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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Pft I fell of the face of Bluesky 💔 it’s comforting to see all my moots alive and fighting. I’ve been doing 👎. I’m tired and fat. Can you believe it? The irony of being a fat girl with eating problems isn’t lost on me. But I’m getting older, and I want to change more than I want air.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 21/07/2026

I’ve lost 5lbs in the last 4 days 🥰

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 09/07/2026

I bought 10 small cups of plain Greek yogurt and I left them all out overnight so they are totally ruined. I’m so upset, I’m so useless I don’t know what to do with myself.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

I’m back in the 130’s (62kg) monstrous place. Evil evil evil.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

One thing I love about my fav celeb (Park Jihoon) is that when he relaxes, takes a break, he naturally gains so much weight that he looks as fluffy as I do, but he can lose it quickly when he gets back to work. It’s inspiring and makes me feel like it’s possible for me too as long as I stay strong.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

I still need to lose 40 lbs. But I can’t even tell when I’ll be happy anymore. Like would be in the 90lb range look the way I’m envisioning? Since I’m 5’0 I have a haunting suspicion I’ll want to be smaller…

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

I’ve been struggling to even get out of bed in the mornings. I lost my ft job day before October last year. It was ok at first but now everyday I accomplish nothing. I will do anything to avoid deep depression. It’s pissing me off that I have so much free time and I can’t even get up.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

Update: - Still fat 😔 - Graduated massage school - aged up a year

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

I HATE and I mean HATE how ugly I am. I am obscenely ugly it’s honestly terribly disappointing. With how much I want to not look the way I do you’d think I would look DIFFERENT by now. I’m almost in my mid-20’s. MID - 20’s. Something has to give, I’ve got to make some changes quickly.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/03/2026

I did it 🫢 I’m 57.8 kg now🤧 I feel like I’m touching a dream, and one breath I’ll lose it.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 04/03/2026

Gang guess what. I just found out that doing massage burns between 100-300 calories per session. I’m about to graduate massage school, and I’m so excited to literally get PAID $40+ and hour AND get rid of calories

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 02/03/2026

I'm officially in the 120's (Excuse the dirty ahh mirror) it was a long time coming but still, I have no words🥹 I've got sm more weight too lose but here's a b0dy ch3ck for rn🎉🎉

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 19/02/2026

I need an accoutabilibuddy:(

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 10/02/2026

I’ve lost over 70 lbs and I still look like someone’s before 🫩

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𝒮𖦹 ⋆｡°✩ @timidlamb.bsky.social · 14/01/2026

going to bed hungry is okay going to bed hungry is okay going to bed hungry is okay going to bed hungry is okay going to bed hungry is okay

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

I’m not giving up. I will not let myself sink into depression. I am stronger than I’ve ever been.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

Hey guys. It never seems like enough. I’ve been eating counting my calories these last few weeks, and I know for a fact I’ve been between 400-750 calories. I’ve been running 2 miles, walking 3 daily. This morning I’m the same as always. 138 lbs. I feel like Im suffocating. Should I just fast? Idk.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 08/11/2025

I’m sick of being fat I’m sick of being fat I’m sick of being fat I’m sick of being fat Im sick of being fat I’m sick of being fat I’m sick of being fat

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

Gang I feel so fattttttt oml✋

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 24/10/2025

I’m sick of seeing the 140’s. Every morning I wake up in the high 130’s but by the end of the day I’m in the 140’s again 💔 I’m going back in my old diet this upcoming week. That always helps my drop fast.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 24/10/2025

Omg fam why r BTS fans so mad now. I used to be ARMY in 2016-2020 n they were NOT this bad. I literally commented on an old video of bts about how they’ve changed, and I miss them from 2016 and DAMN they was tripping! Saying “you better never buy tickets” etc etc - like I did buy tickets before wym😭

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

Im at this uncomfortable stage in my weightloss where I can see the skinny starting to show under my fat but I’m still FAT.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

Mmmmorning everyone~ yesterday I ate half of what I normally eat. Just 420 cal. (2 eggs and my protein smoothie.) Yayay😊~ I have a dinner on Friday with family so I definitely need to do the same again today. I usually eat light w/ them, but failure to prepare is preparing for failure💕💕💗

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

I’ve been at 137/138 lbs for like 2 weeks now 🫠 I’m eating 1 meal a day + a smoothie and I can tell it’s too much. It’s around 900 cal but I think I have to go lower if I wanna see results

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

OMG ITS MIDDLE OF THE DAY AND SOMEHOW IM 137.6 - that’s a lb down, I repeat a LB DOWN😭 I can’t believe it🫶🫶

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 16/10/2025

I’m caressing the 130’s, but one sip of water, one bite of food and I’m 140💔 I’m walking and running 5+miles a day and idk why I’m still 138.6 in the morning. It’s been like weeks since I first got here. But imma stick it out, I’m leaving the 130’s for the 120’s soon🙏

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 15/10/2025

I just saw someone predict a Great Depression coming up for US(where I live) and it’s like… maybe then I’ll be skinny but I’m pretty sure that means I’ll also be homeless 🙃 I wish I was mentally strong and accomplished more by now

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 12/10/2025

12 more lbs and I’ll be lighter than I’ve been since I was 11 years old.🥹

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

My CE class said I should be a comedian and I am stuck on thinking they r saying that bc I’m fat. If I was a pretty girl I don’t think they would say that 😭

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 26/09/2025

I’m having bone broth soup to celebrate me entering the 130’s☺️

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 26/09/2025

GOOD MORNING!!! IM IN THE 130’s!!!!🥳🥳🥳 I was NOT expecting that this morning ☺️

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 25/09/2025

I won’t eat solids until I’m in the 130’s. Today I weighed in at 141.4 lbs (64.1 kgs)

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 25/09/2025

Good morning everyone!💖 I’m on day 3 of my liquid fast, and going strong. It was triggered when someone on here commented on my post I was eating long a dog on its bday🙃 usually that triggers a binge but these days I can’t eat very well anyway so thank you, helping me reach my goals quicker 👑

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 25/09/2025

There is this new girl in my massage class and omg she’s gonna stay w us until we finish and I really wanna be her friend but I have a feeling my brains gonna screw it up. I can only make friends when I don’t think about it 🫩

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

When I see myself in front of beautiful scenery I look like a stain, ruining the picture 💔

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

Today I’m only eating 1 meal: 1 head of lettuce greens(60cal) Half of a very large avocado (200 cal) Half of a chicken breast(70 cal) 3.9 oz of sliced turkey(130 cal) 2 Alyssa bites (90) Total: 550 cal I’m so full and I hate this feeling.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

Good morning🫶🫶 The only solids I ate yesterday were veggies and I walked over 6 miles yet I somehow gained a pound overnight Yay🥳🫠

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

I hateeee having a belly.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 21/09/2025

I can’t wait too be in a “normal” weight range.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 21/09/2025

Fuck. Rn I’m caught, with vision messed up by this weight I’m at. When I hated myself, my fat, the most in the past, I was in the 140’s. And 130’s. But now, I’ve lost 60 lbs and I’m back in the 140’s. It’s like my brain is caught between two films. I’m fat, huge. But I’m thinner at the same time.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 21/09/2025

Bruh tell me why I’m angry about having my protein smoothie that I made. I just walked 6 miles. Im SUPPOSED to drink it. I haven’t eaten yet today and it’s 3:30 in the afternoon. WHY

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 21/09/2025

Another successful day🫩 It feels like Christmas morning one second and then hellish anxiety the next.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 20/09/2025

You can’t be ugly if you’re skinny enough.

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 19/09/2025

I’ve dropped 3 lbs the last 2 days and I’m so excited and proud. I’m soooo close to escaping 140’s! But I’m feeling the urge to binge coming on. My anxiety heightens when I don’t give into an urge. I have prescription pills that help but my throat is scratchy n I’m stressed. Tonight’s gonna suck:/

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 19/09/2025

Fam what are we doing about lose skin. I’ve gone over the -60 lbs(27kgs) loss mark and I’m starting to see if fr😭 it’s only the bottom of my belly rn but I can tell I’ll have a little on my arms when I’ve finished losing the last 40-60lbs(18-27kgs) and I’m not happy about it 😀

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Hellixh @hellixh.bsky.social · 18/09/2025

The skinnier I get the more scared I get that I’m just ugly and skinny can’t fix it🪦

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