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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 16h

Welp, purged for the first time in like two weeks….

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I haven’t purged in a week. Everything is going bad in my life but I haven’t purged so that’s something.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I know I’m trying to recover but idk where else to say this. Every time there’s a highly publicized rape it really affects me. All these stories are reminding me of my own and making me emotional.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

It changes from moment to moment but I think I’m going to try recovery (again). Maybe if o do it slow I won’t purge.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Purged again. I feel better now which is the bad part.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Not a major accomplishment because it’s basically just a omotd so I’m still gonna shoot for 48 hours again.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Anyone seen those jars of spicy skinny mushrooms on tick tock shop? They’re much spicier than you’d think but I love them. I ordered more of them and can’t stop craving them 😬

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I’m fucking starving but I want to do another 48 hour fast.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

No food for me today and maybe no food tomorrow either. Gotta lock in.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Gained a lb because I ate too much yesterday (still less than 1k calories). Took lax coz I panicked and now I’m gonna try to go for another long fast. Back to 88.4

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I’m so scared to break my fast but I also feel like I’m gonna faint if I don’t…

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Tell me how I just took a shit when I haven’t eaten in more than 48 hours? 🤔

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Chewed and spit some Texas toast. Now to convince my family I’ve eaten the rest of dinner.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

My mom is making chili which I love very much. I don’t think I should eat it. I wanna do 48 hour fast if it kills me.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

It’s almost 5 and the only calories I’ve consumed have been alcohol. I don’t know when to stop…

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

2nd Buzzball of the day after some wine. Still no food at almost 4:30pm

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Last time I ate was Saturday evening. I keep feeling light-headed, my heart feels funny, and I kept feeling short of breath while walking through the grocery store. I think I’ll keep my feet going today too. It’s been a while since I fasted for 48 hours.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Only solid food I’ve had today is my gummy vitamins and it’s almost 6:30pm.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Anyone seen this? Is it any good? I’m running out of triggering movies that I haven’t watched to death lol

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I took lax yesterday because I panicked about eating AND purged. Woke up at 3am with horrible stomach pains then again at 7am. I’ve been on a liquid fast all day (it’s almost 3:30pm). I’m not sure if I’ll eat today or not.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

copy/paste for my besties💕: ✶ name: Frances ✶ height: 5’5” ✶ star sign: Aquarius ✶ nicknames: Itsy in ED spaces ✶ siblings: 3, all girls ✶ relationship: single af ✶ crushing on: fictional characters ✶ fav season: summer ✶ pets: 2 cats ✶ fav colour: black or pink ✶ live: California

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Purged yesterday, finishing off a bottle of champagne today, I feel light headed whenever I stand up….

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Just went for a short walk and my legs/butt hurt so bad I could barely walk towards the end. Yesterday my calves started hurting in the shower. I remember this from when my ED was at its worst. Could this mean I’m deficient in something?

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

I have an appointment to get checked out before the ED specialist decides what level of care to suggest and I’m not eating until after because I know they’re gonna weigh me. How sick is that?

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

We snuggled all night and on the morning he tried to make a move on me and I decline so he jerked off in front of me and then gave me money for coffee and hasn’t talked to me since.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I tried to make myself throw up the alcohol because I knew I overdid it but couldn’t. I fell asleep on the bathroom floor for a bit.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I stayed the night with a guy in his uncomfortable ass music studio and for so drink I fell right across a room and smashed my head into a wall.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

3pm lunch. 30 calories. Nothing but coffee for breakfast.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Trying to get a good picture of my wrist

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Okay she answered me finally. She says she got on a GLP1 to lose the baby weight and went too far. Idk if I believe her but I hope she gets better. That’s hypocritical of me but whatever.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Look at how skinny she is! I know something is wrong but I don’t she’ll tell me. It’s sad but I’m jealous…

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I messaged her and ONCE AGAIN she’s online but not reading or not responding to me. She looks really fucking thin in the pic. I just messaged her a few weeks ago that I relapsed into my ED so if it was that I think she’d tell me. However she wouldn’t tell me if she was using again.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Rewatching my trigger movies starting with Thinspiratiom aka Starving on Suburbia.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

My former best friend who I still talk to every once in a while (long story) posted a photo of her at the beach with her kid and she looks so skinny. I’m worried about her but idk if I should reach out.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore…

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

How long should I fast for? I’m thinking liquid fast for today.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

I passed my certification! I am now a certified phlebotomist!

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Mysterious bruise gang! I asked my dr and all my labs are good so I have no explanation for these.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

I did an intake phone call with an ED specialist and they’re gonna have me do a blind weight (I own a scale) and test my blood-pressure laying down and standing up (I’ve had orthostatic hypertension since I was a teen). She called my eating disorder “severe” even though mg bmi is 16.7.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

I’m at the dr and my blood-pressure is 106/56 so low but I’m not gonna die or anything.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I finally made it and now I want to go lower…

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Hurt my head falling down drunk last night and smashing it into a wall. Hurt my hip/ass like two weeks ago also falling down drunk.

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Itsy Bitsy Spider @itsyana.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

My dad confronted me about my drinking. Time to cut back.

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