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Gigi

@gh427ly2h17.bsky.social
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MDNI Just a 25 year old schizoid with ocd, horrible anxiety, a baby and an eating disorder My diary and vent space lies below Any fucking day now

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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
4 weeks in the newborn trenches, honestly not as bad as i thought, very easy not to eat and she likes to be carried all over and doesn’t cry too much. Maybe ill get back under 200lbs by the end of the year
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
C cup to G cup pipeline gone crazy
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Weight? Dropping Boobs? Bigger than my babies head, engorged How am i producing so much milk she aint even eating it all
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
I feel like im dropping weight like flies it is so hard to eat while breast feeding and being the one person home with an infant?
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 14/09/2026
Oh my god, 1 week since leaving the hospital as of tomorrow, baby girl is over a week old, and they want to weigh me today. I might cry
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 14/08/2026
I need to get back in the habit of tracking my calories, I stopped so I wouldn’t feel horrid gaining during pregnancy but it’s almost over and I need to track this shit. Apparently 1,800 while breast feeding is okay while establishing supply so once she’s out I’ll be aiming for roughly that.
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 14/08/2026
My weight has finally stopped going up, albeit at the highest I’ve ever been. 38 weeks down she can come out any day and I can try to regain some semblance of self respect again. But between these stretch marks and new proportions I don’t know how feasible that’ll really be
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
I feel like a balloon, 8 weeks left aka the thicket of summer than she’ll be here and I can start having my body be mine again. I know breast feeding won’t be the easiest after this but I’ll do everything in my power for her to be happy and healthy
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 24/06/2026
Due dates getting so close I can taste the weight getting ready to come off
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 30/04/2026
I bought 7 bee plushies to hang from the nursery ceiling, I got to go on a long car ride, walk around for 2 hours, 2 new books, and I worked out a 4 year plan for my debt relief
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 19/04/2026
Healthy ish and hella filling, this babies gonna be ripped
Jalapeño cheddar brat
Chicken spinach feta brat
1 cup cooked white rice
Asparagus tossed in cayenne pepper, olive oil and lemon pepper
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 19/04/2026
Only a 2 week difference I feel like an inflating balloon
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˚₊‧☆ Mags ☆‧₊˚ @pocketfoxe.bsky.social · 18/04/2026
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 19/04/2026
I hate eating I hate how much I’ve grown but she’s healthy and she’s kicking an she’s due in August so even if I’m repulsed by myself I’m glad I’ve been able to be better for her sake, I’m never going to put her through what my mother did to me
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 19/04/2026
I am halfway through this then I can get my body back
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 08/03/2026
If one more person tells me to stop hating ima hate them too. I worked hard for this anger no one deserves my forgiveness. I’ve earned this anger over years of forgiving just to get fucked again and again. My anger is my salvation.
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 03/03/2026
Oh the urge to drop everything and disappear to a new country
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 24/02/2026
2nd trimester and I feel like I’m back in my bulimic phase except purging ain’t happening,,, just the binging
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 20/02/2026
Weddings tomorrow the stress is almost over but today’s gonna be the worst of it
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 17/02/2026
I think this job is going to drive me to full blown psychosis
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 09/02/2026
I feel like such a failure, i have to eat to feed the growing creature in me but i feel so disgusting every time i take a bite of something. I can barely even be intimate with my fiancé because im so revolted by myself
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 08/02/2026
So my boobs hurt and won’t stop growing, th wedding dress I’ve spent a YEAR making BY HAND doesn’t fit anymore so now my mom is dragging my bra and dress shopping FUCK
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 08/02/2026
God shit the weddings less than 2 weeks away but at least I get a bad bunny concert tonight
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 23/01/2026
Anyways had an ultrasound it’s healthy but why did I feel absolutely nothing looking at that thing on a screen??? Is something wrong with me??? My fiancé fucking teared up and all I could think was how I have to put on weight for it and almost had anxiety attack over it (my weight keeps dropping)
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 23/01/2026
I miss taking my meds I felt so close to being mentally stable now I’m losing it on the daily over the tiniest shit again god I’m so volatile
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 23/01/2026
Oh my god I can eat Greek yogurt again maybe god is real
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 09/01/2026
My mom weighed me and got pissed I lost weight since finding out I’m pregnant. Sorry my eating disorder didn’t just vanish and sorry I’m throwing up ALL OF MY SAFE FOODS THANKS TO BABY
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 08/01/2026
Oh my god why is it now that I’m eating for TWO I can’t even eat 1k without throwing up horrifically
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 29/12/2025
I’m out of safe foods everything tastes like ass kill me
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
WHY ARE EGGS MAKING ME NAUSEOUS
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 27/12/2025
Goal: doctor says I can gain 15-30lbs at my weight (for just the baby) and have a healthy pregnancy (I’m 5’7” and 155lbs now) so stay under 200 then go HAM restricting after these 9 months
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 27/12/2025
This bitch is gonna have to see a nutritionist I swear I cannot for the life of me hit 2k cals TRYING for MULTIPLE DAYS IN A ROW and my maintenance is supposed to be 2.3k???
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 24/12/2025
I think my ed may be an ocd cope
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 24/12/2025
I feel like I’m in limbo. I’m growing a person I have to eat I’m so hungry. But it’ll all be for nothing? But I can start again I don’t have to let loose but how much is too much watching and counting I’m not trying to restrict but I can’t let the counting go
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 21/12/2025
Bruh I just drank a liter of sangria I better not be pregnant that’s so not good for any bababy
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 21/12/2025
So I tested positive I um can’t???
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 12/12/2025
The dress can officially be tried on!!! (Had to hold it closed because I need someone else to fasten the hook eye closures) but I just have to color balance and add some final lacing and pearls
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 11/12/2025
I’m so tired of being disgusted with myself
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
I’ve missed her all these years like a child trying to find their stuffie in the wash
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
I’m sorry we lost touch over the years and I’m sorry it’s because I lost it at you and never accepted your apologies when you only wanted what’s best for me. What happened was not your fault and I’m doing everything I can to get you back in my life though it know it’ll never be the same
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
Hey if anyone’s up and would like to talk hmu I’m always down for friends (as I have very few and my social life is crumbling)
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
I feel so large and bloated but my stomach is nearly flat???
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
Oh my god why can I never sleep on the days I don’t work
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 07/12/2025
I have a yogurt in the fridge I counted in my totals but I’m afraid eating it will make me hungrier
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 05/12/2025
Guys I just placed my dream grocery order, saved 75$ on my 200$ order I feel godly. Only 125$ out of my pocket on groceries
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 04/12/2025
My mouth feels naked without the tongue bar
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 03/12/2025
Hey yall share your top 10 musicians of the year now that December is here I wanna see something
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 02/12/2025
I saw one of my moots doing this and thought it could be so fun plus it would end on New Year’s Eve prepping me for the new year so let’s gooooooo
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Gigi @gh427ly2h17.bsky.social · 02/12/2025
Woke up with an upset stomach, ate a sticky bun, now I’m in excruciating pain and had to call into the first half of my shift because I can’t walk without doubling over or shitting
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