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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Are we just hanging around with our heads in the sand? Are we really going to do a ww3? Iran says they'll reopen the straight after Trump & Netanyahu are out of power. Much of the world has been going through the oil shortage for a minute, the US is really feeling it now.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Today the 38 project feels too big. Like, throw it away and don't start over too big. Why does every project have to be 3x harder than the one before? I must be a fucking idiot.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Here I go, cutting my face open again. FFS revision

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

That asshole kinda ruined my night. Went to see a Black Flag cover band, a super drunk man tried to pull me into the pit, twice. Kinda hurt my back. I'd retreated to the patio but he came out, fell down and puked all over himself. Then he was mad that the bar cut him off. Dick. I went home early

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

She's not a fan of my plan, but she's not closing the door on the conversation. It was tense for a minute, now she's acting like everything is great. There's been no further discussion, I hope she doesn't think I'm letting this go. I need this.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

I did it. The conversation has begun. She's processing

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

Is today the day? I'm prepared, the schedule is clear, the subject is fresh.... and I'm scared. I need to say something. It's going to hurt no matter how long I wait. We'll see

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I'm recognizing that there are people who really seem to like me. They're happy to see me, they like having me in community, and I think they'd stand up for me. I get invites, compliments, hugs, and free drinks. Maybe it's been true before, but I actually see it now. That feels good, BUT...

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

My partner and daughter wanted a dog. I can't say no, so we have a dog. Now I have to take care of the dog when I'm home alone. Which is a lot now.. This is the first real irritant of my retirement.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

Here's a thought, how about building the fucking thing you already have? #38

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

Ugh... Hanging out with all those gorgeous tgirl lesbians is challenging. They're all lovely people. But... all I want to do is sexualize them and have lots of beautiful, gay af, sex with them. So fucking horny 😩

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

I spent most of my adult life thinking I'd survive until my retirement benefits were certain, and then I'd tap out. I'd have taken care of my family. I could go. I made it, but now I don't want to tap out. Which, is good, but... What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I didn't plan for this.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

You've brought it up twice, makes me think you might actually be open to it. I wasn't sure you recognized that I'm missing it. I want it, badly. If I won't leave while missing it, why would I leave if I was getting it? I want to get it without losing anything else. I hope you can be okay if I get it

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

For months every day felt like a Friday. Then the day finally came, and every day after felt like a Saturday. A few weeks later, I'm home and everyone else is back to their schedules. Now my days are starting to feel like a mid-week day off. Which, I guess they are. Retirement is wild.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

This is it. 30 years. My last day. Time for something new.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Really? 42 G/H Great googly moogly... G is huge! Huge. G's! Yeah, okay, I guess thats what I'm working with now.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

I don't want to be jealous. I see people being cute, cuddling, kissing, or any other sweet pda and i'm filled with jealousy. Twisting, churning, seething and painful I have the pda. I have the sweetness. I don't have what they're saving for later Right back to those fucking lyrics from cheap trick

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

My therapist wants me to wait to talk to my partner. I get it. I want to enjoy things as if I'd already talked to her and it went as I want. It's not likely to happen exactly as I want, if at all. I really need this. I'm a coward for not discussing it. Damn

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

There's never going to be a good time. Never. I just have to do it. Fuck its scary. This could end everything. I need to fucking do it. Soon. If she says it's over, I'm fucking someone in Portland.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

14 work days left Filled with excitement and trepidation. I'm really unsure how to feel. But it's still happening, no backing out. Those other conversations? Oof.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

I had some drive-by verbal abuse this morning. A couple men screamed "tranny bitch" at me as they went by. I flipped them off and they screamed more. Kinda scary. There was no one around and they could have easily come back. When am I unsafe? Is it now?

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

I knew this would happen. I'd transition long enough to kindof fall out of love, and no longer participate, with "trans culture." I don't care about posts asking if they're trans enough, what happens with HRT, and is JKR bad still? I'm over it. My local community is great, but the internet sucks ass

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Why the fuck does a Granite School District police officer need an M16 mounted in their unmarked F150 truck? Cops aren't military. They shouldn't be rolling up like they are. ESPECIALLY TO A SCHOOL! ACAB

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Someone at the bar thought I was 35. Wow I'd absolutely give them head just for saying that. 35? Really? Nice

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Why did she keep dancing so close. I liked dancing with her. She put my hands on her hips. 🫠 Made me feel things. Made me react in a certain way. On a completly unrelated note, I could possibly top... it seems to work when I'm feeling, a certain way.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I ❤️ my fav bar like a 2nd home It feels like I'm Norm walking into Cheers It's the most straight cis metal, punk, dive bar in the world It's also a truly safe space for queer people, I'm never the only trans person there They are true allies The kind of allies that will fight in the streets for us

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

There is a non zero chance that was transphobia. Went to a pizza place, got sat and then promptly ignored for forty minutes. We made eye contact several waiters. No one even stopped to get our drink order. Everyone else around us was getting their orders taken and delivered. I hope i'm wrong but..

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

It's weird that my 30 year recognition award doesn't have the logo or name on it, right?

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

How fucking hard is it to use someone's correct pronouns? People who seem supportive, didn't know me before, and still fuck it up? Fucking assholes Referring to me in 3rd person trips up the people who see a man, even if they get it right otherwise I guess the tits, dress and makeup aren't enough

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

Ace's fucks Spence told me I never have to worry about sold out shows, I always have a ticket waiting for me All the bartenders like me, remember my name and fav drinks The regulars say hi, share their weed and give me hugs There's always another t-girl or enby It's almost like Norm in Cheers ❤️

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 02/05/2026

That's how it's supposed to go. I went to the bar and sat alone drinking on the patio. I was being introverted, needing an extrovert to seek me out and drag me over to hang out with their friends. That's what happened. Perfect. No notes.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

Apparently my RBF is worse than I realized. I was looking at someone I wanted to meet. I was going to compliment them. I was thinking pleasant thoughts, I was calm, in a safe place, I had a good day. I felt good. My wife informed me that I was giving a hard look, not angry, but certainly not nice.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

I ran into a coworker at the fettish club... well... I hope he enjoyed the view of my tits.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

I know my tittys were on display, but I was still surprised at how long the men would stare. I enjoyed the long glances from the ladies though. Double standard? Sure is.

Baddie in fishnets and dress. Breasts exposed.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

I just tell you what I want to hear. I almost said that out loud. How fucking sad. I've got needs, and I'm really good at filling those needs for other people. Still waiting to get mine filled, even a little.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

50 5 0 Fifty FIFTY 5 Decades Fuck...

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 19/04/2026

I definitely woke up in a "suicide seems like a reasonable option" sort of mood

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 19/04/2026

Whenever someone considers suicide, they're told to think of those they'd leave behind and how they'd feel. They're told to think about opportunities they'd miss. They're told they'd be missed. So, we're supposed to put others feelings before our own? I should survive just for them? What about me?

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 19/04/2026

Does anyone actually hang out with friends? Like call them up, have them come over and just chill. Does that actually happen? Or do I not really have friends... Do they sit alone at home wishing I'd call? Do they go out alone wishing they had someone with them? No? Just me then? Cool

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

This little guy just walked into my office

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 08/04/2026

Wow. I just turned in my retirement documents for July. 30 years. Thank jebus for a pension.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 01/04/2026

Why do so many of my friends live in other states? This sucks.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

The titty sweat, ball sweat combo, that only trans femmes can experience, sucks.

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Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

I'm tired of going places alone and hoping to see someone I know. I want someone to want me to come.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 28/03/2026

What's the fucking point of having the "conversation" with her? It's not going to go well, and i'm barely attracted to people. Why can't I see beauty in other people?

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 25/03/2026

Oof, I really feel bad when NO ONE comes out to a show... For real, I think it's just me and 5 other people so far. I'm not early either.

Ivy @ivy-999.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

She didn't realize it was 30 years today. Im really afraid I'll absolutely break her heart when I tell her I want to open the relationship. Fuck