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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/10/2026

[Musing on "hauntings", grief (-)] I understand now how people in the past could use feeling "haunted" as just a way to describe grief. Everywhere I go I keep hitting things that remind me of my deceased best friend, and in that way I am also haunted. Spend close to 18 years communicating with […]

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 13/10/2026

[physical health (~)] Learning I have something chronic but manageable with medication is definitely a unique experience.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 09/10/2026

[mh, grief (-)] My place for communicating about my bad health is no longer comfortable feeling, part of that whole drifting from everyone. Game upset me recently because I expected to see a deceased friend when I rounded a corner and he wasn't there obviously. Also realizing that I'm […]

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 06/10/2026

[random caterwauling] Drifting from friends, don't know how to reconnect, just gonna watch my social circle shrink again

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 05/10/2026

[probably a waste of time] I used to be a black hole that at least felt things Now I'm just empty

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 01/10/2026

Had my first experience full on bawling in a movie theater. Glad those rooms are dark.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 27/09/2026

[(gender, libido)] well, if I lower my spiro I get horny again, but I'm also way more of an emotional mess. If I take it too low I get irritable very easily. If I increase it, the symptoms go away but getting aroused is impossible

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 27/09/2026

[mh (-)] kinda had a bit of a breakdown yesterday, I'm just getting so tired of... everything. Begging for money, requiring "spending money" outside of "need this to live" money, tired of being terrified of the world around me, tired of not being able to do the things I want, usually because of […]

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 20/09/2026

[insecure waffling] I dunno why it's easier to ask on here for smaller things than needing an entire month's worth of money. Worried it just looks greedy or something. Really just hope disability goes through quickly.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 20/09/2026

Emergency groceries covered for the end of the month, thanks to everyone who donated. #mutualAid #transcrowdFund

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 20/09/2026

[Gender, TMI?] Nothing feels better than my chest bouncing around the house with every step.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 14/09/2026

Being a poor trans woman when there are so many video game things happening that require large amounts of money is sad times. Granted, I'm still trying to secure money to live.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 01/09/2026

One fascinating thing about existence is how easily just putting on a mask brings out another person. I felt able to be more strange and me after I put on a mask.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 26/08/2026

[Travel Preparation Stress] Didn't manage to get one project done for the convention, oh well. I did get a badge made and several buttons. Gotta take the wins where I got them. Still constantly feeling like I'm forgetting something important, though.

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Nel @anomalee.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 22/08/2026

fixed computer second hard drive is dead

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 22/08/2026

[Unnecessary sarcasm] Love updating my system just before going to sleep while having a major depressive episode and waking up to the computer not booting

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 20/08/2026

[Fortnite] My brain: Fortnite is easily becoming a dystopic capitalistic hellscape mirroring our own reality from which we can't escape. Also my brain: Eeee! They are tickling my nostalgia. Like, I get it, but things are so miserable right now I need whatever little bit of seratonin I can get […]

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 19/08/2026

Jacob Gellar continues to be an absolutely incredible video essayist. Not only does he scold online activists for failing their media literacy test with Isobel Fall's "I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter", but he elegantly ties it in with video games. Also manages to tax write off a […]

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 18/08/2026

Hate feeling like I'm forgetting to do something today.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 16/08/2026

[Gender, surgery mention] Learned I turn into a bitch if I don't take my spiro. Just need to get my balls removed and replaced with saline filled inserts already

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 16/08/2026

[Vore teasing] It took me... nearly two years to get myself into a state to complete this redesign challenge. I think this works well, though. It combines all the elements of the characters and emphasizes Mouse, to the point of exaggerating her, too. As […] [Original post on this.mouse.rocks]

A white wolf with very large ears protruding out to the sides, her hair looks wild and unkempt, tongue dangling from open jaws as she smirks sadistically. She's wearing a crop, modified t-shirt and a pleated skirt. The text on the image says "I think I'll have one you... to go, please." It's signed HOT 2026 and at the bottom it says "Dedicated to Forest Wolf 1984-2024"

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 16/08/2026

bounced back enough to do some art, finally achieved the... best I'll possibly be able to do for renewing a character made 17 years ago. So now I'm emotional again for entirely different reasons.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/08/2026

[Probably just ignore this one] Can't say what I am thinking about because I don't want to worry folks, but I also need help, and also don't know what would help

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/08/2026

Only got complimented at karaoke once. I assume this means other times I did really poorly.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/08/2026

[Gender, depression, bad day (-----)] Current mood is go out wearing skirts cause if I get attacked and die at least I got to have some bit of joy when everything else keeps collapsing around me

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/08/2026

[Gender (-)] Voice training sucks I have no idea how I'm doing.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 13/08/2026

Spent my morning learning how to do buttons that swaps elements of a page without utilizing Javascript. So who wants to flirt with me~?

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 12/08/2026

The feminine urge to buy a whole new wardrobe before a big trip

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 11/08/2026

Just had a dream about an upcoming trip and I was comically holding up a line due to struggling to get information pulled up about reservation. Wee anxiety's getting a head start

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 11/08/2026

[vore] Can you really say you're connected with your friends if they haven't been inside you?

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 07/08/2026

Did my Bandcamp Friday shopping for the month. Picked up: Snowbeasts & Solypsis - The Portent MASTER BOOT RECORD - INTERNET PROTOCOL Ada Rook - c𝖀m songs Death Cab for Cutie - I Built You A Tower Nation of Language - Introduction, Presence

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Owlor 🦋 @owlor.meow.social.ap.brid.gy · 07/08/2026

The most annoying thing about the pedantry around whether or not it's correct to refer to Frankenstein's monster as "Frankenstein" is that it using the creator's name as a metonym for their creation is an established convention. "Aaactually, Stradivarius is the name of the creator, not the violin"

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 06/08/2026

[Mh (-)] Losing hope Losing the will to fight "I think we're doomed And now there's no way back"

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 04/08/2026

[Gender (~)] My tits are getting big enough that I really don't understand how I keep getting misgendered. Even with a t-shirt on they are noticeable. I should shave more for sure and work on my voice but come on.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 29/07/2026

I beat a game for the first time in I don't know how long.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 18/07/2026

Feels kinda strange editing together a project that will only end up being shown to a very small amount of people. And having a second project in mind for the same purpose.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 16/07/2026

[mh (-)] Everything feels impossibly insurmountable. Mistakes I make ripple out and make huge waves. I just want to be able to exist without concerns.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 23/06/2026

Learning that someone diagnosed with dyspraxia has such difficulty with shaving that they have cut themselves with an electric razor. Something I have done three times, one of which was very recently. Things continue to make more sense.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 15/06/2026

I need to be wearing tighter clothes, my curves stand out a lot more in tank tops and such.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 01/06/2026

[HRT, joke] I take my spiro with baja blast, as intended.

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 01/06/2026

[Gender (~)] I rapidly oscillate between being happy with my breast development and feeling like it's inadequate.

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Nel @anomalee.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I forgot a goal could be set like this (in attached post). Rent is due the 3rd of June, and I've gotten $6 on kofi and $6 on paypal. Anything helps!~ I hate asking because I know times are tough for a lot of folks. Incredibly appreciative of everyone, I appreciate the previous post shares too!

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 21/05/2026

[Gender, HRT, TMI? (+)] Finally gotten to the point that I can feel bounce going down stairs quickly even with a bra on~

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Fausk @happenstance.this.mouse.rocks.ap.brid.gy · 24/04/2026

I am rapidly getting exhausted by defenses of anti-intellectualism in regards to children's media. It's further encouraging future generations to not look for deeper meaning in things.

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