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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 7s

Guess devotion never pays off, hiding the ache inside tonight- Write a letter, then rewrite it again. I’ve gotten used to nothing changing

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 59m

I wonder how you saw the world from back there. Was it always fun? Could you still see the rainbow?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 1h

I dream dreams of the place I can no longer return to, hoping to be forgiven the thought alone. With my own bare hands I should end this flower’s life and keep on singing its song till the end of time

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 3h

If I go up there, will I be able to make friends with more angels like you?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 4h

I admired the sun because it was similar to you. I rejected the sun (because it was similar to you).

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 5h

I'm not the one who gets to decide if it's a punishment, penance, or paradox.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 6h

It's not that I won't be saved. It's not that I won't be rewarded. I'll just keep being as hurt as I have been

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 7h

Remember, I promised not to let anyone murder you. Don't make a liar out of me, Ken.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 8h

For we have experienced loneliness, I swallowed my scream and melted it away in my chest

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 8h

You're the victim here- And you're my ruler. Don't leave me here with my guilty conscience, at the very least

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 10h

You're such a line to break and I'm, I'm so scared to make another mistake in the end, but I just want to be happy again.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11h

I can only see this world in terms of rational extremes and aesthetic extremes. I am completely and utterly devoid of empathy for others. That's why no one likes me. Nobody wants to form a true, heartfelt relationship with me.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 12h

Mother, occasionally I grow uneasy. Father, I’m really your daughter, aren’t I? I’m not just a doll, am I?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 13h

I'm not a little kid! I don't have stuff like dreams. Trying hard is useless in today's society.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 14h

I don't want to die. If I die, I'll be alone.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 15h

And from the ruins of that warped love, it was created— a brand new me.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 16h

Ours is a family that's based upon tradition, but with my careless words I tread upon your vision. Are five kids better than one? Who doesn't like to be gone?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 17h

Even though I felt pain, at least I knew my feelings were true.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 18h

So that the emptiness and everything disappears, hug me tight, to the point where it hurts, hurts so much

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 19h

I knew everything from the start. I told myself it didn't matter who lived or died

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 20h

Even though there is no proof, trust me, trust you. Where is the azure?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 21h

I can't get swallowed up by the fear of losing everything more than I already have.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 22h

Wearing a smiling mask, never showing my real self. Because it's scary. It's frightening.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 23h

I wonder if it is impossible for these two memories to coexist

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

The one and only thing that hasn’t changed is just my childishness and my memories.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

As I think upon the past, the cherry blossoms flutter and our tears overflow our eyes and fall.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Only by being born and living, you already become special to someone without realizing. Yeah... like you. You're special to me, you know?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

You should already know...that I’m a fool who took his friend, turned him into a sacrifice for selfish dreams, and got high on a single moment of glory.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

It's unfortunate that he just keeps losing over and over. Usually, he always wins.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I don't know ANY of these people! And I don't want them to know me!

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I've always wanted to be acknowledged by someone. That's why I tried to become someone's ideal... But now I understand. That that someone never existed. I was the one who just had to tell myself that I was fine the way I was.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I wanted to tear out the weakened parts of my heart, and throw them all away. But my body is already designed with this heart included. I have no choice but to keep on living with it.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I'm still amused, so leave me alone. Even if I love you, I'll kill you with this dismissive gaze

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I wanted to love so much that I didn't need a reason to love. I've lived a life so empty that I couldn't even love myself.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I've never been prepared to hold on to anything in my life.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I want to feel “alive”. Is it ok if I breathe? Tell me

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I don't even wanna try to remember. Just give me a break.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I wish I could see other timelines. I want to see what my life would be like if I wasn't just wrong. I want to see what the future would be like if i just died. If anyone would care, if it would change anything, if people would be nice to me. If I finally just went and died.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

if dying meant you'd make it home, i'd be gone.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

The friendly felines are no match for the reaper. Eye of the tiger cannot see into the future

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

To be able to be born under such amazing people. They’re disgusting? Dirty? Come on. Think about it. Mom and Dad can't possibly be hideous. That's imposs— Hideous hideous hideous hideous, Scary scary scary scary, Filthy filthy filthy.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

But somewhere in this world, in a place nobody knows, if I wander around, will you find me?

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

The marriage of meeting and parting creates a soft scent of painfulness

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Becoming your roots, your flower, I can’t make you bloom. Tell me, sitting here alone like this, more about that story of cannibalism. So don't flutter away.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

We're weak, and because we're weak, ah, today exists

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Humans cannot accomplish anything without holding on to something. Humans are not gods.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

No one, no one, no one to forgive me. No one, no one, no one to give me mercy. No one, no one, no one to save me. No one, no one, no one to kill me.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Only a little of that sigh you’ve let out is enough for me. If there’s no particular reason, I don’t mind it at all. What we can’t understand just by seeing if it’s certain enough or not is called a 'heart'.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Although he disliked being alone, he wanted solitude now.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Usually you put on this ridiculous forced smile and say the plainest, mildest things you can. And when I try to talk to you because I think you look sad, you joke around and make this face that says you're perfectly fine. I've never liked that part of you.

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