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he’s not sure what he wants to do for christmas. maybe — maybe he’s thinking he wants to stay at home with his mum.

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( he cuddles up as close as he can, small sniffling sounds giving away his feelings as he presses his face into her shoulder. )

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he’s painting a huge picture of a snowman — it’s going to be a Christmas present to aunt Mimi.

𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

( throws his arms around her, hugging tightly. )

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it needs to be Christmas already!! ( and he’s a little disappointed that it hasn’t snowed yet. )

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

thanks… ( still in need of some cheering up, he shuffled out of the room to go and play with his toys — repeating her words silently to try and convince himself they were true. )

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

okay.. ( he’s not entirely sure if he believes that, but he still holds his hand up and gives her a high five — doing his best to smile. )

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his teeth have been brushed, pyjamas put on — and now he’s in bed, being lovingly tucked in by his mother. a goodnight kiss is placed on his forehead, and he turns his nightlight on - settling down to read a book before he sleeps.

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but he always talks to you… and he hasn’t spoken to me in forever. i guess it doesn’t feel like he loves me.

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why… why does my dad not want to see me? ( he looks up at her with sad eyes — a part of him doesn’t really want to know the answer, but he couldn’t stop himself asking. )

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( he watches her cleaning up the rest of the cereal, and when she’s finished — he reaches out and lightly taps her shoulder — he’s got a question he wants to ask her. )

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( he nods his head — not wanting to speak through his mouthful because his mother says it’s impolite. when he’s finished eating, he stands on tiptoes to put his bowl in the sink. ) i’m sorry i made a mess..

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( he looks up from his cereal and grins widely as soon as he spots her. ) hi, May! would you like some cheerios?

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he’s awake, and wandering down to the kitchen to try and make himself breakfast. within minutes, there’s cheerios and milk all over the counter — and some in his bowl.

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

fast asleep, tucked up with two or three of his favourite teddies ( he couldn’t choose which one he wanted. )

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i’m going to be a big brother??

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

/ thinking of you today, John. we miss you, we love you.

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

drinking his second can of pepsi, lounging on the sofa and watching a film at the same time.

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

/ I’ve been so busy today I forgot what tomorrow is. 😭 my Julian will be giving his dad a lot of extra love. ( 💔 )

𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

he’s going to meet santa today — so he can ask for the new bike he wants! he has also done a drawing of the reindeer to give to santa ( and is quite nervous to show it to him. )

/ only using this account for Julian from now on, not my ‘X’ one. 👍

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“Sure… tomorrow!” He smiles then, not wanting to make his favourite uncle feel bad or anything.

( instantly looks sad, but quickly shrugs his shoulders — trying to pretend it doesn’t matter. ) that’s okay..

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𝐉𝐔𝐃𝐄. @heyjul3s.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

he wants another sleepover at his uncle’s house.

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i’m so excited!! i asked for a new bike, and for santa to make it snow!