amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 04/10/2026oh the irony of listening to kim petras "treat me like a slut" when i am strictly forbidden from every single act described in the song until he says otherwise 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 03/10/2026ah. never mind. it's alice schwarzer. swerf, terf, and evidently a rather unpleasant person. liberation for me but not for thee seems to be a pretty common theme among white feminists of a certain age. tiresome people 020
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 03/10/2026browsing bdsm related wikipedia articles is a wild ride for discovering some of the truly unpleasant strains of feminism. apparently "female masochism is collaboration" with male violence according to one author. not sure what she would make of masochistic trans women, but i assume she hates us too 111
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i really am. i suppose i will just have to accept it :) 000
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026the fact that i act surprised at the inevitable outcome of the process, however, is just funny. i am quite stupid sometimes 130
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i am not really a "submission is just a sex thing" kind of girl. never have been. if all i wanted was kinky sex i could get that so much more easily (no shortage of suitors on grindr). surrendering autonomy is & always has been the point; being shaped by him is the point; & my emotions reflect that 130
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026at some level it is hilarious to me that i refuse to admit that i have an emotional dependence on my master that runs deeper than simply accepting my role in our arrangement. i mean, he has been training me as his submissive for almost two years: emotional submission is kind of the point sweetie? 120
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026the thought of being released from the cage fills me with distress. i would like to hope that master would not do it except to punish me. though it causes physical discomfort to be permanently locked, the emotional loss if he decided i no longer merited my cage would be excruciating 140
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/10/2026appalled that it has taken me this long to realise but all my emotions about being kept chaste and caged by my owner make total sense when i acknowledge that my cage serves the role that a collar does in other owner/property relationships. it's the primary symbol of his control, and it matters to me 140
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 01/10/2026i decided to install the wikipedia app to give me something better to do with my time than doomscrolling and one of the first articles it decided to show me was "service oriented submission" and i am just dying here 030
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 25/09/2026quite the experience learning what arousal feels like when its not coupled with shame and disgust 011
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 25/09/2026it took me a few weeks of pain to learn how to wear my new cage properly but now that i've adjusted i have fallen in love. i can get turned on without the body horror showing 160
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 25/09/2026evidently is "amber prepares her treatise on music that opens her legs" and gotta say that sacrilege by the yeah yeah yeahs is very underrated as a song pitched at transhet women. according to the church i can't fuck a guy without it being inherently an offence against god so oh my it hits hard 030
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 25/09/2026(okay now that i've been thinking about this far too long i really think that k. flay's blood in the cut is actually the better parallel to pleasure and pain than rhianna's s&m, which is a bit too blandly trying-too-hard for my tastes) 010
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 25/09/2026in her 1985 text "pleasure and pain" chrissy amphlett presents the australian moral ambiguity toward masochistic sex forcing the audience to consider our own positionality in kink. revisited for americans by rhianna in 2011, the material is more overt but the ambiguity is lost. in this essay i will 120
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 24/09/2026i have been rewatching true blood. dear god. it is almost offensive how hot alexander skarsgård is in that show 031
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 21/09/2026For what little it's worth, I'd assumed from the moment you posted the apology that the situation was very much as you've described in the follow up thread. It is a pity that so many people thought it appropriate to insert themselves into the situation. Neither you nor She deserved that 020
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 21/09/2026i am very tired today. again. this delightful little long-covid relapse is becoming a lot less exciting and i'd take it as a kindness if it would stop now. this obnoxious "one day i'm fine, the next day the symptoms are back" thing is getting old. i miss being able to go running 030
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 21/09/2026yes. i did find some of those comments strange. even in the vanilla context, if a transgression spills into the public arena then the relationship repair work also takes place partly in public. the surface form it takes looks different in a d/s dynamic, but it's the same work and it's important 040
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 19/09/2026in truth there's no target or no goal from my perspective. the little reminder messages act more like signals that the status quo is good for me. it feels more like when i catch sight of my day collar in the mirror. a reminder that this is how my life is, and i am happy 120
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 19/09/2026i have counters tracking how many days since my master allowed me to cum (539) and how many days i've been locked in chastity (251). but i often wonder why. there's no magic number. one day he might let me cum, but i feel quite certain the cage is permanent. i think i just like seeing the numbers? 121
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 17/09/2026yeah. there's a strong presumption in the question that you must have already agreed to speech restrictions, hence asking why your dominant permits it. there's no reason to think that's part of your d/s arrangement (ironically, a mild restriction is part of mine) when you've never suggested it is? 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 17/09/2026the question does seem oddly phrased? yes, sometimes a d/s relationship involves constraints on how the submissive is permitted to speak in public. but it's hardly a requirement? and tbh i wouldn't even think it's a particularly common part of the power exchange 220
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 15/09/2026my life gets so much better when my master decides i've earned his attention 010
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 14/09/2026i'm slowly learning to accept that master wants to make this my everyday cage, and not just something for special occasions. i have mixed feelings, not least of which is that i am never comfortable with my anatomy. but i am well trained and i do as i am told 060
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 11/09/2026the amount of energy some people spend on their dislike of trans women never ceases to amaze me 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 10/09/2026i am a little in love with my new collar already, and i haven't even had a chance to properly wear it yet 150
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 04/09/2026i'm enjoying the way he's having you post pics in a different style to what you chose to post when unowned. it makes the power exchange visible to anyone who knows you 120
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/09/2026and maybe i'll stay well for long enough to enjoy this. it was so nice to have some energy again instead of lifelessly laying in bed all day. fingers crossed 150
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/09/2026i don't know how he managed to train me so successfully. i used to have such a decadent, slutty life filled with the pain sex and sensation i crave. now i am kept chaste and loyal, and i live for the rare permissions like today. total change in my life, yet somehow his control works so well for me 130
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 02/09/2026master allowed me out of my cage for a few minutes to edge myself for him while collared, leashed and my ass hooked. having to force myself back into the cage while i'm hard, and so, so close to orgasm is pure torture. a tiny taste of what i used to be permitted, so i don't forget what i am denied 170
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 31/08/2026thank you ❤️ i'm grateful i met him too, he's been a better dominant to me than i thought i'd ever get to have in my life 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 31/08/2026it's remarkable how much the simple act of attaching the leash to my day collar makes me feel better about myself 100
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 31/08/2026i have been unwell so much lately that it's been hard to post, particularly since being ill doesn't leave me feeling great about my body. but i can still do very simple things, and that does make me feel a little better 280
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 30/08/2026thanks. me too. at least it's not as severe this time. i was able to get out of bed for a little bit and go for a short walk, which was nice. but i'm now back in bed exhausted and somehow also desperately wanting sex. as if i could do anything except lie here uselessly 100
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 30/08/2026my post-viral syndrome symptoms are back and i'm confined to my bed most of the day again. somehow that doesn't stop me from daydreaming about men fucking me while i'm helpless 250
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 28/08/2026the moment that you realise this. you are free to do as you wish, while he can never aspire to those heights again. it has no equal 010
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 28/08/2026oh how i empathise. a man i built my world around. for years. he was everything, for so long. i don't think of him much anymore. i vaguely pity the shallowness of his thought, and enjoy the certainty that when i escaped he lost something he needed to fake his way through his world 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 28/08/2026amen. sometimes it is a mercy to feel utter indifference towards someone you once adored 110
amber @idleplaything.bsky.social · 27/08/2026impressive really. being cursed with less capable anatomy my lifetime record for daily orgasm count is merely 3. and that was as a teenager 🫠 210
