects on family, religion, and the dynamics of control. Set against a 1997–98 winter of the Hale-Bopp comet, the Heaven's Gate cult, and an ice storm that trapped his family for three days. A raw personal piece exploring neurodivergent lived experience, religious trauma, and the unspoken rules that govern family gatherings.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 09/05/2026
Fair warning... this one's a little rawer than usual for me. A comet, a cult, and a family card game in an ice storm. Family trauma, religious themes, substances, a few sharp words. New piece on the patterns I couldn't name until now.
autisticaf.wordpress.com
Family, God & Vodka Neat…? My Autistic Elder’s Truth
An autistic elder reflects on family, religion, and the dynamics of control. Set against a 1997–98 winter of the Hale-Bopp comet, the Heaven's Gate cult, and an ice storm that trapped his family for three days. A raw personal piece exploring neurodivergent lived experience, religious trauma, and the unspoken rules that govern family gatherings.
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Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 09/05/2026
This clip is from a hybrid piece. In my mind it’s a movie. Or maybe better yet… a streaming mini-series. You know, scenes, background music, jump cuts. Starts with a teaser, then the episode, then some theme music to close. Link to full piece in comment. #ActuallyAutistic #Neurodivergent
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Reposted by Johnny Profane Âû
Johnny Profane Âû @johnnyprofane1.bsky.social · 08/05/2026
Took 8 weeks to face the mic. Worth it. Hale-Bopp. Heaven's Gate. My mother's table. The Ice Storm of '98. Vodka, neat. One autistic elder's truth about faith, control, family. ⚠️ raw language, substance use, cult references johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/family-god... #ActuallyAutistic
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