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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

This brief few minutes of posts by yours truly is brought to you by... me. I don't hardly pop in on any social media these days. Good to see you all

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

On a different note, the anxiety has been hitting me a little harder of late. A lot going on in my life. All out of my control. That said, it's hard to navigate. I'm either extremely fidgety or grinding/clenching my teeth a lot. It sucks and is beautiful that I've learned to recognize triggers.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

My mind has wandered off to a far distant time. 14 years ago, I met someone who changed my life. In a wonderful away. I'll never forget them. Now they struggle with their own battle. And I am cheering for them. We all struggle with things, we each face challenges. Be kind. Be good. 💙💙💙

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 27/11/2025

Happy Thanksgiving. 🦃 I'm hardly on social media these days, but I still think of you often. I miss you. Truly. My hope is for a wonderful day and holiday season for you all. I thank you for the impact you've had in my life. A part of my heart. May the force be with you, always.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

I can't seem to do anything right. Lol. At all.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

Without fail, my ex still finds a way to pit my kids against me. Not that I need help saying stupid things anyway. 😮‍💨 According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids. Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

Reflection: I have spent time reflecting on my past and wondering why I deserve the blessings I have now. I've squandered much and hurt people. I've been less of a man that I should have been. Yet here I sit, with a new chance at life, wondering to myself why I would be worthy of this chance.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Oh, and Keys on Main in SLC has named a drink in my honor. It's my favorite go to drink. I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Hi. Checking in. This is the year of anxiety for me. Yes I've had a lot of stress to bear. I've been met with many a disappointment. I continue to navigate and shoulder it. I've been depressed as hell at times. Even considered self harm again (but said no). All that said, I'm coping and I'm alive.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

Oh on that note, anyone looking for a new home? I have one in selling. 3k square feet, 7 years old - hoping to get 650K out of it. 🤞 Not on the market quite yet, but coming.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 15/08/2025

Got the MRI back on my hot mess of a left knee. Already severe osteoarthritis; no cartilage in the joint; a few bone spurs; now I have a torn/flipped meniscus. Orthoscopic knee surgery in the coming weeks. Great timing as I'm putting one house on the market and putting up brick on the new house. 😮‍💨

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

We've lost MikeyVP and now Clint. My Twitter OG brothers are dropping like flies. Clint, as harsh as he could have been, was a good friend. I even had my struggles with him a bit. He was a genuine, passionate man. Didn't hide behind a mask or online image. He was just him.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 19/06/2025

If you see this, quote this post with 4 great albums that came out when you were 21 🎶 #musicsky #music #promosky

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Rex Chapman @rexchapman.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

But I was told these guys weren’t athletic. “Plumbers” they said…

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 19/05/2025

Even when life is good; when circumstances are exceptional, healthy and one is happy, depression can still exist. It can still cast a shadow. Live to fight another day.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 19/04/2025

Anyway. Life goes on. I love my kids so much. I also care about my ex-wife. Maybe I shouldn't, but I do.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 19/04/2025

I'm building a new house, so we can finally sell both our homes and get one of our own. I've offered my oldest to come, her boys as well. I've set stipulations and boundaries. She's chosen not to come. But I'm "kicking her out." Not my words, my daughter's and my ex's. I "favor my step kids." 😮‍💨

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 19/04/2025

Being the father of adult children in a divorced situation is hard; and having two houses. I hardly get to see my kids much. They're always at their mom's hanging out with her. I'm vilified by her so that only makes it worse. I'm "a bad father." "Why do I make them pay their phone/insurance bills?"

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 07/04/2025

Well, our 2025 adventures are just beginning. Stepdaughter getting married in 2 months and we're waiting architect rendering of our new home, then we work to get our two homes put on the market. I'm excited and growing anxiety.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 07/04/2025

I was walking with my daughter around Farmington station and she looked at me, "Dad, you seem pretty chill today." I told her it's been a relaxing morning. It's been nice. But I can read when my mental state is slightly unstable.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 07/04/2025

Meds don't fix things, but they certainly help even out the playing field a bit. I started out easily irritated this morning. Couldn't figure out why. I took an anxiety med, and I could manage whatever it was better.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

John's (Jerms) sister created something and sent it to me. Oh my heart. ☺️💙

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

When life is going well, and I'm happy, but I'm still anxious and at times depressed, and feeling like things are just coasting... IDK even how to describe it. Anyway, good talk. Checking in. Hello, and Good night all.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 21/02/2025

When your playlist surprises you and drops a classic from Old Blue Eyes into the mix. Happy Friday! "I did it my way" 🎶

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 14/02/2025

She'd kill me if she knew I was posting this here or anywhere on social media (but she's not here ☺️). I love this amazing woman with all my 💙. We danced for a moment, last evening, at the assisted living facility where she works. Happy Valentine's Day to all you wonderful souls. I love you. 🥰

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

Therapy came through when I needed. Great discussion with my therapist today. Self discovery, reflection, and improvement are a daily process. Sometimes moment by incremental moment.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 09/02/2025

Hey, guess what? You are beautiful people. I love you. I miss you. That is all.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 09/02/2025

Oh hey. Sup all you wonderful people? Hope y'all are great! I 💙 you! Also, the steroids shot in my knee lasted all of 3 weeks. Yay me. I see full knee replacement in my future. In the meantime, a cane it is.🩼

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

Finished the season finale of Star Wars: Skeleton Crew last night. Brilliant and beautiful! I loved season one. What an adventure!

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

Oh wait, the Jazz lost? No surprise here. That's what happens when you sit you're players unnecessarily. Let me know when/if the Jazz are worth watching again. This is painful. This is the dark ages of Jazz basketball. They're really dark.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 17/01/2025

Well, I saw the orthopedic surgeon today. My left knee is in bad shape. I've had osteoarthritis for 10 ish years now. Both knees and now my right wrist and hand. Anyway, the left knee is the worst. I ended up getting a steroid injection. Temporary relief, hopefully 6+ months. Replacement in sight.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

Also, this Texans/Chargers 2nd half is the wildest, weirdest, wild card game I've ever watched

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

The Utah Jazz are just so difficult to watch or get into. I hate this.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 08/01/2025

Well, I've taken the next step into the realm of old. 🤣 Mostly just pain right now. Excruciating pain.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

Oh I guess there's also the change in environment and scenery. Gotta prep both our houses to sell and get into something of our own. So many challenges again.

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Alan Zaugg @jedizaugg.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

I've been self evaluating a lot lately. As part of that process, I have things I want to work on and new things I want to try. I'm taking Spanish and, eventually, German through Duolingo. I'm so excited to learn a new language and brush up on the other one.

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