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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

“i mourn for those who never knew you.” i love you, boss. forever my chunky monkey. forever daddy’s boy. ❤️

grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

i pick you up tomorrow to bring you back home. i cleared off the shelf on our side of the bed and have your favorite toys and blanket waiting for you. i know it’s gonna break me to hold you again but i’m ready to have you home again. because home isn’t home without you there. it never will be.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

i know i carry you with me wherever i go now. i know im not alone because your mom, brothers, tios, and grandma and grandpa have been the arms when i needed to be held up. but i miss you, bubba bear. more than i could ever put into words. this pit in my stomach and heart eat away at me.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

no amount of reading or advice could prepare me for the actuality of this type of grief. the big things to the littlest details. there are moments where i swear i can feel your head on my lap. or you by my side whenever i walk. but then i look down and there is just nothing.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

i don’t wanna annoy anyone by continuing to bring you up. i feel guilt even tho i know i have no reason to. it’s hard to find enjoyment in my regular conversations as much as i love the foundation of people i have in my life and i know it’s due to my grief.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

been over a week since i had to say goodbye to my best friend. i’ve lost people in my life and don’t get me wrong - those hurt like hell. but losing what is my best friend, my companion, my child essentially? a whole other level of grief. all i wanna do is talk about you, bubba bear.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 02/08/2025

[final] Boss, thank you for letting me be the one to hold your paw as a puppy during a thunderstorm. thank you for letting me put a lucha mask on you to pop your tio’s in the group chat. thank you for letting me be your dad. i love you forever, bubba bear. “someday, i’ll walk you in the park.”

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 02/08/2025

[6/?] i’ll never be able to repay what my boy did for me. but i spent every day loving him and taking care of him when he needed me most. i wouldn’t trade these past ten years for anything. not even to rid the hurt i feel right now. because at least i got to be the companion to the best boy.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

[5/?] i know in the end, i did what was right. but it doesn’t make it hurt less. but i know that’s unfortunately the beauty in a beloved pet. you love them so dearly knowing that one day, sooner than any would like, that you’d have to say goodbye.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

[4/?] yesterday was the scheduled day for him to be out to sleep. the hardest day of my entire life. a decision you never want to make but a decision that is only right and fair to your companion. i did not want my boy to enter suffering territory and that path seemed to be on the approach quickly.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

[3/?] i don’t feel super comfortable sharing his entire prognosis but at the root of it, the strong belief is cushings disease. for about two years, i believe he lived with this. we managed, with medications and supplements. inevitably tho, it just got progressively worse.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

[2/?] from whatever choices in life that I made, good or bad, he was there. he saved my life, i’m not ashamed to say that. gave me a purpose to wake up. a reason to come home. eventually, i figured my shit out and we were in a more stable home. then he started getting sick.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

just a place to put my feelings. [1/?] from the day my boxer, Boss was born, I knew my place as companion to the best boy. we grew together. I learned the true responsibility of taking care of something that needed me to while also learning how to take care of myself.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

i’ve been waiting YEARS for that “hulk hogan dead” headline. how we’re pulling up to the celebration of the death of that pickled sausage, bandana brained, cheeto dick, brother dood jack BOZO. fuck him. rot in piss.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 04/02/2025

we got ben grimm sad in a trench coat in fantastic four.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 02/02/2025

man. imagine being jimmy uso right now.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 29/01/2025

as a big boy myself, i fucking hate when big guys say women/people don’t find them attractive and make it a whole pity party thing because they are big guys. no my man, it’s because you have a shit personality and shit confidence. stop taking your trauma and placing it on others. 🫡

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

lemme tell the entire field something. if you let the cogar brothers walk out of the mecca with those beautiful tag team titles on march 9th (tickets available now)… we’re gonna have a problem.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 22/01/2025

think we gotta stop censoring ourselves when discussing horrific shit. “unaliving”, “yahtzee’s”, etc. fuck that, man. i get people wanna keep their platforms while corpos and algorithms don’t like those words but it’s desensitizing things further. call a spade a spade and a nazi a fucking nazi.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

getting reeeeeeal fucking tired of hearing about bipartisanship with nazis. david lynch just passed but said it best with how i’m viewing life now: fix your heart or die. plain and simple.

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John Carpenter @thehorrormaster.bsky.social · 17/01/2025

I got to be friends with David Lynch when we were both at Universal years ago. A very kind man, he was a fan of Bob's Big Boy. So was I. I'm going to miss him. R.I.P. David.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 16/01/2025

rest in piece to my favorite weirdo film uncle. i look forward to having that afterlife cigarette with ya for the one time. ❤️

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 13/01/2025

nothing brings me more joy than when the enemy iron fist tries punching his way into my mister fantastic only to get bounced on. shouts to abella anderson 🫡

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 09/01/2025

you don’t know how long i’ve been bugging struggs to book legion of rot.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

plus that krypto might be one of the most adorable fucking dogs i’ve seen on a screen.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

i’ve never been a superman guy (all star superman is one of the best reads tho) but there’s something about that teaser that got me mildly emotional. and i think it’s the representation of hope that is plastered all over it. something that is needed, especially for superman.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

kraven the hunter? i’m schleep. cravin’ THEE hunter schafer?

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

year three of faith no more being at the top of my spotify wrapped. what can i say? mike patton freaky talented ass just does something to me. doesn’t say but i also listened to 168 albums i haven’t heard before. i locked in this year 😤

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

i like to believe somewhere, rake yohn had ‘nam flashbacks when tv off came on. this is a joke for almost nobody but it makes me laugh and that’s what matters.

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Chii 🌻 @cremechii.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

Seasonal bulbasaurs 🌱 Which one is your favourite? #pokemon

Digital illustration of two bulbasaurs with a strawberry replacing their green bulb

Digital illustration of two bulbasaurs with a peach replacing their green bulb

Digital illustration of two bulbasaurs with a pumpkin replacing their green bulb

Digital illustration of two white/snowy bulbasaurs with a christmas tree replacing their green bulb

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Relly XXL 🥂 @rellmidnight.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

Yall lil pinky be fighting for its life when holding that big ass iPhone up

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

i get to spend the day eating food and watching twin peaks with my partner tomorrow. cant nobody tell me shit right now.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

and to just be clear, i haven’t played starfield, dragon’s dogma 2 or veilguard. i don’t have much interest to do so. so i don’t speak on their quality.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

i’ve said it for a while now but i really think a lot of people have no clue when something is actually bad or even “mid” (one of the most overused descriptors nowadays). people would rather hear someone else say they think something is “bad” than actually find out for themselves.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

go support my sister’s silly goofy letterboxd (and on here if you’re not, the fuck?) or forever be cursed with swamp ass.

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Patrick Klepek @patrickklepek.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

People being upset Silent Hill 2 wasn’t nominated for GOTY at The Game Awards: welcome to enjoying horror, regardless of medium! Awards shows always pretend horror is a lower form of entertainment undeserving of mainstream accolades. It sucks!

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

just one from each category off top that i love and think deserve more love. - game: shovel knight by jake kaufman - film: the guest by steve moore - tv: interview with the vampire by daniel hart

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

put a trojan on a cob huh? crazy work.

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grotesperado @grotesperado.bsky.social · 16/11/2024

haven’t played a ton of new games this year because as much as i would like to be able to live off of eating karlach’s ass, it’s just not possible… yet. but i’m about four hours into astro bot and that’s a good video game for the goop brain. up there with mouthwashing as my favorites this year.

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