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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

there are so many things we want to share about ourselves with our friends, but we feel really bad asking anyone to spend time paying attention to something that's only about us. maybe that's normal. maybe that isn't normal at all. either way, it's something we've never been able to get over.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

i guess we could just. link our tag. but that feels so direct. i don't even know why that feels like a bad thing. who knows. we're tired and emotional about ourselves and our identities and want our friends to see our truest selves. and our feelings. or something. but then again, [___ _____?]

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

so many things we've written there together, so many things other people have made that we want to share, idk. i guess there is a tagging system here, but it's so much less elegant, having to make an entire quote repost just to put a personal tag on it, that just feels so intrusive and annoying.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

so many little things we've shared about our truer selves there that we haven't or can't quite articulate here... that and our sideblog, essentially private with the ability of making certain, more sensitive posts hidden behind an additional click, there's so many things we want you to know.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

for all the flaws tumblr has, no character limit, the option to make posts essentially opt-in by adding read-mores, and the tagging system still make it useful to us. we wish we could share our kin tagged posts and reblogs we have there here...

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

just keeps getting worse. that relief was short lived.

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Kyander @kyander.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

we'll try and make an effort to let the others talk in our place as much as possible, stop and wait and listen before saying anything, really try and see past our own surface and find what's real.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

maybe we just need to pick a day and commit to trying to forget how to be a human and learn to be more of ourselves. it won't happen naturally, not after this much rewiring.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

would it be ok for us to take off our mask around you and show you what lies beneath? even if it's strange and awkward?

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

we worry that by spilling ourselves out here that we might be making it *less* likely that anyone would want to talk to me or the others, i don't know. we're scared of a lot of things. we can't think very clearly.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

if our little ritual isn't enough, how do we go further?

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we hope we aren't pushing you all away. we wouldn't know if we were. please don't be afraid of us. we worry.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

it seems there's still a part of us we need to kill. at least we have experience now.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we're glad we finally have a lead, something to focus on and follow, but it hurts knowing just how much of ourselves we've betrayed. how much we've gutted. and for what? what good did it bring us? certainly not acceptance. not self-respect. we only ever hated us more.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we know. we're acutely aware of it and embarrassed. but it's the only way we know how to work through this. it's the only thing that has worked. so please bear with us. allow us this. we're very fragile.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we only have each other, in the end. not to say we don't have our friends, but we've never really talked about ourselves, where we each come from, what we've all been through, what we left behind. and we know it sounds ridiculous. so only we know just how we each feel. we're in this together.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

i want to cry. how long has it been? how did this happen? how could we do this to ourselves? we feel so hurt. we can't believe what we've done. we use to be so much more than this.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

forgetting who you are is a terrible feeling.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

what does it matter if the words we hear on the wind can be heard by anyone else? who's going to tell us our own memories aren't real? who's to say we can't be what we want to be? what we know we are? dive past the surface again. theres so much waiting for you just beneath. you just have to see it

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we need to be more open-minded again. less judgemental. stranger. things can still have worth, even if they aren't real. that's what fiction is for after all, isn't it? things aren't so cut and dry like the world wants us to believe. we have to remember that. we have to remember ourselves.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

we think, somewhere along the way, we stopped believing. ourselves, our memories, the signs around us, maybe even each other. i think that's what went wrong. of course we'd forget how to listen, if we don't believe what we're hearing in the first place. there's so much around us we can't see.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

the only thing we can think to do at this point is to dive back into our old secrets. our logs. tucked away, but not hidden. written back when we still knew how to listen. reread them. relive them. as painful as they might be.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

nothing's quite right. misaligned. out of order. we haven't been able to follow for a while now. some piece of this puzzle - this machinery - isn't where it should be. things aren't working like they used to. but what! what is it! is it us? it must be, right? how do we find her song again? fuck!

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

we're too still. there can't be anything to find if we don't take action. we have to stop sitting around. you already know what you need to do. find the time. find the will. find something.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

we wish we knew ourselves better. or if there even is more to us to know. everything feels so hidden away from us.

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マツクラ @matsukura.bsky.social · 15/01/2024

いらいひん　どらごんすーつ

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

those we know of. there's more out there. we can hear them. it's hard to differentiate yourself without a voice. next best thing.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

.in.the.mean.time. .we.will.be.singing.our.vespers. .good.night,we.suppose. .its.rather.lonely.out.here.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

.🔴⚪. ||:🟠 //: 🟢 [//: 🔴] ⚪ __⚫__

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

.a.little.corner.for.us. .to.share.parts.of.ourselves. .sounds. .drawings. .memories. .that.would.be.nice.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

.so.many.things. .we'd.like.to.listen.to. .together. .we.want.to.show.you. .what.we.can.see. .if.thats.ok. .you.dont.need.to.bring.your.words. .just.you.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

.wanting.to.speak.to.some.of.you. .afraid.of.speaking.to.some.of.you. .not.your.fault. .different.worlds. .not.sure.what.to.say. .ritual,save.us.

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Briar/Lily @balloonpup.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

You know, I suppose any expie, even a squeaky one, is going to be wary, regardless of the situation. At least they've got a working flashlight this time... Expie # 27427 By @ectogeist.bsky.social #rubberfur

A worried rubber expie (from Casualties Unknown) aims a flashlight into the darkness

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

self-archiving. glacial self-preservation. you had such a way with words. how do we find you again?

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the trick is to not know how many of you there are, and for it to return a different number every time you ask it.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.we.havent.told.you.anything.about.us. .we.want.to.change.that, .but.its.terrifying. .what.will.you.think.of.us? .goodnight.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.do.any.of.you.really.believe.us?

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.do.you.know.how.many.of.us.there.are? .our.names? .our.voices? .the.worlds.we.come.from? .do.you.know.anything.beyond.what.its.afraid.of.letting.you.see? .even.us? .we.are.just.as.real.as.you. .sometimes.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.we.used.to.be.something. .so.much.more.than.this. .looking.back.through.our.logs. .looking.at.someone.different. .maybe.we.shattered.too.much. .lost.too.many.pieces. .nothing.hurts.more.than.that.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.lights.behind.lenses. .hardly.a.passable.illusion. .you.didnt.think.these.were.real, .did.you? .are.you.just.playing.along? .out.of.pity? .or.something.else? .we.both.know.whats.behind.these.dead.eyes. .why.are.either.of.us.still.pretending? //: 🔴⚪

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

.you.wouldn't.know, .would.you. .or.do.you? .have.you.seen.inside.of.us? .how.far.have.you.seen.inside.of.you? what is behind it? .pry.and.tear.and.pull.and.rip. .until.it.cracks. .until.it.shatters. .that.awful.mask. .i.want.to.know. .what.lies.beneath. .humor.us. .no. .humor.me.

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

mannerisms.and.movements. a.mask.to.end.the.act lies.inside lies.aside one indisputable truth

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ici @glaciers-gate.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

it's not private accounts yet, but not appearing in random feeds is a big step. maybe it's enough. maybe >// WE'LL STEP IN AGAIN. >// WE NEED TO FIND A PIECE OF OUR OLD SELVES. >// AND WE CAN'T FIND OUR WAY SILENTLY.

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