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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 18/12/2025

i know my shit is bad because for the last four years my therapist has concluded our last session of the year, right before the festive break and her sorely deserved holiday period, by telling me i can get in touch with her on her damn break if i need to (i would absolutely never do this dw)

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 16/12/2025

depression so bad i got 8 inches off my hair and now my mate and i have coined a new cut

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 14/12/2025

today: 10am sister’s masters graduation, 2pm meet at dad’s house to have our 14-y-o family dog put down, 5pm drive to cemetery for our dead mum’s birthday. tmrw is dad’s oncological review at which we anticipate bad news. idk man i can’t keep living like this. like lol but also. it ain’t good

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 11/12/2025

chronic sinus problems are so dumb. yeah what if every time you get a minor cold or seasonal allergy your face swells and you get a headache so bad you’re constantly nauseous and sometimes your eardrum just perforates spontaneously. also you get a cough that lasts for weeks. nothing fixes it btw

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

once every two years i have to try a milk coffee because im tempted by the devil and then reliably i remember i fucking hate that shit and have been lactose intolerant since birth. it doesn’t matter if it’s oat milk it’s still foul to me. but i keep trying

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

photos from my trail run today :-)

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 24/10/2025

the amount of free piss i get on account of having a stunningly gorgeous stumpy-legged rescue labrador with the temperament of a stoned middle-aged bass player is crazy

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 24/10/2025

a new bar has opened in marysville which is huge + i do want to support it but my loyalty is to the town’s only pub where i can walk in wearing bike shorts, a parka and hiking shoes, sit with my laptop knocking out a freelance job, and an old-timer will inevitably buy me a wine bc he loves marth

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

sorry for party rocking (being mentally ill on substack once again) open.substack.com/pub/jennifer...

open.substack.com

It's only stuff

...and other lies I tell myself, in a particularly melancholy dispatch

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

snake is actually a cunt ass sequence and on a good day i like it a lot….feels good to stretch out that side body. on a bad day however im lucky not to eat shit and am reminded of my feeble abdominal muscles

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

finishing a reformer class with snake, walking home in the pouring rain before preparing for my first therapy session in five weeks……oh i just KNOW im about to have a deranged snotty hiccuping sob in the next 12 hours

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

you’re right and i love the west!!! but if im here for work im usually in or near the CBD :( and rn im tourguiding family around the Big Sights :( c’est la vie

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

i also had an excellent and very charming meal last night to be fair. i just come here once a year and remember how this city’s pub culture is absolutely Of Hell

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

sydney is crazy bc you can go from a truly transcendant view of a sunset pink-tinted opera house or swim at a STUNNING surf beach right in the city. then you walk into an average/safe-looking pub and have the worst counter meal of your life surrounded by men wearing chinos with loafers and no socks

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 10/10/2025

this man once did a beer bong with wine. whenever he sees girls scheming he says “man, i LOVE witches” with utter reverence. he refuses to use streaming services. when he wants to compliment me he says “jenn, you’re a fuckin MATRIARCH. we love you” there’s no challenge to which he will not rise

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 10/10/2025

my sis took our visiting american fam to drag bingo last night and the queen hosting, on learning they were from the US, asked them to say ‘cunt’ thinking they’d be uncomfortable. joke’s on them because dave (6’3” stoner, bass player and retired special ed teacher) immediately intoned “CUNT”

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

last night we were at the same function and ended up seated at opposite ends of the table and at the end of the evening she hugged me outside the pub and said “we didn’t even get to talk!” and another mate said “oh we could have swapped seats!” and tasha was like “it’s fine we’re securely attached”

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

jk i love her so much and it was up there with top 5 sweetest/most deranged things she’s ever said to me along with “im scared your therapist is going to tell you to stop hanging out with me” (à propos of literally nothing) and “ferrante’s lila makes me think of you”

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

my bestie and i walking our dogs along the river and she asks me for my residency dates so she can put them in her ical and then she puts her phone away, turns to me and says, with tears in her eyes, “i think im gonna be a lot happier next year when you’re home more”. the theatrics on this bitch

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

round-up of best dad messages from this week. personal highlights for me include him asking me whether he has cornstarch in his house (???) + him separating the art and the artist (snoop) in a g chat w our minnesotan fam, who are currently visiting

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 28/09/2025

‘miserly’ is a very apt word. i skimmed a few reviews yesterday and their tone was so arch and superior. what must it be like to make wild declarative statements with unearned confidence! ! !

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

i guess im just thinkin about the oft-espoused notion that reading engenders empathy and how there truly is uh. no hope for us. anyways!

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

i don’t know this person from a bag of beans btw; i only became aware of her when seated in front of her, as she loudly introduced herself by first name to another audience member. later i checked out a few of her reviews and promptly forgot about the blog thereafter

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

does a blog qualify as criticism? idk but what i will tell you is that it’s dire out there in auslit

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

same lady has positively reviewed the recent essay collection centring perspectives of jewish women post-october 7 2023 despite only having read the first two pieces contained therein. readers of her blog shouldn’t presume to know her opinion on ‘the situation in the middle east’ lol

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

thinkin about a certain traditional blog-based book reviewer with a decent if homogenous following, in front of whom i once sat in the audience of a regional lit festival, and who loudly declared ‘i don’t read books about drug addicts’

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

martha was sick of everyone’s nonsense and ready for BED

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 16/09/2025

standing naked in the bathroom using my ironing board as a standing desk, filling out a visa application on my laptop while i wait for my (head) conditioning treatment and (bush) hair removal cream to take effect…..has anyone ever multitasked quite like this? i sincerely doubt it x

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 15/09/2025

what point of caregiving/parental illness is it when you walk past a smear of blood on a wall and go huh. then find the wettex to scrub it off without further interrogation of where it came from

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 13/09/2025

at dad’s making congee for dinner and he’s standing at the bench reading paragraphs from a profile on lisa mccune for reasons i still haven’t established

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

the thing abt martha is that i adopted her when she was 18 months old, she’s now four, and never once has she been what u would call an active dog….she has stoner energy. she even blinks slowly. so weight loss is a real challenge u see

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

vet is obsessed with martha but said we need to cut back on her food (i already feed her less than the recommended amount of weight-control kibble) :( but she was also like “all my animals are overweight so you can ignore me if you want. she’s just perfect” we love a body-neutral diva

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/09/2025

my friend stayed in my flat while i was away and i left her a minibar w some booze, snacks, eye masks, bath salts, coffee, a single joint and some loose ativan. and when i got home today she had left me (and martha) a minibar of my own 🥲

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/09/2025

im lucky enough to be in a longer-term rental situation - been here since 2019 - and whenever i come home after being away it feels so peaceful and good to be back despite its tiny proportions, bad insulation and old-building quirks. i love my little nest

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 20/08/2025

normal sexy and mentally healthy woman who finally worked out the structure of her fuckass novel after three (3) (drei) years

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

this, from the brain of perfect genius @radiomoderation.bsky.social , whips, as one would expect

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

unfortunately nothing tastes like a cigarette tenderly rolled by one of your oldest mates which you rip while having a conversation so long and involved that you had to keep pausing to re-light it. also it’s a warm sunday afternoon and you’ve had one (1) beer

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

i, laying on the grass in the sun, asked my friend if i could bum a cig (i bought him a pouch yesterday so im only HALF-bumming) and he kissed my forehead and went ‘ugh i thought you’d never ask! every one i rolled this whole day i was thinking, i HOPE she’ll have one with me’ 🥰🥲

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

the exercise names are pretty universal! and a lot of the other stuff (foot positions etc) is easy enough to translate - feet in ‘pilates v’ and so on. plus a lot of crossover with ballet vocab (plié/tendu/développé). i did get lost when the teacher was describing underarm musculature lol

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

hi everyone I am here to report that I went to a french reformer pilates class because im insufferable and at the end everyone spontaneously clapped for themselves which was actually kind of sweet lol

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

arriving at heathrow on a friday night after a 25-hour plane journey…. too tired to see friends so instead i just slammed the treadmill at incrementally increasing speeds while watching CNN until my vision went blurry. now im drinking a cold beer and eating a very grim hotel salad. la dolce vita 🩵

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/08/2025

what if i pivoted to wellness influencer content but instead of supplements and electrolytes and matcha it was just my diet which is. mostly healthy but then boy do i love a hot chip and a pint. and a filthy egg and cheese with a piping-hot coffee

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 05/08/2025

nailing flying splits in reformer then backing it up with a sloppy mayo and hot sauce-laden egg and cheese…….never let them know your next move

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

dad telling me about tonight’s sundown, which i saw in pieces from the car driving to his place: ‘it was just beautiful - that real soft light and it was inflected on the dead snow gums and turned them pink”

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

i love when the locks to my apartment complex get changed with no warning or advance notice from the estate agent. and no sign of nor mention of a replacement front gate key. renting is cool

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

“it can be good for generating podcast ideas” babe have you considered that you might just hate thinking? or not be very creative? or do not enjoy that kind of thought-work? it’s fine like we all have different skills. just don’t make the podcast i promise the world will survive

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spooky spice @jenniferdown.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

listening to two people (who both otherwise seem quite well-reasoned and thoughtful) opine that chatGPT and similar AI will ‘actually increase neuroplasticity’ and ‘equalise things between neurodivergents and neurotypicals’. no offence but some of you should be crated

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